I am a mom of 2 beautiful little girls and I am their main caregiver at home. My husband has been struggling for the past 3 years to find a stable job after he finished his contract with the Navy. We’ve moved out of state a few times as we have followed jobs around the United States. He is finally starting a promising Job and we are so thankful. The only problem is that we have acquired a lot of debt. 40,000 to be exact (38,780). From paying bills, trying to make ends meet, to paying for prenatal care and the birth of our second out of pocket, having to pay fees for every move, and everything that comes with moving around. Leases and uncertainty of where we will be moving next is expensive. I’ve had to pull out credit cards to buy us food and clothes for the babies.
I have applied for minimum wage jobs as I have no school or training yet, but my availability is only when my husband is home from work… and I know a lot of places would rather hire someone who is completely available, and I understand.
I know that a lot of women entrust their children with caregivers, at daycares or preschool. I admire them but I cannot do that. My mom who had to work two to three jobs during my childhood as a single mother, entrusted us with caregivers. As a result, I was severely abused by the people what were supposed to care for me. I was beaten for anything and bullied by the woman and her children. I was actually made to eat my own vomit because how dare I get hepatitis A. The woman adored my little sister and despised me(which I am so thankful that my baby sister didn’t experience the pain and torment). Her husband sexually abused me and I would cry to my mom everyday not to let me stay with them, but she had no other choice…I could go on about other caregivers and daycare centers but I think you understand the point as to why I cannot leave my beautiful baby girls to fend for themselves. We don’t have any family near by that I trust who can watch my babies. It breaks my heart.
So, after trying to sell items around the house, and constantly applying to jobs, I am left to beg for help. I’ve always been a woman to try and figure things out by myself but I am feeling so defeated.
If you find it in your heart to help my little family out, I will be forever thankful!