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Mumma in need

My name is Mikayla-Jane but people call me MJ. Now I could sit here and write about my childhood and how I’ve spent most of my life homeless and on my own but honestly… There are far more people who have had it worse then I. What I will say is that I’m now currently a single mum to two beautiful boys and work two Jobs to make ends meet. I don’t have any family, I have very little support and my youngest has to get surgery soon that will cost around $3000. I’ve saved half but I’m struggling to come up with the rest. Because I have no family, I have no one to ask for help. Working two jobs means I spend most my time away from my kids. I miss them and I really wish I could afford to give them a holiday. I don’t want some expensive overseas trip but just a small one where we can spend time together.

I know some of you are wondering why I can’t just get a loan if I’m working two jobs, well my got a loan in my name without my knowledge and when I found out it was already on my credit rating. I’m still paying off the loan. So I guess this and winning the lottery would be my only hopes of affording a holiday. My son’s surgery is first priority and I will find a way to pay for it. I’m just hoping  for an easier way.

 

 

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Car – To Leave Toxic Family

Hey everyone!

I suffer from diagnosed severe social anxiety, generalised anxiety and depression. Unfortunately my parents don’t understand any of it (especially anxiety), no matter how much I explain, no matter how much they learn about the scientifics behind it, and no matter what my doctors and psychiatrists say to them. Over the last two years, I’ve been trying medications, councillors, therapy and it’s included many, many doctors appointments. During this time, my parents have developed an anger towards me and ‘the way I am’ because of my mental health – which I cannot control. It’s gotten to the point where this year they have been extremely emotionally and verbally abusive. I have unfortunately attempted suicide because of this, self harmed nearly every day, and completely shut down and isolated myself from every person I had in my life.

I have extreme anxiety just being at home in my house, I’m constantly mentally abused and looked down upon  by the two people who I expected to care the most. My household is the most toxic place for me, and I need x100 to get out. Working is very hard for me because of my non existent social skills and never ending nervousness and panic attacks. I struggle to even leave the house. I don’t want to go into too much detail because it’s hard to talk to others about, but it’s extremely heavy stuff. There isn’t one night I don’t cry for 40 minutes in the shower, and I sleep through most days as an escape of everything. I just am completely hopeless but still holding onto this mini plan of mine.

Long story short, I’m currently trying to save about $4,000 or less to buy myself a car, in order to be able to move out of home as I won’t need to depend on anyone, and I won’t really NEED to live there anymore. And then get myself a job so I can live somewhere, just to be able to get out of my house as soon as possible. It’s come to the point where I can’t handle it anymore, and I know in my heart and my head that I will not survive much longer there. I’m completely open to any donations, even $1 ❤️ I have saved $500 so far this year, and I’m still trying my best to earn money here and there when I can get out of bed.

I would genuinely really appreciate anything, for the sake of my future. I don’t want to die, but the state and situation I’m in right now is leaving me no choice sadly.

This is all 100% true, although I wish I had different reasons for asking for money such as college funds or bills being payed or even wanting a luxury holiday getaway. I’m simple just trying to help myself now before it’s too late.

I hope everything made sense! This is scary to put out on the internet even though it’s anonymous, so please do respect what I’ve said. I will always respect you ☺️

Thank you guys so much.

– Z (From New Zealand).

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I want to be alive

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Trigger warnkng: talk of abuse, mental illness, and death.

 

I feel like my life is falling apart.

My name is Allan, I’m a 22yr old transgender male. I know that the above statement sounds childish, but it feels like my life is going nowhere and because of that, I want to end my life.

My story is a long one so I don’t know how much I will say. I grew up with my siblings and my single mother who was very abusive and neglectful. There were good times in my childhood, but few. I don’t remember a lot of my upbringing due to repressed memories of the trauma, but I do remember a few terrible incidents. I was constantly afraid- we all were- and there were many times growing up that I believed my mom would kill me or one of my siblings.

So I guess I just kind of started out bad. My mom was pretty normal before she had her first born, my older sister. Then my mom became paranoid, anxious, and basically crazy. My dad said he suspect post-natal psychosis, but more recently we’ve been thinking it’s borderline personality disorder (which I have recently been diagnosed with).

As an example of my mom, she refused to go outside to even hang out the washing because she was afraid that news helicopters would be there to film her.

My story is ridiculous, I should write a book. Anyway, when I was 4 yrs old my dad left the picture. I don’t remember much of it, but I was told the story. My dad was apparently questioning his sexuality at that point. He realised he was gay, and he had a lot of shame. He’d already had 3 children to my mom, including me. But he discovered his sexuality after he had a family, and my mom loved him so much, and my dad loved her but in a different way. My dad thought that he must not deserve his beautiful family if he was gay. My dad moved out of the house. My mom was very neglectful to us, sometimes not feeding us for days when I was just 3. My dad said he visited once and saw my older sister (by 2 years) feeding me a slice of bread (me who was around 1yr), in secret in the toilet. Apparently my older sister wanted her baby sibling to be healthy, but mom hadn’t fed me for days at that time.

My dad lost the court case for custody. My mom cut off contact with him and moved to a small rural town in Australia where he wouldn’t be able to find us. So I never knew who my dad was.

Life with mom was normal. It wasn’t until I was 15 that I realised our family’s normal was not how others family’s were. Other family’s did not chase eachother with knives and threaten lives. Their parents would not punch them repeatedly, they did not have to ask for everything like opening a window or eating an apple. Their parents actually talked to them. That was not my mother at all.

I realised later in life that my mom is a very sick woman. 

I met my dad through tv, which is insane. On the off-chance this post gets popular, I won’t say which show, but honestly you could probably find it given the details I’ve shared already.

My sister met him on tv, and then shortly after I got to meet him. He was nothing like my mom told us. He is the most beautiful person I have ever met. I have truly never met a soul like his- I know this is strange, but I really believe he is an angel. And I am so, so proud to be his son. He radiates goodness. He’s had a terrible life, yet he is the most loving and generous person I know. I am so lucky that he is my dad.

When I turned 18, I’d had enough of our home situation and I ran away to live with my dad across the country. All of this sounds insane when I write it. But everything in my life is always so hectic, that sometimes I think I’m cursed. 

Basically I lived with my dad for a few years. It was the first time that I had ever felt loved by someone else. His fatherly love was so clear, and he’s taught me so much about the world. He is my biggest inspiration. Apparently he had even tried to kill himself in those 12 years he didn’t know us. He loved us children more than anything in the world. When he talks about it, he cries. When he saw me last, I was 4yrs old- now I was 16. My brother was an infant, now he was 13 years old. His story is heartbreaking. But he inspires me.

