My name is Cassandra. I’m 30 years old. I just lost my job. I have 5 maxed out credit cards and two bank accounts currently in the negatives. I had to steal for the first time in my life, because my baby was sick and needed medicine. How did I get here?
I was with my alcoholic and abusive ex for 9 years. I felt trapped. I was scared of what he would do if I left. I didn’t want him to take my kids away. I can’t survive without them. My boys are 6 &7 and boy what a handful, but they are the only accomplishment I have. Nights after putting them to bed I would leave and sleep at hotels, just so I wouldn’t have to be around him. He always told me I was nothing and I believed him.
I met someone new and he was such a great man. He started staying with me every night at the hotel. I went through all of my credit cards. I thought a loan would help, but it only added yet another bill. I knew I was digging myself in a hole, but I convinced myself it would get better.
One drunken night my ex and I got in another bad fight. He hit me and threaten to kill me. I couldn’t call the police, cause where I live, authorities only see color. I’m mixed, I never stood a chance. Once I called them for help, crying, covered in bruises, and a busted lip. You think they helped? No. They told me I would need to leave. Well that night my ex kicked me out.
I spent two weeks living in my car. The guy I met became my boyfriend and together we moved in an apartment. I got my boys back and was being treated like a queen. I was so happy. I should have known it wouldn’t last long.
Money started going missing from my wallet, and from my accounts. I knew it was him. My perfect dream man was stealing from me. He was an addict. For the longest I looked past it, because no man has ever treated me and my boys so great. We all loved him. The struggle started becoming too real. Between all my credit card bills, rent, insurance, electricity, phone it all became too much and I was drowning. Just when I thought it couldn’t get worse, I lost my job. Now I’m on the verge of losing my boys. I need help.
Currently my boyfriend is in rehab, leaving all the bills to me. I’m over $28,000 in debt. I live with the pure basics. I don’t have TV or WiFi. I am desperate for help. I need helps paying bills, feeding and clothing my kids, and getting myself out of debt. I’ve dug myself in so deep it scares me to death. I am so close to giving up on life. Please help me.