Hello, I’m Ellie a 20 year old student from a small village in North Lincolnshire. I never though I’d end up on one of these sites, I don’t know why I’m hoping someone will send me money as I’m just a another selfish young adult.
I’ll tell you about my life and maybe somewhere you’ll find a good reason to send me something to help out.
I’m an incredibly hard working waitress and kitchen assistant in a local pub. I’ve been working there for 2 years but on and off had rough patches where going in to work made me quite miserable. I only tolerate my current job now as I haven’t been able to get a new one. I’ve dropped CVs, I have emails coming in weekly from jobsites and apply for what’s appropriate but nobody seems to get back to me unfortunately.
I don’t earn as much as I’d like ( but does anyone? Ha)
I’m not going to lie I live off of fruits and oats if my partner doesnt want to go anywhere for tea and it makes me feel pathetic.
He gets double what I’m paid an hour and it makes me want to curl up in a corner and die. I feel useless as I can never afford to pay him back or get anything nice for him without putting myself is financial stress.
I dont dare ask him for money his family would think I’m a leach (they probably already think I am since he buys me nearly every meal). I love him to bits he is so kind to me I couldn’t possibly pull on him for anything else. Hes the only one that earns enough to save for a house and it hurts I cant contribute towards it.
I dont actually have any friends to ask either. Nobody seems to speak to me anymore.
I’m trying to save but I’ve had my insurance and tax come at the same time this month.. recently paid for a evening course so I have more qualifications to get a better Job and also I need to save to service my car.
I’m trying to pay my mum rent but half of it ends up being chores as I just can’t afford it right now.
I pay for medication for my depression. I sent out a low income form and they never got back to me I’m not sure if it takes this long to get checked but some weeks I’ve had to go without it and I’ve ended up harming myself.
I love fitness and the gym I used to go a lot before everyone’s shifts got cut but now I can only go if I have enough in my tips from the week. I’m no longer eligible for student discount there which is a shame.
I don’t know what to do anymore. My job, hardly having any money and feeling alone with it all just make me not want to be around to have to deal with it.
I’ve had therapy before through school, college and through the doctors but it didn’t seem to change the way I thought about things or how I felt about myself.
So now it’s just medication and trying to pull everything together by myself.
I know it’s not great being on here begging for money but I’ve got that desperate. My case is hardly the worst, I know my needs arent as serious like others and anyone else would deserve your donation more then me.
It was nice to get all that off my chest, thank you for reading.