Because of my bad upbringing, I’ve had mental health issues all my life. I was very depressed in high school and I developed anorexia. I started to self harm because I saw my older sister was doing it. I tried to end my life multiple times, but I’d wake up the next morning and go to school as if I’d never attempted it at all. I had a few close friends, and I told them about it. They had a bad life too and felt the same way I did.

I’ve lived independently before but I always get caught up in drinking because of my depression. I’m very proud to say that I stopped self-harming, after 5 years of bad self-harm and wearing long sleeves every single day. 

I’ve been addicted to alcohol and clubbing in the past, because I didn’t care about anything. I drowned out my issues with alcohol. At my worst, I was having 30 standard drinks a night each day for about 3 months. And to think I was only 20.

I was living with my best friend/girlfriend for a few years, but my mental health has always been on a decline. Last year my grandad passed away and I was the only one in my family not able to say goodbye. Even writing that hurts. I was on the other side of the country and I had just managed to get the funds for a plane ticket since my grandad had liver ancer and it was shockingly progressive. He was diagnosed, then 2 weeks later he was dead.

I carry a lot of guilt over that, and that’s when my mental health plummeted. I was drinking again each day, I started self-harming again, I had a few poor attempts at ending my life. I didn’t know at the time, but I have borderline personality disorder and the death of my grandad is what triggered it. I yelled and hated my girlfriend who I loved and cherished. I wore her down until we broke up, and then  she decided not to be in my life. She is the most important person to me. I’ve talked about her on social media and said the things she’s done to me which are terrible and heart-breaking. I say that I hate her but I never could really hate her. I miss her everyday. I’ve had many suicidal thoughts over that loss.

I thought 2018 was the worst year of my life, but it is this year without a doubt.

I left my girlfriends house to live with my dad in A very rural town (12 houses, no shops). I was really bad with alcohol, very suicidal. I had many trips to emergency but the health system doesn’t care if there are no physical symptoms. If you are only having thoughts of going through with your suicide plan, they send you home. We’ve been mistreated by so many hospitals and medical professionals that my dad and I have discussed going to the media about it and raise awareness, because the medical system does it to countless of people- they do not care if you are suicidal.

My dad suffers from bipolar disorder. A few years ago, his best friend in the world died of cancer. This event caused his full blown bipolar. He was in a mental ward for about a month, and he told me later of his plans of killing himself and how he would do it. He was in too much pain.

I’ve got to tell you. Hearing your dad’s suicide plan is one of the most painful things to go through. Your beautiful dad, who helps everyone and who has unconditional love, who has always put me first in the short time we’ve known eachother- and he wanted to die.

In this rural town, my dad and I actually lived in a small church so it was ironic. But many terrible things happened in the four months we were there. Including my dad getting a restraining order on his best friend who had been using him for years. I had my first serious suicide attempt where I cut my artery and was rushed in an ambulance to the hospital- apparently I was falling unconscious in the ambulance and they didn’t know if I would make it. That entire thing was traumatic. My dad had to clean up litres of my blood in a hotel bathroom. He said how hard that was for him, to clean up your own child’s blood.

Me and my dad haven’t been doing good. We’re both on medication. My dad has been trying to get me into a hospital every single day for four months. My dad now pays for health insurance which he can not afford, just so I can get the help I need. I still suffer with borderline, depression, severe anxiety and chronic suicidal thoughts.

Last month my best friend died. He was everything to me. He was my absolute world. He was the number one reason that I kept pulling through, he was always my reason to live. My best friends name was Quint, and he was a black kelpie cross Labrador, the most sweetest dog anyone had known. He was my soul mate, and everyone could see our bond. Last month he was hit by a car outside of our house. I laid next to him as he died. I was comforting him the entire time. I told him he is the goodest boy in the whole world and I love him so much. God, I’m crying a lot now. I try not to think about it. But I was there. I watched the light fade. I laid with him and my best friend was dying and no one could do anything.

We moved a few days after. My dad and I were couch surfing until a few weeks ago when we found a house in Queensland. I’ve never had a place that feels like home. I always said that Quint was my home- wherever he is is where I belong. But this feels like home now.

I’ve recently started therapy due to a stroke of luck. He’s a private psychologist (whos bills are causing us to be broke), and the only reason he accepted me was because a friend of ours who is high up in the medical industry, referred me. I only got accepted because her name was on the referral.

So here’s where we’re at now. I’m finally in therapy. I love my psychiatrist, he is so sweet. I’ve seen him for 6 weeks and we’re still in introductory because I have so much history to get through. It’s the first time in my life where I’ve been dedicated to getting better. I don’t want to be a sad story. But it is very, very hard. My dad’s bipolar and my borderline end up clashing a lot and we get into huge arguments and he says such incredibly hurtful things to me. I know he loves me and he doesn’t mean it, but it doesn’t take the pain away from what he has said. 

We both are very broke. My mental illnesses make me unfit for work, so I’m on government benefits which is around $250 a week. My dad is also on benefits because of his disorder, but he makes money from music gigs since he is a country music artist- though not a lot of money. After bills, I have $50 left over and that is spent on food for 2 weeks. One of my favourite things in the world is to sit at a café with a coffee. I know it’s a bit pathetic, but my goal in life is to be able to do that whenever I want. I want enough money to not have to check my bank account to see if I have $6 for a coffee. It’s a simple dream so maybe I’ll be able to achieve it. It sounds so depressing when I write it, but honestly that is what I wish for. I will happily say that my life is successful when I can do that.

I have a lot of good days, but my ‘good days’ aren’t good enough. A good day is getting out of bed and doing something like the washing. Most days I lay in my bed exhausted from my constant nightmares and lack of sleep. I have suicidal thoughts each day. I’m trying to not give in to them, but I’ve been so close to death before and the feeling was indescribable. I told my dad a few days ago that I don’t look before crossing the road, hoping a car might hit me and I will die. He was pretty shocked. I don’t tell people my problems, and it’s always a surprise when people find out I have tried to end my life, because I always appear happy. He said that one day I will want to be alive, and I will look both ways before I cross the street. That kind of hit me. Imagine wanting to be alive. I know that my life is not the worst, and my current situation from an outside perspective is pretty good. Yes I’m Transgender, yes I’m broke, yes my dad is gay and has a beautiful partner who I love. But we’re doing our best, and I’m thankful for what I do have because I know what it’s like to have nothing. But I imagined for the first time that there is a possibility I might want to be alive one day. I just don’t have a reason, but I want to find a reason good enough to live.

