Hello there, I hope whoever is reading this is well and happy new year to you.
I am a 40 something female and cannot believe I have been searching for help in this manner. I have been self sufficient for many years but over the past 9 years my life seems to be getting tougher.
I lost a little girl in 2014 and since then my life has never been the same, I have struggled with depression and anxiety since and the bouts are more intense and lasting longer as time goes on.
I live in a small town in scotland and dont really know anyone, I have moved away from all that I knew due to an abusive ex partner so I am pretty much alone. I have very little family left and I am now faced with financial problems including big debts due to breaking down after I lost my little girl.
I am struggling to hold a job down as my depression gets worse. I have more bad days than good and I have come to the realisation that I need professional help which is not easy to get with the way the world is.
The family I am close to live nearly an hour away from me, I would like to find away to move closer to my family so I have support and I am not alone. When I am with my family I feel so much better but know there is still a lot of work to be done mentally. I think I have a deeper mental health issue and want to get help for this. which involves getting medical assessments and I do not want to wait over a year for this, I need to do something about it before its too late.
I want to get better, I do not know where to turn anymore. Getting help from the national health service is so hard right where I live at the best of times but the way the world is now its even harder.
I promised myself I would get help and improve my life this year, I want to get to the end of this year with a brighter future, perspective and a healthier mind.
I never saw my life going this way, never. But it has and I need help. I have never been a person that shy’s away from hard work, iv worked all my life in some of the worst jobs, im a health care worker at the moment and have worked for the nhs for a couple years but due to my own mental health everything has gone down hill. I have always provided for myself and helped others. but I am stuck now and have no way of help.
I am asking for help to assist in getting a fresh start beside my family and help to get the support I need for my mental health. I crave to feel different in my head, If I had the money I would go straight to a private doctor and get assessed. I would pay for help if I could.
I dont know if this web site works but if it does and you are reading my story I appreciate your time and if you help you are an amazing person, I am happy to share my future progress with you throughout my journey if I can get your assistance.
thank you for reading and if you are a person in the same place as me right now then I wish you the help you need. Sometimes we need help.