Hi all, I’m really embarrassed to be here asking for anything but I don’t have any one else to ask. This is a last resort for me.
I’m a graduate student at one the top institutes in the UK, I really want to pursue research in this field but lately I just feel so bad at my circumstances and I am so depressed about how bad things have gotten. I did an undergraduate degree in a natural science and now I’m studying energy engineering in the chemical engineering department. I have a scholarship that covers about 80% of the tuition fees but I’m really struggling with daily living expenses now and I’ve just been limited to one meal at the day currently but I don’t have any money left. I already worked full time in an office and had a part-time job on the side in retail last year before my course started but I guess it wasn’t enough! I feel really awful about this.
I have been applying for jobs everyday and waiting, I have a job interview on Friday &Saturday so I’m really hoping I will get one of those jobs but in the meantime I don’t have any money to feed myself with. I will continue to apply for more jobs daily and see what comes up. I’m a bit restricted with which jobs i can apply for because the university limits the number of hours we can work per week, and my university schedule makes it a bit difficult. And I also can’t afford the medication I usually take for my anxiety or my pills for anemia. I don’t have any clothes to wear for the autumn/ winter weather either, I can survive without the warm clothes, but I would truly appreciate any money to buy food and school supplies. It’s really hard for me to concentrate when I’m hungry. I’ve got my rent bills coming up soon, so the remainder of any money donated or the remainder of my tuition fees which are collected at the start of each semester. I’m trying to get up to earn up to £2000 for this.
I already sold my ipad which I use for reading and my DSLR which I got as a gift a few years back. I really didn’t want to part with the DSLR. I’m suffering from depression a lot nowadays, and it was the only hobby I could really engage with lately. I am not part of any societies and I didn’t go to the gym either (both cost money and I would rather spend the time working at this point) aside from being climate change ambassador and volunteering at local schools with the women in engineering society. I don’t really have anything else of value that I could sell, other than my laptop. But I will keep looking to see what else I might be able to sell.
I come from a low income background and I’m not in contact with my parents. They aren’t in good financial circumstances and even if they were, and they have never shown any interest in my well being and they have never supported my journey through education. I have siblings but they have their own financial problems and they don’t contact me very often, I can’t ask for their help.
I’ve been crying a lot lately and losing a lot of sleep, I really tried hard and I’ve been studying so much just hoping to distract myself. I know the odds are against me and I should give up but I really wanted to pursue this field. I hope in future, I can help other students once I get a job and become an alumni. I’m sorry, but I’m trying! Any help is very very sincerely appreciated, thank you so much for even reading this far.
Even if you can’t help with tuition/rent, anything that can go towards food and my medication would be great.