My current problems involve how broke me and my dad are. My dad is in debt due to paying for me to get help. I feel so guilty because I don’t feel like I deserve anything. But he has spent thousands of dollars on me, he said “because I love you and I believe you will get well.”

On top of my borderline, my psychiatrist has diagnosed me with five other illnesses. My anxiety is so bad that I’m afraid to leave the house, and if I do, I’ll have panic attacks. 

I said my dream is to be able to buy a coffee whenever I want. But what I want more than that is just to make my dad happy. I’ve seen him struggle, seen him cry, seen him furious because of me. He’s paid for all my help, he’s bought my medications, he’s stopped me from drinking, he’s taught me right from wrong, he’s taught me that I am worth helping. My goal is actually to get well, for him. To know that his efforts haven’t been wasted. I don’t want to have my dad find me on the bathroom floor one day. He said that he would take his life if I did. I don’t want his suffering to have been for nothing. I want to make him proud.

Wow, I’m crying so much. I usually try to ignore my problems but recently I’ve been more open to them because I know I need to accept my reality in order to get better. Things have just been so hard for everyone. And I lost my best friend, and then my dog passed away, and then my only other friend said she couldn’t handle my trauma anymore- the same friend who walked me to emergency when I wanted to die, because she’s been in the same position. 

At the moment I feel like I have lost everything. I am suffering, but I try my hardest to be happy, or atleast a fake happy that I sometimes believe is real. I have my beautiful cat who I love to pieces. But I’ve got no goals, I don’t know where to go from here. I’m too sick to work so I want to study, but I don’t know what. I didn’t think I would ever be alive right now so I never planned a future. But I’m happy to say that I do see a future for myself, I just hope that it is not as bad as I imagine it to be. 

There’s a lot of things I’m missing out. Trying to tell your whole life is very difficult. But I wanted to explain my situation the best I could and give reasons as to why my mind is so sick.

If you could donate anything, I would be incredibly thankful. I want to pay my dad back for everything and I don’t want him to be so broke because of me. I want to be able to buy a coffee when I want to. I want to be financially stable so I could see a better future for myself. I want to get better for my dad, but also more recently, I want to get better for me; that’s something I’ve never felt before.

Any donation would be so appreciated. I thank you very much if you’ve read all this 💙

Here’s a bit more positive things about me: I love animals to pieces. I fall in love with every dog. I have many friends and they are all part of the lgbt+ community. I love playing the piano and songwriting/singing. I love film, I love art, I just love to be creative and tell stories in any way I can. A lot of people on my Instagram say I am inspirational to them. I like to think that I help people when I talk about my struggles and how I cope. I love people, I find them all unique and interesting, and I will try to help every person I meet. I love saltana bran, there’s a small strange but positive fact about me.

Like I said, any donation is so much appreciated. I appreciate your time and your donation and if you share this post. Thank you 💙

My Instagram name is @ceo.com.au

 

my PayPal.me link is: PayPal.Me/allanstandleythompso

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Assistance to move/pay off invoices

Hello everyone!

My name is Holli. I am in need of a bit of assistance to move from my family home to a home with my partner. With them paying what bills they can in the home, they aren’t able to set aside much, if anything, to help me out. I am currently job hunting for anything I can do, even odd jobs here and there, so I can save up money to move my things. I am a qualified Assistant Nurse, and plan to study further as an Enrolled Nurse in the near future when I am settled. I unfortunately do not have an open license which makes things a whole lot harder but plan to go for my Ps in the next few weeks. I spend my spare time doing digital art and photography of my dogs and cats.

Before I move, I need to pay off a few bills to take the stress off my Mother who has done so much for me in my life. I want to pay off my current course in Youth Work which has about $350 left on it, and my car service of about $400 and my Mother’s car service at about $500 so she doesn’t have to worry about those so much. She is stressed out so much trying to get her service paid off with her income, and I want to take that off her if I can.

For the move itself, I need to be able to get at least $3,500 as an estimated total to pay for flights for my animals and myself, for my furniture to be moved and for my car to be moved. I wish to be out of the home in the next few months if possible so I can begin my life with my partner.

Anything at all is incredibly appreciated. I will continue to do my absolute best to earn what money I can to get the ball rolling too.

Thank you so much for taking a moment to read this, and I hope you have a wonderful day.

PayPal.Me/RiverLink

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I’m in a mess

Hi there, I’m not really sure if this will work but it is my last resort and I’m running out of ideas what to do so here goes.

I’m Hannah and I’m 26, originally from the UK, but currently living in Australia. Long story short I am in crippling debt, Im struggling to find a job, I’m barely making rent, I can’t afford a flight home and am in desperate need of help.

But here is how i ended up in this position.

I made the decision to up my entire life and move down under after a painful break up left me broken and feeling like I had nothing. So I quit my job as a preschool teacher and decided to travel, I spent the first 3 months of my trip volunteering all across south east Asia, helping to build schools and teaching English and in turn they began to help rebuild my broken heart. I gained a sense of purpose again and with that I decided I was ready to take the next step in rerouting my life, and made the choice to move to Australia.

This is where my problems started. With it being such a spur of the moment trip, I hadn’t really planned ahead with getting work, accommodation etc I’d just taken word of mouth from others that it’d be easy to find once I was there. How wrong I was. My first thought was to try and get a job in teaching however unfortunately my degree (Education studies) does not transfer over to Australia and so my qualification doesn’t count, a 3 year degree that I can apparently only use in the UK. I then decided to get a job as an Au Pair however an environment that at first was amazing, quickly turned sour. I would work every hour of the day for this family, making sure their kids were well looked after and enjoying themselves, I would cancel plans to help them, I would get up for them in the night when the baby would cry, however it was never enough. They would create extra tasks constantly so that I never had a break, I was forced to stay and watch tv with the mother at night and be her ‘friend’ instead of exploring Sydney when I planned to, I was beck and call for this family yet they would still withhold my pay because I ‘wanted to go for a drink with a friend and not stay in with them’. I knew I needed to get out, but by this point I had been travelling for 4 months using most of my savings, and having very rarely been paid by the family, had little in AUD to fall back on either.

