Last year I lost my uncle and dear friend to suicide. He took his own life on new years eve. This has totally devastated me and my entire family. In the April of that year me and my wife found out we were pregnant and there was a glimmer of light for me. We unfortunately lost the baby and this and my uncle passing has totally turned my life upside down. Soon after all this I was told I would be losing my job as I had to much time of with depression etc..
I am struggling daily with it all and have totally lost all my confidence and drive. I rarely sleep and am constantly worried about everything. I get very down watching my wife have to be the sole provider it breaks my heart and we are very much struggling. I am really really struggling to find a job that would give me the confidence to get back on my feet again and get my life back. Being like this everyday is truly horrible. All I want to do is go back to college and retrain in something that I actually want to do and something that will get me a recognised qualification so I can gain a decent job when I leave. I would really like to become a personal trainer but cant afford to do so because of fees and the cost of living in between studying. I know it’s a big ask but it’s a last resort for me to try and ask for your generosity and help. I would love to live a normal life again without having to battle through depression and anxiety everyday and constantly feeling scared and worthless. I ask you to please help change both my life and that of those I affect with my depression and mental health probs. Its not fun being sick and not being able to see a way out for yourself. I have heard people say that depression is not an illness. I beg to differ as it is totally ruined the last few years of my life. So I am asking any of you kind generous people to please consider my situation and help me if you can.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and God bless you whether you can help me or not..