Hello. My name is Olizy and I am portuguese human being who recently had to emigrate due to family problems.
After moving from Portugal to London due to family abuse I found out what my passion was…. Care for people.
Sounds touching right?
Well it’s not that much.
I wanted to became a nurse because of my grandma. Because was during that time I found out she died in Africa.
And my goal was being able to go and see her one day….. Not always what we want happens… Not in real life… I guess.
So me wanting to be a nurse was not just a dream anymore. Became reality in 2015.
I end up finding a job in a hospital ( princess royal) was amazing because I would learn how to take care of people and o though the year later apply for the nursing course. Because money was tight but I thought I could save something for a year… I am a book worm anyway.
Although didn’t go as planned because I was quicked on my flat. So. Goodbye money.
Next… I had to send money to my mom. Because she was also alone and my mom is important, even if you two don’t get along… Like all mothers right….
Don’t let your mother down….
Although brexit came, the rent higher. Everything was difficult.
I was forced to move out because if not I had to dissolute from my nationality. I couldnt…
Being who you are is important. Including belonging to a group ( nationality) in this case.
So i moved to the Netherlands. Why? I couldn’t go back to Portugal.
Holland is nice good. But my dream to be a nurse didn’t go well. I have to start from the bottom.
All my experience and everything would serve for nothing
I started as a cleaner because I didn’t speak the language.
So I saw myself working hard to get to an understanding of what is the dutch language.
8 months later it happened. Then I found a job… Well job/ studies “BBL opleiding ” how they call it here.
Is good although is so beginner level that makes me unhappy.
What am I saying!
We have to start from somewhere right?
I am so afraid to fail. The language is OK now. But next to them (native speakers) I’m like a baby. And being an introvert… Believe me doesn’t help.
Going back to why I need money.
I want really to finally became a nurse. Is my passion. I dream about it. I wake up with that thought.
I am going crazy I think…
I study and study and study because its what matters.
But the money is the problem.
My salary is too low 1200 to save. Pay rent of 950 and do the rest.
I am in need of 4000 euros maximum to finally being able to study.
Anyone there. Who is reading or will read my story…. Please…
I’m probably like you… Or not… If you can read “me” and if you could help me. With anything…
I would be so grateful and I would do my best to make it happen… Life just happens one’s… So that’s why I am here trying.
Maybe I am lucky. Maybe not. But… I am here.