So I got a second job. And for a few weeks things seemed to get back on track and having the extra work helped with the escape from the family, but then that also all came crashing down on me when I received the message that the restaurant was closing effective immediately due to financial issues. And I received no pay for the 3 weeks/48 Hours that I had worked for them. Just another crushing blow.

I then received another job offer for a sales role, and I was overjoyed as it meant I could finally escape the family, have my freedom back and enjoy my experience. So I found a flat and began working. At first everything seemed great, and then just as I was reaching the end of my 2 week training period, the company said that they would ‘have to let me go’ along with the 5 other trainees, due to low need for employees, and that training is not paid. I was then left in an even worse situation with no job, no income and rent to pay. So I made the rash decision to increase my overdraft limit on my UK travel account in order to keep paying rent. Within the space of 2 days I applied for 137 jobs, none of which got back to me or the ones who did couldn’t accept my visa type. In the midst of this I lost my other bank card without realising (as i rarely used that one) so by the time I realised I had been rinsed of my remaining £900 through card copying and scammers, and unfortunately as this happened in abroad and without me noticing immediately, there is apparently nothing they can do about it.

At this point I was in one overdraft by £750, my other had been rinsed and I was in that by £1500, I had no Australian income and $275 worth of rent to pay each week. I was getting in to panic mode, my job applications were up the roof yet I was still struggling to find a way out. So I applied for a payday loan (£200) to help me with one weeks rent to bide me some time.

I am currently still struggling to find a job, in the last week I have been to 12 interviews but am yet to get a job either due to my visa restrictions or my degree not being accredited. I’m also now in danger of falling behind on my loan fees, overdraft fees and my rent.

I have reached breaking point and feel like I am in this hole that I just can’t get out of, and instead keep getting more and more trapped. I’m stuck in a foreign country, with no job, no friends and no money and all I want to do right now is go home, go back to my secure job and family. If there is anyone out there who would be able to help, even just the slightest, I would be forever grateful. I just want the opportunity to build my life back up again and get myself out of this financial disaster.

In short, I’m a prime example of backpacking gone wrong. I own up to my mistakes and take full responsibility, but right now, all I want to do is go home and I need your help in doing that.

Thanks In advance,

Hannah

https://paypal.me/hej19

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Money for a car

Hello. I find myself here today because for a while now I have been trying to look for a way to make an extra income so I can get myself a car. I know a lot of questions might pop into your head like why don’t you get another job, ask your parents, save up. I do have one job and it’s casual so I only get 2 3hr shifts a week and most of that money goes to paying for my phone bill. Both of my parents don’t work and they receive government benefits that goes towards paying rent and grocery shopping. I have tried to save in the past but there has always been something that comes up and I have to use my savings. I would like to get a second job but it’s quite hard to find a job when most require you to have a license and car. I have looked online for ways to earn quick cash. I have done the online surveys, little jobs for people close to me, selling some of my old stuff that I don’t use anymore but it has been months now since I have been doing those other options and I never have any money left over to save. I really hate living paycheck to paycheck and I know that if I could just get a car I could find a good paying job and start helping my parents out and myself out as well. I really am just trying to rely on the kindness of strangers now. I feel really embarrassed asking for money like this but there really is no other way. I have tried many options and none of them seem to work. If this option works then I would consider myself really lucky that there are people out there who out of the kindness of there own heart would help people out like this and whoever is reading this I hope they find comfort in knowing that I do not take kindness and generosity for granted and that I do not see this as a gift or a favour but rather an exchange because I will pay this forward some day if I’m able to receive help I too will one day help somebody else in need because I now how much it would matter to someone even the smallest gesture. I also hope that it would bring comfort to know that I will find a way to pay you back every cent given to me because I know that if I can get a car I can get a better job and pay you back slowly slowly.
To end I would just like to say thank you in advance and I hope this works out for the best.

PayPal.me/AnnikaCharles

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Avoiding Bankruptcy

Dear Potential lifesaver,

To be honest, I have no idea how to start this request? I’ve never put my hand out for anything in my life with the exception of a few parent loans over the years. I’ve recently come into a spot of bother.

I used to work away a lot and pretty much most of my life was FIFO oriented working 12/14 hour shifts for up to two weeks with a week off. I worked on mine sites and other industries as a writer. I made good money and life was good. I recently came home to find the locks had been changed in my home by my wife. She has stated that she no longer wants me around as “I never want to do anything” and “I was never there”.
I returned to writing as it offered enough financial reward to support our family (I have two beautiful daughters 4&6 years old) and to support my wife as she was studying to be a lawyer. I did the above for around 8 years where I was the sole breadwinner.
Unfortunately, during the course of our relationship I incurred various credit card debts namely for house renovations and related activities. Due to poorly reported taxes and BAS statements, I also incurred debts from the tax department. I entered into what is called a voluntary insolvency agreement and started to pay back everything I owed. I did so for more than a year until the day I came home to find I no longer had a home and my wife stated she wants a divorce.

I had nowhere to go except the mine I currently lived at whilst on-shift. I managed to pack what clothes I had into my car and sneak them into my room on-camp.

It was during that time I was informed that the current contract I was on was no longer going to be renewed (a common thing on mine sites in Australia). So panic set in.

Fortunately, I have another skill set as a commercial pilot, but only a bare licence without the multi-engine instrument rating enabling me to seek employment in the airlines. I had always wanted to complete this, but whilst working away so much I had no other choice but to continue doing what I was doing at the mines in order to support my family and pay my debts. (A bare commercial licence does not pay well in Aus). So I always forgot the idea as soon as it came into my head.

Looking for ideas on what to do next, I had heard of a local flight school who could complete my training and make me job ready whilst also providing me with accommodation. I jumped at the chance and here I am now studying for my Multi Engine Command Instrument Rating.

My wife and I have placed the house up for sale and my debts remain….and I’m up to my neck in it almost $100k. I have a large number of organisations seeking their money and will be left with no other option to go bankrupt unless I can seek some form of help. I’m a good bloke who has NEVER shy’d away from hard work and has ALWAYS put my money where my mouth is. I’m honest and trustworthy. I just don’t know what to do? Yes, I have no job at present, but that is short term until I can source my first flying gig, but my wage will never cover the amounts I owe. I just want the nightmare to stop? The phone calls to stop, the never ending explanations to companies to stop.
Due to unknown reasons, I have not been granted access to my children by my wife. I’m not a violent man, I not an abusive man nor have I been screwing around or been dishonest? My whole life has completely gone down the toilet and I have lost everything. I sincerely hope someone can help. I’m trying and will get there, but the weight of debt is such that every day is a bloody nightmare I just don’t know what else to do?
I thank you a million times for any help. It won’t help with my relationship I’m sure, but will go a long way to stop the pain and bitterness on both sides. We are in a hole.

