Hi my name is Doris. I am 58 and have been divorced for 26 years now. I have 4 adult children and 9 grand kids. I work very hard and have realized that has been by my choice. My hands sure show it. I have arthritis and crippled up knuckles. Everyday is a struggle financially and mentally. In 2019 I opened my dream store , a resale shop in the town I live in. I would take my daughter Taylors 2 older children, my grand babies Josie and Jackson with me to my store and they would play in their apartment…lol…(one of the dressing rooms). They loved loved loved coming to mema’s store. After hours we would ride bikes in the wide open parking lot. We would put wigs on and act like we were in a beauty shop ( I had barber and beauty shop chairs) and just crack up. They helped me display things and move items around. At my home we have a lemon stand, karaoke, bikes, we do arts and crafts, they have their own room, they love mema’s 2 dogs nugget and girl. They fulfilled my life everyday with so much joy. Then covid hit in March 2020, My store wasn’t essential and had to shut down a few months. When I reopened I was behind on the rent. At the same time my daughter broke my heart and moved 4 hours away and told me to never contact her again. She even got a restraining order on me by accusing me of what her boyfriend was doing to her…tampering with her vehicle, knocking on windows and doors at night, stealing her mail ect. The boyfriend has been a problem every since he came into our lives Dec 2015. The guy struggles with psychotic thoughts of others trying to kill him ect. He abuses my daughter and her 4 children (the youngest two Bo and Bevy are his also)mentally and physically. I reported the abuse and that’s why they moved and took the children away from me. I was distraught when my daughter did this to me but mainly for the kids. They must wonder why mema never sees them any more. I fought hard to get my babies help and out of the abusive home but haven’t succeeded. Its been 18 months since I’ve seen them. I cant think clearly to function. I don’t want to leave my home. I do work but I have to push myself, I have so many things I need to take care of but my mind is stuck. I feel I’ve let my grand children down so badly. I spent what money I had on lawyers and ran out before anything could happen. These children have no one. No friends, family, not even my daughter their mother. She is to wrapped up in boyfriend. I almost lost my home at one point. I have to work many hours just to be able to eat and put gas in my car. I want t o fight for these children. Without the funds and not making enough and no time because I’m working all the time I cant fight for them. I don’t ask for help ever. I overwhelm myself with things and then turn around and commit to helping others and I don’t get my things done. My thoughts race everyday wondering what can I do to help them, where will I get the money, how will I pay my bills and eat? I came across this site trying to figure out how to make money. There’s so much more to my story. I want to feel happiness and joy and I just don’t and I don’t know that I ever will again. My only hope in my life is to save Josie and Jackson from a horrific home life and hopes that they will be a part of my life again and forever. No one else seems to care about these kids. I have been to everyone prosecutors, judges, lawyers, church people, friends, family…everybody just looks at me like they don’t care. I’m all they’ve got but I cant do it and survive at the same time. I thought about a sugar daddy but that’s not me…that’s how desperate I am. I’m looking for help with paying a lawyer to fight for Josie and Jackson. I don’t know what else to do. If i quit on them and something happens to them I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. I know they miss me as well. I spent quality time with them. My daughter is not being a mother to these children and they deserve to be treated with love. I hope to hear from someone soon who can help me with my grandkids. This is a very difficult thing for me to do by asking for help. I have to humble myself to do this and I’m sorry to be asking but I don’t know what else to do.
Sincerely and thank you for your time
Doris