Life is a cycle of ups and downs. Sometimes you have to take it and live how it comes. Today I have found myself trying to keep up with the demands of daily living. Wondering how did life get this hard? I have realized that in a blink of an eye your life can change.
That change came for me 8/12/2018 when I received a call from my mother telling me my brother has died and she needed me home. Life flashed in my face that day while on the phone with her packing to get on 85 South heading to Florida. Finding it hard to believe and thinking I just talked to him a week ago plus I was just there in June for my birthday.
Not thinking just getting on the road to be there for her. The 5 hour drive made me feel I got there in 2 hours because I felt like I was flying. Still not believing but I know living and dying is a part of life.
I am sorry for going on but I am still carrying this after a year. It brings me here for 2 reasons. When you have little to no friends to go through the grieving process you want to express your feelings so you write about when you can’t really talk to anyone. Second I have outstretched my income helping my mom bury my brother.
So who do you turn to when there is no one to help you? No friends. No family that have anything to give. I have been blessed for God has been carrying me this far but each day is getting harder when every turn looks like a dead end road.
Trying to find a job when you are filled with emotional, physical disabilities when you don’t fit the mode of how a disabled person suppose to look like makes the battle a real struggle.
My situation is I thought with how I live a simple life budget what I have accordingly that I could handle the extra weight but now I am looking at $6000 of debt which is not much but much when can’t pay daily bills like I use to.
I’ve tried getting a loan but I have to much debt for my low income. So I am realizing my good credit score I’ve been trying to maintain means nothing when you don’t have a big income. I’ve signed up for several of these fund me sites but nothing much. I understand people are struggling just as I am. Now with the hurricanes happening everyone is in need of a helping hand. If you can help I would really appreciate it.
Here is my paypal link: https://paypal.me/NicheleD
I will continue to pray and wait for a blessing. I would like to thank everyone.