PayPal.Me/BenRomaines

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single mum of 2 needs help please

Hi there im 33 years old single mum of 2 babys one at 2 years old and one at 5 months old. i have being trying to get back on top financially but have being struggling for at less 5 years, i ended up here to do with a break up i walked away from evetything that we had got together, left him with house plus everything else, but the thing i did get was the black ss ute and and about 30 grand in debet, i then found a new bf but wouldnt let him pay my debets as they r mine and are to do with an ex. I then found out that my father had cancer and was given 6 to 18 months that it me so hard at that stage we had some people break into our house and stole all our jewerley half of what was taken couldnt have being replaces as it was from my father a week later it happened again but this time they stole my car, we had to pack up and move away cos i didnt feel safe any more. we move back near my dad but at this stage myself and my bf were sruggling as we both didnt have a job anymore. We were spending all our money on making CB oil for my dad hoping that would give him longer to be with us, it didnt work my father only lived 6 months from finding out, the only thing that keep me going after that was i found out i was 6 months pregrent and had no choice be to keep the baby even though i felt like i wasnt ready in anyway we had no money living with bf brother we had really hit rock bottom things looked good for a bit our first baby wad born then we had our second one after that. Everything seems to be going good but think just keep on going wrong in our life and their father keep taking and blaming it all on me so we split. I ended up helping a person out who i through was a friend she had use my credit card the first time she used it she paid it back with out a problem so she used it again then paid if off but now for some reason the credit card people have just told me that the last 2 payment have bounced and i need to pay it the bill is 10 grand i cant pay that off or do anything i wouldnt have enough to look after my family im in need of some real help i have done everything and have no one else to ask im all alone and now this i really dont no how much more i can take i feel like i am letting my kids down and that they would be better off with out me please please im asking for help i really need to get this bills paid, just anything would mean the world to me and would help us out thankyou

paypal.me/pleasehelp26

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Reaching for humanity

If you had asked me any amount of time ago if I thought I would ever be doing this, I would have laughed. Well, here I am. I am proud, I am hard working, I have a family and I have amazing friends. I work full time, I help anyone I can and I’ve now come to a point in my life where I am the one that needs help.

My partner started his business a couple of years ago and like any other venture, there was ups and downs but in our case, downs won.

To give our story in short… He received his electrical license and started his own business. Three years later we receive a letter in the mail and aggressive phone calls to tell us that the company he went through was shut down and in fact jailed for running fraudulent businesses. His license was taken away and no one wanted to speak to us about our options or how to change this. That course cost us almost $10,000.

Now, to get his license again, we need an additional $10,000 to start all over again with someone else.

All of this along with other debts we have accumulated means we are drowning in over $50,000 worth of debts.

I’ve reached breaking point. I don’t know where to turn and I have decided to put my faith in humanity and ask for help.

I promise that one day, somehow, I will help someone else to get their life back on track too.

paypal.me/joannak13

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I’m 56, desperate and needing a loan – no home, no car, no future.

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I am 56, childless, alone, have no family and despite putting one foot in front of the other every single day, wake up to no joy no matter how hard I try.  I dream that I wake up and find that one person in this world reads this (SORRY ITS LONG) story of my life and says, ‘I’m going to help this person’.  What I really want is a loan for AUD$41,500 that I can pay back to you at AUD$1,200 per month so I’m not asking for charity but life has got so difficult and desperate I thought I would see if GOFUNDME can help in some way.

Another way to help me is to SHARE this or link my GoFundMe page through your Facebook friends/associates asking them in turn to share my story with their group. This way I could expand the search for someone to help me.  

I created a blog titled, Survive A Loan & Hopeful that will hopefully provide more information about why I am so desperate for financial assistance.  Please also check my FACEBOOK  page so that you can see I actually am a real person with a history and not a fly-by-night scammer.

INTRODUCTION:

My name is Kimanie-Lee Roper (nee Jones) and created a GOFUNDME campaign in the exceptional hope that someone out in the world will notice my story and give me the much needed help I require to not only be released from the immense stress I endure every day worrying about money but to try and get well again.  In short, due to various circumstances I will outline below, I require AUS$41,500 to consolidate my various debts so that would free me up to pay back AUS$1,200 per month to whomever can help me with a loan.  I am more than willing to sign a contract and take out loan protection insurance to ensure than a person lending me the money is covered in the event of my death.  I am also happy to pay interest on the loan.  The problem is I will only be able to commence repayments once my loans are paid out however.  I estimate that I can pay back the entire amount in approximately 2.5 years discounting interest.

If someone cannot help me with a loan, I decided to put my story on GoFundMe praying that people may read my story and help me try to clear some of the loans so that I might be able to afford to live each month because as it is, after every loan is paid, I have no money in which to afford necessities.  As of today (04/07/19) I have $20 with a phone bill due and other medical bills that I simply cannot pay off.

LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES:

I have worked all my life and went back to University in 1999 as a mature aged student.  In 2001 I used to work for a Government Department working with people on Parole and Community Based Orders and in the course of my work was held hostage in an interview room by a client armed with two serated knives pasted to their body.  No one knew I was in the interview room and I was assaulted for over an hour before I managed to tackle my way out of the room, through the foyer and open a security door where I narrowly avoided being stabbed in the spine.  The knife came down as I managed to shut the door. Unfortunately my employer completely mishandled my situation and I received no internal or external assistance and because the incident was basically neglected, felt pressure to work years after the incident. The Department was found to be negligent and I received a nominal payment after they ceased their contract with me in 2014. In 2011 I ran into the offender who recognized me and made motions to retaliate and I officially had a breakdown being diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  I received psychiatric treatment both as an involuntary and voluntary patient of mental health services and have had approximately 10 hospital admissions resulting in two bouts of ECT.   I remain unable to work with severe psychiatric impairment and receive ongoing Workcover payments.

