I live in a one bedroom apartment with my single father and my two brothers. I have to share a room with my brothers and have hardly anything for myself. I don’t know the last time I asked my dad for new clothes because of how guilty I feel for taking his money when he is a single parent (haven’t seen my mom in 5 years and she has never given a cent in child support) My dad works a minimum wage job and we have just enough money to survive but not much else. (never been out of my province, never gone on any sort of vacation, and half the clothes I wear are years and years old. I just want some money to be able to buy clothes and feel not like a bum. It is truly embarrassing, if I can buy my own items it will help my dad focus his money towards saving it for a better future.
It would mean the world to me and take so much stress off of school and everything. Often I am too depressed to even sleep until the sun comes up and my body is definitely feeling the effects of not enough sleep and nutrients. it is tough to focus on my school work and lately I haven’t even been talking to my friends like I used to. I feel like a total failure in life and I know that it isn’t my fault since I didn’t choose to be born into this life. I don’t know what to do, I have tried to get a job but then this whole coronavirus pandemic has really ruined that for me and luckily my dad still gets to keep his job, now more than ever is it hard for me to be able to afford to buy myself new clothes and items. The only money I ever have is like $50 from my birthday usually in the form of a starbucks card and I don’t want to keep living this way.
Sorry for asking I just feel so lost. Anything helps, even you just reading this and taking the time to hear my feelings helps because I feel like I have nobody to talk to. This is nice to get off my chest.
I will leave my paypal, thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this <3 lots of love!!! Stay safe!