It is unfortunate that I find myself here asking for a handout, but life has not been good to me recently and I am absent of choice. I am an International student from Kenya and have been in Canada for almost 2 years now.
My mother saw it urgent that I acquire higher education in Canada, and respectively, she fully sponsored my trip, lodging and school fees for my first 3 months. We had come to agree that after 3 months, I will have found work and able to cater for my upkeep and pay for my fees. Things went as planned, however, Our plans had their own flaws as we had not considered there would be a limitation to how much I could work. I had to fall back on her, repeatedly.
There then I came to understand that I could not keep drawing her into words about my upkeep as she has my 2 siblings to take care of and her own bills to pay. I decided to exceed my permitted work hours to make my coin. To work overnight, and to school by day in a country where I knew no one began to take a toll on me and I found myself sinking into depression.
After my contract as a temporary worker ran out last year, I decided not work as much as my body had lost its weight and I did not feel the same, mentally. My performance at school had also dwindled. I began to work only twice a week for 16 hours combined. However, any small iteration to my shifts has caused my even greater struggle: the bills do not seem to subside and keeps getting worse as I had to self-isolate over Covid-19.
I could not let word of my depression reach home because I am scared for what my mom will feel. She needs to know that I am doing well, even though I am not. For even if she knows I am unwell, there is little she can do and at the expense of their livelihood back home. I have had to live on minimal necessities as my diet changed and my sense of life dimmed. I have been too proud to ask anyone for money especially since I know there are more people more deserving of help than I am. But I do not think I will be able to carry on with school carrying all this worry on my back.
I have no idea how much would help me out this mess, as each of my 3 remaining semesters cost $8,000. I would sincerely appreciate any help offered.