I don’t exactly know what I’m doing here or how I found my way to this website, but I do know I’m struggling and don’t know where else to go for help. My daughter, Lia, passed away in September of 2017, 6 days after her 2nd birthday. I was a single mom with a protective order against her father after he became severely abusive. Lia was born with Severe Combined Immunodeficiency and required a bone marrow transplant to live a healthy life.
Her doctors thought her transplant was going to go smoothly because she was a healthy little girl, but she ended up with graft versus host disease and CMV after we thought she had a successful transplant. Her body resisted all treatments and she eventually passed away in my arms after months of fighting. She meant everything to me and I’m still having a hard time finding my way without her.
The hospital Lia and I were in helped us financially when they could over the 4 month span we were there. I went back to work full-time a month after she passed away because I couldn’t afford any more time to grieve. I’ve been struggling with depression since and I make just enough to pay most of my bills but I’ve still fallen behind on some. When a random expense pops up it really hurts me financially as well. I haven’t even gotten a headstone for Lia yet because I still can’t afford one.
I was seeing a therapist for my depression but I had to stop because I couldn’t afford the $40 a week. On top of that, my therapist wanted to refer me to a psychiatrist who could prescribe me medication for my depression, but I knew I couldn’t afford that either. I feel like I’m sinking and I’ve been trying so hard to fight through and stay positive but I’m at the end of my rope. Constantly stressing over money and living paycheck to paycheck is really taking its toll as well.
My credit is poor and I’ve been slowly trying to rebuild so I can get a more reliable car but that’s a struggle as well. I just feel like my life is falling apart around me and I have no one else to ask for help.
If you took the time to read all of this, thank you. I appreciate you even just taking a moment to hear me out.