In May of 2012 after the breakdown and whilst still struggling with my mental health, my ex-husband was recuperating from prostate cancer. He woke up and told me that he was in love with his cousin who resided in Queensland (I live in Melbourne) and within 1 hour had packed his car and left our marital home to drive to her.  I was left with 4 mortgages to settle on 4 properties.  He was over 18 years older than I and the news was utterly devastating as I loved him more than life itself.  I was to never see or hear from him again except through our respective solicitors as we formulated a financial settlement.  Within two months of him leaving and seriously struggling with my mental health and trying to pay back the banks, my mother who lived with me at that stage was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia and given a couple of months to live.  I nursed her at home until her death 2 days before my 50th birthday.  I do not have any siblings, aunts, uncles, grandparents.  My family on my mother’s side nearly all died from Huntington’s Disease, a terrible legacy to live with. I am completely on my own without family.  Within 3 months I lost my sanity, my husband, my step family, my mother and my home.

When I thought I couldn’t take anymore, I was forced to pay my ex-husband a large lump sum from the settlements of the properties plus my superannuation and he was permitted to keep the entire sum of his father’s will as he was beneficiary.  Despite the fact that I was not working, had a breakdown, and was grieving the loss of my mother, the Court mediation determined that he was 70 years old and would  never work again so he received a handsome settlement even though he got to share the asset’s owned by his new partner.  I had to borrow a large sum of money to pay him out and try as I might, ended up having to sell my home as I just couldn’t afford the repayments and upkeep.

I am currently homeless and do not own a car.  A dear friend lets me live with her and I do not possess a vehicle so am essentially stuck in a rural area without transport.  If not for the kindness of my friend, I would be on the streets as I do not even have $50 per fortnight left to live on.

From the time I was left on my own, I have had to borrow money to move my furniture/belongings and put it into storage, had numerous medical issues and circumstances that have necessitated me borrowing from high interest lending companies as traditional banks will not loan to people receiving Workcover.  My Workcover payments are in place until retirement and I have been through mediation with my employer which guarantees I will receive this payment on an ongoing basis.  I now only receive a portion of my wage and I just can’t manage anymore having no money left at the end of each fortnight.  I am forced to hire a container to house all of my personal belongings which I have not had the pleasure to see since 2014.

MEDICAL ISSUES:
Since 2011 I have suffered from these medical issues and have undergone numerous medical procedures whereby I have had to borrow money:

* PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder, Generalised Anxiety Disorder (approximately 10 admissions into hospital some as long as 2 months) including suicidal ideation.
* 29 teeth extractions under General Anesthetic due to developing a gum infection.
* Emergency staphylococcus aureus knee infection.
* Type 11 poorly controlled diabetes insulin using (long and fast acting day long application).
*  Vascular stents left and right leg.
* Left artery heart stent.
* Total thyroidectomy.
* Removal vocal nodules/tumor (Yet to be done).
* Left eye sclerosis.

PRE 2011:
* 14 x laparoscopy for endometriosis.
* 2 x laparotomy for endometriosis (full stomach surgery).
* Full hysterectomy.
* Epidural abscess at T11 & 12 resulting in meningitis – post operative epidural for pain relief during laparotomy and contracted golden staph.
* 4 x miscarriages (went through IVF and was never blessed with a living child). * Auto Immune Disease Ankylosing Spondylitis.

MY LOANS:

I owe the following to various loan companies.  As you can see, if I could pay back the loans which leaves me one amount, it will negate the huge interest and allow me to be free and clear of debt in 2.5 years.

Loan Company $5,000
Loan Company $3,000
Loan Company $9,500 (was initially $20,000 so I managed to reduced this)
Loan Company $2,780
Loan Company $5,139
Loan Company $ 211
Credit Card $2,000
Friend $2,500

FEELING SAFE AGAIN: 

I was a very proud person who would normally never disclose my ‘dirty laundry’ in public but consistent fear is a strange monster…it makes you do things you would not normally do.  If anyone would have told me I would share such personal information on-line, exposing one’s self to possible ridicule, I would have said you’re crazy.  But my friends, desperation takes one to places you would never believe.  I decided to start a blog in the hope someone would read it and take a chance on me but even there, I’m writing it to no-one as I don’t know how to promote such a blog to get a readership.

If you are able to help me, I will forever be in your debt.  Please contact me and I will do everything in my power to ensure that your ‘investment’ is sound and protected.  I am trying to be as transparent as is possible in this type of forum.

As it is, I literally have $20 left to last me until Thursday 05/07/19 and then it starts again, no money left over the next fortnight.  My phone will be switched off by then as I simply don’t have the funds to run a mobile anymore which further alienates me from the outside world.  If not for my friend feeding and putting a roof over my head, I would be a statistic on the streets of Melbourne.

I am one of the invisible one’s.  A 56 year old woman with no family, no home, no car, physically and mentally unwell and getting worse by the day.

My blog link is https://kimala84.wixsite.com/survivea-loan

WHAT WOULD IT MEAN TO ME IF YOU COULD HELP?:

Literally it would mean the world to me.  The dream to wake up one morning and not be scared is something I cannot imagine anymore but if you take a chance on me, either by donation or if you are in a position to loan me the money for which you WILL be paid back, I will pay it forward.

Blessings to you and yours,
Kimanie-Lee Jones (Roper)

https://www.paypal.me/kimanie

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Support would be greatly appreciated.

Hi All,

I am a budding filmmaker, my goal is to raise funds for a 4K film camera to enable me to follow my dream.

My dream is to make films on mental health issues: depression, anxiety etc everything under that umbrella, the harsh effects of bullying, addiction, suicide prevention all types of topics that will raise awareness of important issues that are in the world where positive change needs to be made.

I have personally suffered from depression, anxiety & mental health issues, along with close family members & friends.

I hope I can make a positive change in some way, that may help others through their personal struggle or assist carers, loved ones and friends to understand what we go through.

With hope, these films will make a positive impact and this world a better place.

My mission in life is to do anything I can to help raise awareness on important issues and the best way to reach the masses is through film making, hence why I recently made a career change into film making.

I hope you can support me with this cause.

If we don’t ask, you don’t get.

Over the years I have supported SO many people with their causes.

For the first time ever in my life, I am asking for help this time.

Any support would be greatly appreciated, even the price of a small coffee, every little bit will help.

If you can’t afford to donate, sharing this might be a nice gesture, regardless I totally understand.

I’m just a girl chasing my dreams.

I hope you are chasing yours and I will support you in whatever way I can too, just reach out to me.

The first film I produce, all the people who donated to this cause will all be mentioned in the credits under the title “without their donations and support this film would not be possible, a very special thank you to;” and l will list your name.

