I’m ready to go the rest of the distance… with some help!
It has been no secret that I have struggled a lot in my life, particularly these most recent years. I’ve fought mental illness, trauma, financial hardship and, most of all, myself. I’ve been fighting most recently to figure out what I’m going to do with myself. I need to find a purpose that I pursue for myself because that’s what I really want. It took a lot of thinking, and I think I know what I want to fight for.
I was so close to graduating a few years back when I stopped going to school. I’d had help from my parents, and, like with a lot of things, I got scared when I neared accomplishment. I want to go back. I want to get my Associate’s. I want to fight for myself.
I am, however, not in a place where I can afford it financially, and I thought long and hard about what I could do to raise money. I’m trying to find some sort of work or income that still allows me to attend the programs I’m in while also considering my health. So that’s why I’m starting one of these! It’s not because I’m in a desperate place but because I’m in a positive place where I believe in myself and know what I want. With a little help, I might be able to accomplish that sooner rather than later.
I’m going to go to the college and find out how much it would cost to take one class each semester this summer, but I’m setting the monetary goal fairly high so I can continue in the Fall. I know that I can do this, and, if I get my groove back, I’ll probably be able to apply for Financial Aid again or at least the Pell Grant that I received last time. I need a jump start though, and I need to convince people to believe in me as much as I believe in myself.
I fell hard this past winter. I was involuntarily committed for being a danger to myself, and I had to face a lot of hard truths. I’ll be honest. I’ve come really close to slipping up again. I haven’t, though, and I’m really proud of myself for that. I’ve been keeping up with my therapy and psychiatry appointments, and I’ve been involved in day programs and support groups to help me stay strong. I know I’m ready to finish school and continue building my confidence in myself. Because I know I can do this, and I just need some other people to believe in me too.
If you can spare anything, it would mean the world to me. I really want to do this.