hello my name is Laura I’m 35years old and fill like I’m living half an existence!! Iv never done anything like this before so not sure the best way to go about it- but here goes-
When I was 27 I fell pregnant and gave birth to the most beautiful, Amazing Ray of sunshine I had ever seen, she was a surprise as didn’t find out till I was 7months she was my first and only child and I was petrified!! The day I had her was also a shock as we were rushed in for an emergency c-section as everytime I had a contraction her heart slowed right down but they delivered her at 2.04pm screaming and front front moment I looked into that little face with her Ruby red lips puckering up at me I was lost into a world of complete happiness, love, warmth and light and the next 4 years were/are the best years of my life. Erica was a very curious, happy, funny, caring little girl who just loved animals and other kids, woke every morning with a smile, even used to giggle in her sleep at night, and went to bed every night with a smile. I was blessed everything went perfectly the baby months flew by hitting every milestone on time if not sooner and my god I was the happiest mummy in the world, I didn’t think I’d have children let alone 1 so perfect and I took to motherhood like a duck to water. Fast forward a month before her 5th bday and I lost my little girl i won’t go into detail but it completely broke me, my life suddenly plunged into darkness, cold, empty, sad, angry and pointless. I lost my home as I lost all respect for my life I just didn’t care, I didn’t know how to function let alone get through the day without my angel. Fast forward 4years I currently live on a leaky, cold small boat that’s not really fit. What I’m asking for is around £15-£20.000 to buy a houseboat, I look out across the river in the morning and it’s peaceful, very pretty and right for me, I will miss my gorgeous girl for as long as I live bit I’m starting to see some light again and I can see some beauty in things and if I had a fully liveable boat I can start to really rebuild my life and move forward as I wouldn’t be constantly trying to fix something that’s no longer fixable and im afraid that one day that could be me and my life if I don’t get some goodness and a nice homely liveable comfort around me. So if you can see it in your hearts to donate anything I would be more grateful than you could ever realise you truly would be giving me the tool to rebuild myself as a person and live a life, I will never have more children and I cherish the years I had as a mother but it would be lovely to have somewhere to hang pics so I can relive the great memories as I make new ones. Thank you again for reading this and again if you could help no matter how big or small the donation I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Paypal.me @looloo86 thanks you