When I was 8 years old, I was sexually abused by my cousin. This caused an amount of trouble I can’t begin to explain; ever since, the dynamic in my family changed.
I had to start going to a therapist, I got reallyyyy lonely, and suddenly I just stopped being a child.
The years passed… and now that I’m 22, I realized, because my mom told me; that when all of this problem began, my father insisted in putting my cousins into jail. But my mom didn’t let my dad do it, because she didn’t want to get her parents (my grandpas, also my cousin’s grandpas) upset.
She has always protected everybody else but me.
My dad has always been a violent person who throws things, yells, says bad things, never communicates. When I was little and did good stuff (like being the first from my class or winning a sport competition) I was always told that’s what I suppose to do. I grew up with no validation nor recognition. And apparently, with no love either.
I became an English teacher when I turned 16 (I’m from Mexico), I started to work and study at the same time since a long time ago.
But now that I cannot longer live in the same house as my parents, I really just can’t afford everything. I need to pay for food, rent, a cardiologist (I have dysautonomia and mitral valve prolapse), dermatologist, psychologist, and university. I’m an International Relations students, a good one. But with this new chapter of my life called “I got no place to live”, I really just want to be able to finish my career. Currently I have a full time job, but it’s not enough.
In order for me to cover all of my needs, as I have no more support from anyone; if by trying everything there is, including this.
I did the Math and I need an extra 700-900 dollars per month. So here it is, here I am. Kindly asking for a chance…
For the empathy and love I was never given.
Thank you, truly.