I never thought I would have to ask a stranger for money but I am so incredibly grateful for this site and even more grateful for people like you who want to help.
A little bit about me…I am 55 years old. I have a chronic pain illness which makes it difficult to work, actually, impossible. I am divorced and a mother of two daughters. 23 and soon to be 21. They are wonderful people and my greatest accomplishment.
I chose to stay at home and raise them, giving up my career. I do not regret that decision yet. because of that decision I am not eligible to collect disability due to the fact I haven’t enough work history. I did work from age 14 to 35 but that doesn’t count because they, SSDI, only go back ten years.
I was able to live on child support and although we went without many things, I was able to give them a wonderful home filled with lots of love💕. I was at every game and there for every cold, milestone and even heartaches.
I suffer from major depressive disorder and anxiety disorder but worked through these with a smile on my face for their sake. When they became adults, child support ended. Of course they still lived with me as they were college students. I didn’t know what to do as my major panic attacks occurred when I was working and a fear of work developed. It was a paralyzing fear. I know that seems strange but it does exist, it is called ergophobia.
I did the only thing I could do, I applied for disability and I had the support of my psychiatrist and many therapists. I was denied, the appeal judge actually told me “ You present yourself too well”. I am intelligent, articulate and educated. The judge should have known mental health illnesses are not visible. Anyway, I was denied. Fast forward a year and I got a job. I was there for fifteen months and spent two three month periods out on short term disability because I suffered physical problems brought on by stress. When my last short term disability was ending, my doctor and I decided it would be best for me not to return. I was feeling better physically not working until I developed fibromyalgia, believed to be brought on by the severe stress I was under trying to work. That was over a year ago. In that time. family and my ex-husband have been helping me financially but they cannot continue to do so and I cannot continue to put them in the situation of me asking.
So, here I am with no income and no options for receiving help for my disability. My fibromyalgia causes me pain everyday. Some days I cannot get out of bed and days that I can, I try to do things that need to be done which only leaves me suffering more for the next two to three days. It is not a way to live. My doctor and I have not yet found the right medication or mix of medications to work.
I really do not know what I am going to do to support myself. Which brings me to the present and why I am asking you, a complete stranger, to please consider helping me.
I am a good person; kind, thoughtful, appreciative, funny, loving, honest. I love football and hockey, sorry I am a New England fan😊 , photography, the beach and mountains, anything in nature. I have a fondness for trees, I think they are beautiful. I love animals, especially dogs because they show such unconditional love. I am just a normal good hearted person.
I woke this morning to no heat. I have no milk. My bank account is overdrawn. It is getting bad.
Please consider helping me live the life I have left in some comfort financially. I do not want to be a burden to my daughters who are just starting out in their own lives. They deserve better than that.
I appreciate the time you have given me while reading this and wish you well,