hello everyone, I’m new here and I’m hoping and praying I get my miracle that I’ve been yearning for the past year and a half. I’m bawling my eyes out as I type this out. I’m a 26 year old who has dreams and goals and ambition. From all the hardships I faced in life I’ve grown mentally and emotionally and spiritually. But still, I am a human being and I do get depressed and have really bad anxiety which I never used to suffer from before. I’m an optimistic person to where it actually annoys people because I’m the type of person who rather sees the light in the darkness. The things I’ve faced in life I hope and pray others will NEVER get to go through. I’m lucky I’m still alive. I’m thankful for my hardships and challenges I’ve faced in life because if it wasn’t for them then I wouldn’t have become such a wise and spiritual person. Hardships… are a blessing in disguise. They show you what you are really capable of handling and doing as an individual, it shows you that no MATTER HOW HOPELESS AND WEAK YOU ARE, you are way stronger than you think. My mother who suffers from great mental illness and taking care of her has been really hard on me. I have 4 younger siblings which two of them are type 1 diabetics including my mother and myself. I’m the eldest in the household and everything is my responsibility and when I say everything I mean literally everything, from cooking to cleaning to easing my siblings to taking care of my father and mother to paying bills and taking care of the constant guests we’re having every two days (sometimes it’s 30 guests all together) from taking care of our pets (we have one dog and 5 cats 4 of them are kittens and 60 pigeons 2 chickens 2 parrots) I love animals so that’s not really a big deal for me because I enjoy life with animals and nature it is my escape from reality. I’m grateful for the responsibility of taking care of everyone in this household and taking care of house duties because it has trained me to be an individual who depends on themselves. I started dealing with house work at the age of 9-10 years old. Having only one brother and one sister at the time taught me how to take care of them at a young age and even gave me “motherly senses” to an extent, now being 26 years old I want to settle and get married and start my own life, but I’m in debt everyone, major debt. I finished my education at age 23 and only have a pastime job where I earn 523.37 a month. This isn’t enough to pay the bills such as garbage disposal, city water, gas and electricity and phone bills. As well as my mother high medical bills and our medications such as insulin and needles and strips and and pills.
My mother’s illness is what’s really killing me inside but I’m trying my hardest to keep fighting hopelessness and move forward. Her mental illness has gotten so bad the past year to wear she curses me and tells me I’m not her daughter just because I want to give her the meds. She would throw things and yell as well and insults after insults for no reason. (Because of what my education was, I’m able to tolerate all that because I understand what mental illness is)
unfortunately one of my brothers who is also a diabetic have behavioral issues too so it’s all building up on me.
My father is a conservative and strict man so finding a job outside the house is pretty much taboo to my father which is why I’m doing the part time job from home taking care of my mother. My father has major back problems so it limits him from many things such as getting a job, he does help me with cooking sometimes and telling the kids to stop fighting and to help me wash their own dishes but it’s still very hard but again I’m grateful, this has all prepared me for myself when I start a life of my own as a married woman and a mother one day I’m the future.
Sorry for writing almost my whole life on here but I’m in a ditch right now and can’t get out.
Our electricity bill is $720.56 it’s been stuck at this amount for almost three months. I can’t pay it all because my income monthly isn’t even enough to pay that on its own.
Water bill I have managed a payment arrangement so I’m not very worried about it
garbage disposal is around 70 bucks every three months so I’m also ok on that part
gas bill around 200 because we have gas heating and for cooking as well.
Phone bills I’m fine with that because we have A payment arrangement too thankfully.
Rent is a struggle it’s $1,200 and section 8 refuses to help us.
The total expenses of our pets is 250-300 a month.
Mom’s medical bills I still need to pay off $1,400
my student loans I owe over 29,000 dollars 😔
I asked for a loan from the bank for my great grandma’s funeral and I managed to pay some of it off it was 5,000 and I paid 1,000 off I still owe 4,000 but interest is killing me.
Food I usually spend 200 a month for all 7 of us. Since I’ve learned many things in life I’ve learned to manage grocery expenses.
To get extra cash I’ve been taking surveys online and editing peoples photos I only made 40 bucks this whole month from doing that. It’s not enough for everything that I need to deal with if you guys can help me get the total amount for the electricity bill and my student loans and my mother’s medical bills as well as the loan for my great grandmothers funeral.. I will always pray and wish you the best of the best. For a prayer of a stranger is one of the greatest gifts in this world. I want to finish everything off at this end so I can start focusing on saving up money at least 5-10 dollars a week so I can start saving up for my future. One of my dreams in life is that I open a recovery center/mental home care/orphanage. It’s a long ways from here. But if I can get this huge burden taken care of, I at least will have a future to look forward to. Please everyone, this would mean so so so much to me.
$720.56- electricity bill.
$1,400-mother’s medical bill.
$29,000- student loans (biggest burden)
$4,000- for the loan I asked from the bank for great grandma’s funeral
$1,200- for rent (if I can save up 1,000 ahead of time for rent then I can manage 200 off my paycheck so I’m good for the coming month)
total comes to: $36,320.56
thats a big number and I pray no one has to ever owe anything that big of an amount under hard circumstances.
Please it all starts with one person and ends with many people. If I could hug all of you for your help I would and it would be an honor. I can never thank you enough for your selfless souls ❤️❤️
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peace love and light to you all.