Things are stacking more and more around me and I’m not sure what to do anymore. I fell face down starting my own life. I’m 19 and no longer live with my parents due to being kicked out because of my mom wanting to start her “new life” with her new boyfriend and my newborn little brother. I was kicked to the side when I needed help the most. I failed to get my diploma because I was at the mental hospital during school time. I was desperately applying for jobs but no luck getting one, so I couldn’t pay any bills. During the time living with my mom about over a year from now, I did have one job. But it was difficult to maintain it because of my mental state. And having to go to the mental hospital for my appointments, interfered with my work hours. Then I got fired for being late. My mother knew of my condition but doesn’t care, she wanted me to pay bills. So I kept looking for a new job instead of getting the help I needed. But again, no luck finding one. Things got uncomfortable at her home. Everytime she saw me, she would always say something to put me down. I suppose she was annoyed with my presence. It got bad to the point where I wouldn’t want to get out of my room for anything, not even to eat. I’d rather starve than to face her. I never did find another job when I was living with her. She grew more upset as time went by. I kept telling her that I needed help because things weren’t “right” with me. I really should be focusing on getting better. Nothing would convince her that I’m mentally sick, she just wanted the extra money. Then she decided to kick me out because “I was useless to her”. She didn’t let me keep any furniture, not even my bed. So I took my stuff, along with my cat and moved in with my Dad and his girlfriend early this year. There was no bed so I slept on the floor for a while. Until I got a air mattress. It was fine for a bit. He got me a job at a warehouse and things went fine for a bit. I would always stay in my room though because of habit. But for some reason my dad’s girlfriend didn’t want me there anymore so I got kicked out again. So then I moved in with my cousin which is where I am now. He let’s me stay but can’t support me because he has a family to worry about understandably. I used to get rides from my sister so I could go to work. It took about an hour to get there. Then my sisters hours at her job changed and couldn’t take me any longer. So I had to quit because there was no transportation from my house to my job. Now that I’m on my own, I don’t have a choice but to find another job even though my mental state is in a bad place, getting worse and worse. I’m not able to find any jobs due to a lack of transportation and the lack of money. My plan was to go back to school this fall to get my GED but that has to be pushed back and I can’t get the help I need. I was professionally diagnosed with Major depressive disorder with psychotic features. I was taking medication and seeing a therapist. I could no longer do that because of money. I ask of you guys to please help me. I’m asking for 15,000. This money I’m asking for is going for a car so I can find a job and not worry about transportation. A new bed, I’ve been sleeping on a air mattress all this time. To get the psychiatric help, Its been far too long, my mentality is worse. Food for me and food for my cat. Possibly for a cheap apartment and necessities for a home. For my classes when new classes start. I want to start over, get my GED and go to college for film. I didn’t want things to be like this, I feel like my life is shattering already and its barely begun. I’m tired of feeling like there’s no point to any of this. I’m barely passing by with the little money I have left. I’m still looking for a job but with little experience, its difficult. And when I do find one, it ends up being too far. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have no other choice but to ask strangers because my own mom didn’t want anything to do with me. Please help me get back on my feet and thank you for taking your time to read this and hopefully you can help.
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