People always talk about abuse and how if it is not physical, it is not abuse. But imagine being used by the man you thought you loved? Imagine being made to feel inadequate constantly? Warned about how angry he could get and that I do not want him that angry? Told every day he does not care. And watching him yell at his kids, the dogs, you name it. Imagine if you will also being demeaned, demoralized, degraded. Through words and actions. That is the unspoken abuse that I know so many have experienced. The mental and emotional beating, if you will. What I experienced that got me here.
A year ago, I made one of the hardest decisions of my life. I left my ex fiancee, but hardest of all his kids that I had helped raise for 4 years. I never loved him but by God, I loved those kids. I financially supported him and his 2 kids, worked tirelessly to help him repair his home, give the kids the clothes, school supplies, and experiences they deserved. I handled the home, the kids, and his thank you was to only expect more of me, while demeaning me, belittling me, milking me for every dollar I had.
I have had to attend therapy and move past his abuse. Move past not having his kids in my life. The things I lost. I even had to get my items from the home I helped him build with a police escort. He told a great story and for it, I have acclimated great debt. I am trying to pay it all off to finally have the fresh start I deserve. To put in perspective, I moved in to his house and it was worth $185k. Thinking I was investing in our future, I dropped roughly $45k and he could likely sell the home for $250k. I was not married to him or with him for the time needed for common law. I was stupid and my name is not on the house. I thought I was in love. I thought I was doing the right thing. Boy was I wrong.
I am working my ass off to get myself 100% back. I have my own place, I am living near family, and am feeling better than I have in years. I am just in need of some assistance to help the financial burden be alleviated. Just to get myself back on track. Any little bit will help and will be put towards credit cards and loans I used during that time.
Thank you for your consideration.