Hay how are you doing today? Hopefully Great!! I’m just going to keep it real. My name is Nicole, I could use a little help financially, let me explain to you a little my situation. When I turned 18 my mother died, I got a job and within a year I met my first husband, we had 2 kids, I was a stay at home mother. I went through a divorce at the age of 24, and met my second husband, I started my career in financing, I loved helping my customers, and I was the head of household breadwinner in the house..my husband was a immigrant, he worked hard but didn’t make as much as me. I also had 2 children with that marriage, and was happily married for 13 years. My family, my job, meant everything to me, I worked hard and was the soccer mom, and band mom..when I wasn’t working. Until one day my oldest daughter, at the age of 19 became sick, she rushed to urgent care and found out she had appendicitis, urgent Care rushed her to the emergency hospital, where she had an emergency appendicectomy. After surgery they put her in the recovery room, she spent the night there, but was still really sick in the morning her heart rate was 125, I was very concerned, I begged for the hospital to let her stay another night, so they could monitor her recovery. She unfortunately wasn’t doing so well, her heart rate gradually increased throughout the day and night, to make a long story short so I don’t go into depression again,.. her heart rate went up to 190 200 beats per minute, she went into cardiac arrest, they were able to bring her back after a little while, but then she flatlined again, at this point I was devastated, my first daughter had just died in front of me, within a few days, and I could do nothing to bring her back. I begin to think there was some type of malpractice, because she was a healthy 19 year old with no problems, she just graduated from high school, she was healthy was just started going to college, had a great job and was a very beautiful and smart young lady. She didn’t do drugs, and she was a youth minister at her church, Even though I didn’t raise her religious, because I wanted to have her own faith. I was raised all messed up and I didn’t want to push anything on her. But she made her choice and her decisions wisely and to this day would have been a very smart beautiful young lady. I had three more kids at home, so I didn’t quit working I continue to work through that year after her death. I didn’t want to but, I believe there was some malpractice… So I took advice and sued the hospital.. due to the fact after my daughter’s death the doctor said he didn’t know what happened? So I continue to work for that year took no time off because I was the head of household, I got a lawyer and I pursued my case, after a year my lawyer told me that they can no longer help me… They told me I did not have a case, this was right before my deposition was scheduled. I accepted it the outcome and no longer proceeded to move on with the case, I was devastated I was tired I was sad I was hurt I was confused, to this day I still feel all the emotions, I cry every day wondering what was the truth what really happened? I may never know!!! So since then I lost my mind, I lost my job, I lost my home and all of my assets with it, I went through a divorce, and I became homeless. It will be 5 years on October 10th, but yet… I have come so far… Yes of course,,,..I’ve seen therapists after therapists after therapists ,,,I have seen doctors after doctors after doctors, and I’m not the type to be an addict I don’t like taking prescriptions from doctors like Norco and all those other prescriptions, but I started to, I couldn’t focus I couldn’t think straight, I couldn’t do anything, I was basically a zombie. So I started to smoke marijuana,… self-medicated is that what they call it???? Since then I have seemed help.. yes I still smoke marijuana but I got my life back on track, well at least most of it!!! HERE is where you come in!!! I have my apartment, and yes I raise my children homeless, but we managed and I only have one left in the household he’s 9. He keeps me going every day..yes!! I have my little Putt-Putt car that gets me here and there.. but here is where it gets REAL truthfully I just need some support in life, someone who can listen and understand and not judge me, and help me financially and legally!! I need help, I’m 44 years old with physical and mental problems, I go to the doctors they want to put me in all these pills, I don’t like them!! I have issues with my weight and my right knee and my mental and physical state is not that great, it’s hard for me to concentrate to remember things like doctor’s appointments, I lose concentration..it’s hard for me to get around, I have issues with my knees.. I’ve seen doctors but they want to put me in therapy and it hurts to walk, they told me I needed to lose 100 lb so that I could get surgery, so I did so.!! I’m at the point now I’m frustrated with the doctors, and I haven’t seen one in a while, I’m kind of scared because of what happened with my daughter at the hospital. Yes I am obese and surgery for me is risky, I weigh about 350 lb. I’ve been trying to lose the weight but exercise is difficult, walking from my apartment building to my car is difficult. Going through therapy and repeating my situation over and over and over again has just triggered me into more depression. I tried to keep a safe State of mind for my children that live with me, they are my life without them, I don’t think I would be here. In this whole process I did get a DUI and I have financial issues with that in Missouri, which I don’t have the funds to fix, nor the means to fix it. I applied for social security due to my depression and my physical state now after 4 years I was denied completely. I want to be me again, at least the happy woman that I was!! I understand I need help.. but all I get is recurring doctor’s appointments and excuse after excuse of why we’re not moving forward.. I can’t work due to my mental capacity is shot, there’s no way I can work in a finance company and be able to do my job properly and sufficiently. I do have a little income from unemployment and the welfare office. I have HUD fir my housing.. and I’m reaching out to all the resources that I can.. what I really need is moral support, someone that I can reach out and talk to that won’t judge me and will help me if needed financially, just to help me make ends meet, I’m not asking for anything extravagant, nor am I asking you to support me financially. But yes I could use a little monetary help once in awhile, and a lot of communication from somebody who cares. I have been used and abused all my life, so I don’t trust many people, it’s hard for me to communicate over and over again my situation, I don’t have family, and even less do I have friends. If you are willing to open your heart and get to know me, I promise!!! I’ll keep it 100% with you! I’m not religious, but I am spiritual, I believe in a higher power, that comes from within everyone of us. If you can resignate to what I’m asking and feel you are able to help me, please feel free to reach out to me and we will talk. I will be more then gladly to give you more details about my life. But as this website is used for, I’m here to reach out for a helping hand, guidance, and understanding without judgment!!! Please if there is anything that you can do to help me feel free to contact me!!! May your life be loving in existence! Thank you.