Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my post and consider assisting me.
I grew up in a extremely extremely abusive household with addict parents who abandoned me. Shortly before being abandoned by my parents split up and my mother got a new boyfriend who choked me to the point of almost going unconscious and my brother ran up the stairs and pushed his head into the wall and is why I did not go unconscious. The police were called but apparently did not have enough evidence to charge him.
My mother never called me, she didn’t talk to me, and she never tried to investigate what happened. I didn’t talk to her for months after. I got a full time job in Toronto at EmpireOne Credit Solutions and the owner Fawad Nasir drugged and raped me even though I was underaged. Because I was drugged and don’t recall him inserting his penis inside of me, the police were unable to charge him. No justice, no help. I dealt with this all by myself at 17.
A few months later even though I still had a job, I was unable to secure a stable place to live (b/c who wants to rent to a 17 year old) and went to stay with a friend who I met at a party because I had nowhere to go. My family stopped talking to my parents because of their addictions so there was nowhere else to turn. Well, this friend took my phone and took all my stuff while I was sleeping and when I woke up there was a gun on the table and they fucking sex trafficked me. I was raped 3 times before I was able to escape the hotel room without them chasing me down. For 2 years following these events I was homeless (shelters, couch hopping) while I worked! Yes! I still worked atleast a part-time job because I took pride in having a job and really wanted to go to school. I was still a hopeful young girl and I was naive thinking I’d ever get to go to university. But I sadly wasn’t able to finish highschool. I went to a youth shelter and the head staff of the youth shelter in Ajax, Ontario, Canada called Johannes House was preying on underaged girls and tried to start a friends with benefits relationship with me. When I reported this to other staff members, I was ostracized (even though I did not participate in any acts with the staff member) and I was kicked out of the shelter. They did not find me another place to stay.
I am now 25 years old. I didn’t have credit for a loan so I used my credit card to take my yoga teacher certification (500-hour) and to get therapy. I was so suicidal, my mental health is a mess and I was desperate and didn’t know what to do. I needed to be able to work and therapy enabled me to do that. I’m so upset at the lack of support I’ve received in my life. I really just want a chance :( I try so hard, finally got a job working as a yoga teacher and then covid happened and the studio shut down. My credit is in ruins because I can’t afford to pay the minimum balance anymore. I am so maxed out every which way. I’m really really trying here I am so done I don’t know what to do anymore. I know it was stupid to put stuff on credit but I thought that if I invested in myself it would pay off. All I do is work work work and I feel so sad inside in my being. I just need some help :(