Hi, I’m 22 years old and I’m still in college. I’ve wasted 4 years of my time in a course that I’m not sure if I want to make a career out of. I was supposed to finish college 2 years ago but depression got me lose interest on; well everything and having an eating disorder didn’t help my situation either. Overtime, my health is at stake both mentally and physically.
A year ago, my mother got sick. She was diagnosed with nasopharyngeal cancer stage 4. I was already at my worst academically and hearing her sick made me postpone college and care for her as I come from a family of 5 siblings. I’m the youngest one. My other siblings couldn’t care for our mother and being the only one in the family that has not worked or has other responsibility such as having a kid or a husband; it was only natural for me to be her caretaker.
It was heartbreaking seeing my mother in such a frail state. Not to mention her in agonizing pain on a daily basis because of the unstoppable growth she had just underneath the jawline because of the cancer. It was the last stage, it was spreading to her brain. The only way I thought that could make her feel better was to promise her that I would do better in school so that she had something to hold on to life but I was also being reasonable and have to come to terms that she might not make it. I thanked God that as of present time, she is living and breathing. After a year of radiotherapy and chemotherapy; she slowly got better. But, it causes her to drastically loose weight from 121 pounds to an alarming 60 pounds.
Student loan has been breathing down my neck and the interest kept stacking up. Every month since June of this year. I really need to take the pressure off and could use the financial help. I have an overall 2,500 usd worth of student loan. Which may sound little to some but where I come from, the exchange of currency is 4 times of its value. I have 10,000 MYR worth of loan that I need to pay off.
It’s ridiculous to ask strangers to pay off my loan. To be honest, I just need it pay off for the first few month or so before I can go out there and find a job after I’m done with college. I’m so close guys! I’m just a few month away from graduating.
I fear that I won’t have enough of an income to help my family and to seek out medical help for my mental illness because of this student loan even if I can get a job.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the help. God bless all of you.