Much love x

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Chasing my dream

Where do I start? I love helping people a little too much to the point where I forget to help myself. It doesn’t help that I wanted to be an artist (a sculptor to be precise) when I was younger but life and mostly bills made me face a harsh reality that I cannot survive with my ideals, my unknown name, my unknown face and artistic inclinations so I took to the corporate world, sales and retail. You name it, I’ve done what I can to make an honest living but still just barely breaking even. Being stuck in cubicles facing a computer screen did very little to nourish my soul. Until one day I decided to cook professionally and I simply fell in love with it. I felt like an artist again but this time my medium is good food. I was an apprentice for a few years and that means barely earning a reasonable wage but I pushed on and proved to myself and to naysayers that I have what it takes to make it in this industry- That I can be one of the best chefs this world has ever seen. The only problem I have is that I am not equipped with a good credit score or a big bank account. I made plenty of mistakes in the past and it was mostly “love-related”. I want to make it right. I want to start something small but not diminish the quality of food. I want to buy a double decker bus and convert it into a mobile restaurant that’s highly seasonal and sustainable. I want to serve art on a plate that takes your senses on a culinary journey. I want to introduce my country’s cuisine to every destination I could possibly drive to. I want to share my grandma’s wisdom over soup while breaking bread with customers and people in need. I want to create a dialogue about food and what it means for art sake, culture, ethics and learning how to give back. Eventually the goal is to be able to feed the hungry but for that I need a name. For that I need to be successful and right now, I just need a hand. $50,000 would do the trick. That would ensure a great future for what I believe in- I need a platform and these are the avenues I’m going to take for now. I will make it. I just need a little nudge. If  there’s anyone out there who chooses to help instead of ridiculing a girl for trying- Thank you. Thank you so much.

 

paypal link:

paypal.me/adigail

 

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Chronic Pain Hindering Career & Study Goals

Hi everyone, I am really hopeful that this will resonate with others that suffer from chronic pain.

I’m 27 years old and have chronic pain that is getting in the way of my goals. After suffering from hormonal issues my weight ballooned to 308lb, which I thought was the reason for my pain. Since 2016 I have lost 110lb and am sitting around 198lb, which is AMAZING and I am so happy with how hard I have worked to lose it. Unfortunately, even with losing the weight my chronic pain issues are getting worse and not better.

I take 4 different medications every day to ease the pain. One is an anti-depressant, one is an NSAID, one is to stop the possibility of ulcers forming in my stomach and the last is for energy. I have found that a spray originally made to desensitize the male “downstairs” area is the cheapest way to ease neck and back pain with topical anaesthetic as it’s active ingredient. I see a physio every two weeks, I try and walk 5km once a week, do bodyweight exercises once a week and stretch/foam roll every single day.

I really enjoy doing a lot for myself. I have studied graphic design at university and event management through an online college. I have completed both courses. I would like to continue studying, doing short courses on sustainable living and horticulture some day.

I have been working as much as possible through my study to keep on top of normal bills and rent, and without the medical bills I would be able to afford the basics in my life with no issues. These excess costs are overwhelming!! I wish I could say that I’m not in debt over ongoing costs, but I am – and I can’t keep up with repayments and the interest is getting the better of me.

I am trying really hard to be able to do everything I want to do – work and study, pace myself, but still not miss out on living my life. To try and save money and still be social I volunteer with some really cool organisations that plan events for people that like either science or fitness. The 5km I walk once a week is usually at Parkrun (which is a free timed 5km that happens at 8 am on Saturday morning in parks all over the globe!) and that is a bit of a community event so I can be social then too.

I have just started getting more tests done to help find out if there is anything that can be done further or differently, as I don’t want to be stuck on anti-depressants if I’m not depressed. The tests are going to cost a lot of money, and on top of physio appointments and medication, I don’t know how I’m going to afford it all. I just can’t give up yet.

I’m young, I have so much I want to do.

That said, I am stuck in a vicious cycle of not having enough money to do the things I need to do because of medical bills. Sometimes I have to spend more than what I get in my paycheck. My chronic pain is a pain in itself, but my financial situation is holding me back from finding a way forward to achieve the things I want to achieve.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe you had chronic pain when you were younger and understand how much of a financial burden it is. How much of a mental burden it is. How much it would mean if someone that understood and could afford to lend a helping hand, helped in a way that you couldn’t thank them for enough.

Thank you for reading, and I am so grateful for any support you are able to provide.

paypal.me/jesmas

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Overdue Bills and Depression

Hi there, I’m not even too sure if anyone will read this. But if you are reading this, thank you for taking the time to.

I guess I’ll start by saying I am a 19 year old guy from the very bottom of the South Island in New Zealand. My parents divorced when I was 5 and it never really impacted me until I started High School. When I began High School I developed severe Social Anxiety which later developed into Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I have also been battling pretty bad depression after a really bad breakup at the start of 2017. I thought it was love, and it hurt like love. Since 2016 I have been on antidepressants and a part of me wishes I never started taking them as I can hardly remember life before them. I have seen a handful of Psychiatrists, and I saw a Psychologist every week for a few years. Anyway, cut to where i am now, I am still living at home but I cannot make ends meet. I have had a few jobs but I always end up finding something that makes me anxious there and I can only focus on that. And because of that I am currently unemployed but actively looking for work that I am capable of doing! I have an already overdue phone bill that goes up $140+ a month. And on-top of that, my car’s warrant of fitness and registration have both expired and it would be at least $100 to pay off both of those. I have been through tough times before but they have never been as bad as what I’m going through right now. I know there are millions, possibly billions, of people out there who have it worse than me but we each have our own personal hell, and I happen to be going through mine right now. I’m not asking for too much, just enough to get me back on my feet. I will give back when I can, to my community and the world itself. I want to do good, I’m just finding it hard to even get out of bed right now. If you have made it this far, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. And if you happen to be so kind and generous enough to help me out financially, I will forever be grateful to you.

https://www.paypal.me/kingmarsden

Thank you, peace and love.

-Oliver

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Urgent breast surgery

My names Sarah and I never thought I’d be in the position where I am telling my ‘sob story’ and asking for help online but hey here we are.

Basically, I have breast implants, one of them has ruptured and I need to have them replaced as it is slowly poisoning me as it leaks.

Unfortunately I am in no financial position to have this surgery and my family are fighting their own battles medically so I am unable to get any assistance from them.

On Friday I was told that the company I work for are going broke and I have 2 weeks left of employment so have the added pressure of looking for another job so I can continue to pay my rent and bills and try to save for the surgery.

