Dear, to those who feel concerned.
A big thank you to those who are even taking the time to read this. My name is ashae and this is the hardest thing I’ve ever written. The more I think of what to say in words the more embarrassed I’ve become of my situation entirely. I’m currently become aware that my six-year relationship that I would have and have had done anything and everything save. Was not the fairytale dream it started off to be. And in all my humiliation here I am asking for a little help ready and more than willing to change my days of depression and mental and sometimes physical abuse. This is me coming to total strangers with something so personal making some want to believe and I do not want to live this life anymore but that I do feel generally trapped and I’ve made failed attempts that I believe are entirely from my financial situation. I have certainly allowed myself to indulge in a relationship with Rose colored glasses on thinking that I found something wonderful and that all the struggles and pain that I had been through in my life before meeting this person at all and just for this wonderful blessing of a man I thought. Before meeting him I had had a unspeakable childhood had a child at the age of 13 homes hospital bedside I found myself standing at when I was 21 and she was 8 years old. When she passed she knew me only as her cousin ashae my aunt had graciously adopted her own. To provide her life that she truly deserved and to hopefully spare ever having to explain who or where her Daddy was. The man who I was victimized by. Didn’t come from very large family or see much of them outside of holidays. Family reunions. The age of 15 my father moved me and my stepmother just a small town in Texas panhandle. I went to school and graduated here in a small town and people would have described me as a very funny comical person easy to get along with.
My mother passed away unexpectedly when I was 24 my father had already been incarcerated a year and still had at least another 5 ahead manslaughter for my attacker.
Suddenly I was completely alone with no family. And a mental mess about everything that I’d experiened in just 5yr spand.
Then I met prince charming he came unexpectedly but most welcomed in that point in my life. He made me laugh when I never thought I’d smile again and he made me feel safe and comfortable when I could hardly trust anyone. He was non judgemental or unaffected by my past and the ways I was and just seemed instead to see this beautiful person inside my mess and was gonna be my hero.
Im willing about to share the rest of my story for those who would like to hear it. I’ve left an email address for you to feel free to subject: (this is my life) request at your own discretion. It’s raw and it’s honest and I’ve left nothing to secret. Warning trigger sensitive content
So to all of you still with me here still reading this. Your gracious donations would be the true life saver of my life. It’s all you beautiful souls out the that might find me worthy of financial aid that can help me overcome the only thing that keeps me imprisoned. I’ve got the will. I’m feeling this will be a good send way to finally forgive myself and for all the blame and fault I’d convenced myself I’d created and deserved. But still to you whom been with all the way to the end of my request and story. I just say thank you for blessing this read with your time and I thousand times thank you to anyone who may help. I had always thought I was a let down but I promise to use every bit of your compassion and care appreciate tively and not make you feel regretful or that I’d be a waste of your generosity.