Help the caring, warm, good hearted beings that are still out there.
Hello there beautiful giving people. I don’t know where else to turn to. I decided to put my pride behind me and allow myself to ask for help…
My name is Briana Jo Crowder. I am 28 years old. I have a beautiful 16 month old daughter named Elsie Briella-Jo. I don’t usually do these kinds of things, however I am truly desperate right now. I am struggling with so many obstacles in my life I just can’t seem to get a break and move forward. I am going to be very bluntly honest with everyone and give an insight on my entire life. I have had a lonely childhood spent most of my time with my grandparents due to my parents were not able to provide for me. I had left home to take care of a three year old girl when I was the age of 16. I became that black sheep of my entire family. At the age of 21 I was sentenced to prison at which I had to serve 56 months in the florida department of corrections at Lowell correctional institute, annex. I had gotten out April 5th 2019. Just up until recently I have been struggling with it all. I am not able to find a job due to my background and also because there is no jobs around in my small town. My driver’s license (which I never even had one before, never even did the test) is suspended due to the restitution I owe. The home I am currently living in is in the process of being foreclosed on. Don’t know where owner is and the mortgage company is seeking the back taxes. I have a water bill that is almost $300. I used to have roommates 2 of them and they both didn’t pay me for rent of bills. They both left me with sky high bills I am un able to pay. Also trashed my home and belongings. I had to buy everyone else food, drinks and etc. So forth . I am all alone with no family or friends to support mentally, emotionally or financially. I have hit that rock bottom everyone fears. This past Friday I almost had a successful suicide attempt. However, I am disappointed in myself for being selfish and not thinking about my child. There is no food no drinks or running water. No electricity. About to be homeless with a 16 months and 2 small dogs and one 6 week old puppy. With no food or water to feed them. Water bill is approximately $300 electricity is $160 owe $30,000 for back taxes but I would rather get a new place I can have in my name. Need $200 to start payment plan for drivers license. Will need to obtain my own vehicle so whatever it costs to get a legal running vehicle. I have just recently been trying to recover from the most recent 5 deaths in my family. I have been in involved with a narcissistic for the last 3 years. Been trying to break free of that hold and find normalcy. I am dier need of financial help and fast. I hate to ask but I don’t know where or what else to do I am at the end of my rope here. I want change in my life so badly I just can not get a running start or I just don’t know where to even begin with it all. I want happiness a better life for my daughter and myself I just can’t do it alone and can’t seem to get myself out of this hole full of quicksand . Please I am begging for help to get out of this hole. I am losing all I hope. Please I know I have made mistakes and I just want to be better. I am not wanting a pity party or to be looked down apun. I am trying my hardest. Staying strong is hard these days. Please have it in your heart to help out with anything to allow me to turn to a new better chapter of my life and for my daughter. Thank you for your time. Reading hope you can help me.. have a nice fulfilling days to come