Hello. I never thought I would ask anyone for money, let alone a stranger on the internet, yet here I am. I need money for psychotherapy and potentially psychiatric medication. Here is my story:
I am a 22 year old college student from Bulgaria. I study Psychology in the New Bulgarian University in the Bulgarian capital, Sofia. I have been struggling with depression and anxiety for about 2 years. I have attempted suicide twice. I lost almost all of my friends and have very few left. I have been failing in university. And things got a lot worse once the pandemic began. I lost several family members this year to COVID and to cancer – my mums uncle, my great grandfather, a close family friend and a very beloved teacher from my high school.
My maternal grandfather has Parkinson’s disease and Dementia and I was living with him from August 2020 until March 2021, in order to help him. At first it was not very hard, he could take care of himself and I was mostly helping him with his medication, with cleaning, cooking, groceries, etc. However things got really hard around the end of October when he got COVID. The only typical symptom he got was high fever for about 2 – 3 days and then he was ok, however his Dementia got way worse. The doctors explained to us that COVID has a neurological component and hits people with neurodegenerative diseases really hard. Suddenly, he lost the ability to walk without assistance, he lost most of his speech and cognitive abilities and basically required constant care for absolutely everything 24/7. I tried to take care of him with my mum, but it was too much work. We did not have enough time for work/school and it was hard for us to move him around because he is heavy, so we made the decision to put him in an assisted living home, which costs a lot of money. This was around February.
Since then I have been in a very deep depression. I can barely get out of bed and function. I am very suicidal. I did not go out with friends for months. I have no energy for anything and I can barely keep up with my studies. I am working from home in a friends business, but it is not very profitable and I do not get a lot of money. It is enough to live a comfortable life with food and water, electricity and internet, but just about that. I had a lot of savings from a previous job pre-pandemic, but they are almost gone now. I started going to a therapist about a month ago and I have already seen an improvement. I started talking to my friends again and I go for a walk almost every day and I finally have hope. My therapist advised me to see a psychiatrist, so next week I have an appointment and I hope that I will be prescribed medication.
I am finding it difficult to pay for all of that, however, and I really need it. I do not wish to offend anyone, as I realize that a lot of people are begging for food and shelter. And if you think that I do not deserve help, that is ok. Just please be respectful towards me and do not attempt to bully me. I really do not wish to harm or offend anyone and it is really hard for me to ask for help. But I am completely honest when I say that life has been hell for over a year now and it was getting worse and worse, and now that I finally have hope again I don’t want to lose it.
Please help me kind stranger and may God bless all of you.
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