This is a new one so I dont know where to begin/ what to ask.
Very brief backstory, best not to bore.
Grew up with a single mum ~ amazing, but from around 8 however we were involved in a DV situation that lasted until I was around 17 / ongoing because do they really leave you alone ah
In and out of home at around 15 because eww but limited family/friends/safe zones at certain living locations wcud
Been working since I could legally at 14 and paying bills since then.
My mother got out when I was at the age of 17 but it was still a rough few years for her and my siblings. At this point I was well out of home however there were still times where I was needed because family. I lost a job due to needing to be their full time carer while she was in hospital (I tried to change to school/weekend hours but they were not satisfied with that need of mine)
Since 19 I’ve managed to gain employment working with the community and being able to help people gain their own employment also helping where I can with people through their own struggles.
But f*** life is hard isn’t it. I’m 26 now, been working these last 7 years paying off my debt I created when I was younger and some bloody how managed to get clean.
But again, I’m 26 and my debt is still just too much, my car left is 7000$ but interest keeps getting me. There’s OLD credit cards, well cancelled but overdue still because I was of course young and dumb and WHY SO MUCH, random debt collectors on missed bills from idek when. And just housing.
The only reason interest hasn’t hit harder the last 4 months is because I was evicted due to the rental crisis and the owner needing to move back home. I haven’t been able to find a place yet so I am replacing my rent money for bill money which is pushing some along better.
But if I did find a house I still can’t afford to pay the down fees to rent currently. It’s a cycle. I try to save but my mental health is so s*** at the moment I had to go part time to avoid taking extra time off of work and potentially loosing my job.
My younger brother died last year and it hit so hard, the year anniversary just went and it was harder than expected.
However since he died, I also lost 3 other family members within 6 months. I feel I can’t even mourn them properly because the loss of a sibling out ways and how sh*t is that. So that makes me feel like a piece of poop.
My last work pay was very low as it was his anniversary and then I had python emergency. I lost my runt. My heart is broken. But I am also worried about my other babies. I’ve spent all my money &ZIP (that I haven’t touched forever to try pay it off ahahaha) on seeing the cause and an appointment to check my others. However one python appointment is $153 and that’s without blood work. So far the next smallest seems okay so one vet visit should be okay, but it just would have been nice to be able to afford whatever to get them all checked, just in case.
I also want land one day of my own where I can create an animal rescue, that is my absolute dream, but at this point in time is seems like that isn’t going to be realistic.
I’ve been made redundant this month as well but I’m sure I’ll find something soon but it’s still an extra huge worry.
Life is a fun one isn’t it. I’ve tried turning some hobbies into some extra cash but it just goes to bills and when living pay to pay having some hobbies left is nice too. I don’t have the environment to set up a hobby into a business because that’s also crossed my mind, a bank wouldn’t give me a loan to start because well it takes years to get your score better and I’m still missing some bills so it’s not going up anytime soon.
Thanks for your time, pretty sure I turned into a bore