I come from a low income family which is a nicer/fancier way of saying I’m from a poor family. My mom works over 8+ jobs just to pay the rent and take care of myself and my 2 other siblings. I have big dreams but little hopes, but something I have always had in my head was that I would be able to go to Japan someday. For 12 years of my life I have been head first into the Asian culture from their food, and their clothes/fashion, to their language and way of life.
But I have gotten small insults or sly comments from my family for the past 2 years, they don’t understand why I’m so interested in this culture even if I explain different things, it’s useless. Most commonly recently, my family have been questioning my interest in my own culture (I’m African-American) like I’m a traitor or something towards “my people”, and they already rejected my sexuality and gender I preferred to go by/ transition to, so my goals to go to Japan seem slim without family support.
I also suffer from severe anxiety attacks and have for almost a year now going to a therapist. I lost my step-father in March of 2016, you was the only father I knew (I still to this day have not meet my real father but my older sibling has) he was killed in cold blood and that affected my entire life, he was the main one that support me and my wish to go to Japan. I has been very difficult being a bi trans teen and your family rejects that. I have been struggling for so long, but now there is an opportunity I can temporally take some time away from my family to release myself of stress and anxiety, and focus on getting to college.
I want to go to college in Japan to get my degree in graphic design, which will take 3 years, language school before that for 6 months, then find some work , and live their if possible. I can only save up so much, plus zero support from the family, but I also have to pay for T (testosterone) and top surgery so financial I’m probably never gonna make it to Japan (or get top surgery) but I can at least hope for this right. Want to be able to go by April 2021 at the latest. I thank anyone and everyone who took their time to read all of this, I know it’s long but I don’t want to give you half of the story, I want you to understand me and where I’m coming from a bit, so I’m not a complete stranger.
*Take off the last 2 numbers to get the proper amount from YEN to USD, ex. 3,587,440 yen = $35,874 US dollars / 777,440 yen = $7,774 US dollars
In total I need around $50,000, plus language school fees which is $8,000 so a total of around $60,000. the Japanese government wont even let me go if I don’t have at least $30,000 in my bank. I know that seems like a lot but any little bit helps. I’ll try and update time from time. Thank you.