Hi my name is lexi, I’m 18 and so far I think I’ve got the life experience of a 30 year old. I grew up with my mom who had bipolar disorder. Things have always been crazy. I come from a family of 7, so there’s never a dull moment. I’m the oldest and my mom had me at 20 so I’ve really been like a second parent to my siblings, when I was 16 I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, a few months later my grandma died and my mom really went off the walls with drinking and drugs.i juggled all the kids with school but still I graduated high school a year early with a 4.2 GPA and went straight into college but soon things took a turn and I developed a problem with drugs too. It was one after the other and it took over my life in every single way. I really threw away everything, I sold my car, lost my boyfriend, my job, where I was living and put myself into crazy debt. I was hospitalized for my use, I was under 100 pounds and had severe infections , during finals week and completely failed all of my classes. I dropped out of school to focus on getting clean. Most of my family wasn’t speaking to me so I was living out of my best friends car. Slowly I’ve worked up trust with my family through proof of my recovery and now live with my dad in a shared room with one of my siblings. It’s now been almost a year I’ve been clean and I’d really like to go back to school. I’ve always been a straight a student with lots of extra curriculars but since I failed I no longer have a grant and my family cant help because of our income. I’m currently working full time but I don’t have a car and I do not make enough to afford tuition because I need to help my dad with the bills and finishing paying off my bills for all the tests and medications from my hospitalization . I know I haven’t been delt the worst hand but I’d really like to take back control and get my life back to where it should be so I can go far. I know I have the potential because I was an amazing student I just got derailed. I wish I had been smarter and made better decisions because now all I want is to be in school studying and moving in my career.