After over a decade of being subjected to abusive behavior, I finally escaped the Christian cult, along with my family, that we had been trapped in for a while. It took us years to recover financially, and after some CPTSD / Depression / Anxiety diagnosis we had just started to rebuild our lives. For the first time in decades, we were looking forward to life. However, the cult, in an attempt to silence any evidence or voice that speaks against their established ‘truth’, has sued many of their victims (including myself) who left in malicious lawsuits aimed to silence, bully, and intimidate. I’ve held on financially for over a year, but can no longer make enough money to pay the legal fees. Additionally, due to the C-PTSD I am mostly unable to work additional hours outside of my normal job.
This cult stole decades of my life, impacting my health and family in unimaginable ways. Extreme sleep deprivation, complete devotion, financial strong-arming… At one point I was suicidal, desperate to escape the hell that I was stuck in. Reliving all of this while they gaslight me and try to erase my experiences through legal bullying is exceptionally triggering. All I want is to put this terrible chapter behind me without ‘bowing the knee’ to the cult leader and destroying my life, both of which are definitely their preferred end results.
Now, I’m facing financial insolvency soon, whereas before the lawsuit I was debt free. The lawsuit has completely decimated my life. I have no additional methods to make more money, and no resources to pull from anymore. The anxiety and depression sometimes is overwhelming. I’m tired of being gaslighted, abused, ignored, and told that the horrible things that I went through either didn’t happen or was “god’s” will. I just want to live and enjoy life.
My bills are piling up faster than I can pay them. I have various credit cards with balances between 8,000 – 15,000. I also have several loans of $25,000 taken out to cover legal fees. All in all, the lawsuit has cost us approximately $100,000, not counting upcoming additional legal fees with will be an additional $10,000.
I need help. I am desperate and have exhausted every funding avenue I can think of, and I don’t know where to turn to anymore. Anything will help. Thank you.