For my surgery I need close to $11,000 and am doing all I can to get it. I am doing side jobs where I can as well as my normal Monday to Friday (while that lasts) and where my health allows it. The leaking is making me quite ill so I have to push myself through to keep the money coming in so I can get the surgery done. It’s bit of a struggle but I just want to get better so am focussed on the solution rather than the problem.

My credit isn’t great and I am unable to get a loan on top of the minimal credit card I already have. This is what happens when you trust a boyfriend (now ex thank goodness) who turns out to be a drug addict, takes all your money, leaves you to default on loans and basically sends you completely broke and starting again at the age of 30.

I’ve never been one to ask for help, I’ve always been the one to give it. I believe if you give out good, good will come back to you. Even though I don’t have a lot I always help those around me where I can.

This is the first time I have asked for assistance from anyone and to be honest it is killing me to do so however if I don’t get the money I am slowly physically dying so it’s bit of a catch 22.

I am single and don’t have that support of a partner to get me through this and I want to be able to live the rest of my life happy and healthy and find that person that is right for me but while I am so sick and working so many hours and basically just trying to survive I can’t find that and get that support.

I don’t want people to feel sorry for me, I am just hoping there are people out there who read this and just want to help someone who is really struggling, who is a regular person, with a regular life. I would be so appreciative to anyone who can help no matter how big or small your donation. Every little bit helps.

To donate to me please use my paypal link below.

https://www.paypal.me/S1985G

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The brutality of being old and gay.

The gay scene is dominated by the young and beautiful and sadly there are many who use their youth as a tool to deceive silver daddies (mature men with grey hair) for financial gain.

My personality type is to look for the best in people and I have no regrets in being kind and generous to those in need.  Good intentions lead to positive outcomes……or do they?

In 2018, after being befriended by an intelligent 25 year old man with a charismatic personality and a cheeky smile, I was drawn into his world with stories of misfortune and disadvantage. As immigrants, his family struggled when his father passed away shortly after arriving in Australia. He was the only male with 3 young sisters and was unable to pursue his medical studies in order to work and support his family. It was evident that his potential was being smothered by obligation and it became my mission to help him get his life back on track. I was prepared to take on more debt in order to help him with food, rent, transport, medical expenses and studies.

I am certain that you have now assumed, after reading the above, that this was a sexual relationship, however this was not the case. I truly took on the role of father, carer and mentor, or so I thought?

After losing my job in March 2019 a friend took me away for two weeks to collect my thoughts. While away, communications from my young friend suddenly stopped. Upon returning home I was unable to reach him or locate him. After several days of no contact, I feared something serious had happened to him, even possibly death, therefore I googled his name hoping to find clues or answers.

What I did uncover was a world of lies and deception as profiles appeared with information contradicting stories, he had told me. Friends started contacting me telling me how he had stolen from them and further stories of false identity, fraud, prostitution and drug dealing began to unfold. I was soon to discover my savings had been accessed and spyware had been installed on my mobile phone. I was left standing as a foolish, gullible and stupid old man trying to make sense of it all?

And that brings me up to today. It has now been 8 weeks since losing my job and no source of income as a result. I have not yet had success in acquiring a replacement job and although I have registered for unemployment benefits, my request is yet to be approved. With rent, gas and electricity to pay and several financial institutions chasing me for payment, life has become a struggle. I am eternally grateful to friends and family who have assisted in small ways, but my stupidity is no longer their burden to bear. My request is for a rescue package of $5,000 to help get my debt in order and to pay back friends and family.

PayPal.Me/fruitmincetart

Thank you for reading and kind regards,

MARK

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Help with debt

Hello, I’m a 25 year old male. I’ll admit that after reading some of the other request on here mine doesn’t seem all that important but I have gotten my self into an overwhelming amount of financial debt and its a suffocating feeling that I’m trying my best to get out of. I took a bunch of same day loans that I couldn’t afford to pay back totalling in 12,000 dollars and then got hit with a government bill of 20,000 because I was getting the wrong payments for over 2 years and didn’t notice so I have to pay it all back I have paid off 5,000 so far but am struggling to get through it I would love any help I can get so I can get back on top of my life and finally start making money for myself and not losing it all to debt I know it is all self inflicted and I’m paying for mistakes I made when I was younger but in really struggling with it thank you for your help.

http://paypal.me/BeardlyJ

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Sick Dad and School Funds :(

Wow okay I don’t really know where to start but I guess I should introduce myself maybe? My name is Charlette, I’m 18 and to put it bluntly my dad is dying. On new years eve I left work to find out he had been admitted to hospital following a massive seizure a few hours earlier. Fast forward hours later and we’re told there’s a mass in the brain that looks like it’s bleeding into itself and needs to be removed immediately. The next day most of it is cut out and sent off to be tested, to see whether it’s malignant or benign, primary or secondary. Cut to  a week later and it’s the worst case scenario, stage 4 glioblastoma calling my 57 year old dad’s brain its home.
This isn’t exactly why I’m asking for money though, my dad was a crane operator and was the main money maker in the family. Last year I enrolled in a tafe course that costs around $1000. I had a stable job with a steady income and all was fine but with dad not able to look after himself I had to leave that job and take care of him while mum works to try and keep us financially stable.
I’m not asking for much, honestly I feel bad taking money from people but I have no way of affording any of my course fees and I’m in danger or not passing if I don’t.
I’ve looked into centrelink but by their calculations my parents are “earning too much” and my one day of tafe a week obviously doesn’t count as full time study so there’s no benefits there.

Sorry this is all a jumble I’ve never done something like this before, but I do hope someone sees and understands, any little thing helps. Thank you and God bless <3

my paypal is paypal.me/charletttaylor

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Please help My Friend, She really need help! Desperate

Hi, I am sorry till now i have failed to solve her financial trouble. I never thought i would ask online or any donations for this but I am feeling desperate and failed.

I have tried everything, Sold my car, took personal loan and everything in my range, as i am not rich.

During her family hardship time she borrowed money from her friend and now her friend is getting married soon and asking the money back all sudden. Total borrowed was $ 60,000.  Within four months all i was able to help her  was around ($8000 from my car, $16000 personal loan and $3000 from my income).

Just even getting this much get myself in cash flow problem and near broke and unable to borrow any more to help her. But it would have all been worth it if her problem was solved, but she still own approx  $30000 and i am feeling the pressure and unable to sleep as well. She is very good person and struggling.

I never  would ask any money for myself as i am healthy and able to earn and can return my debts myself slowly. i lived my lived helping other, obeying laws and never ever hurted anyone feelings.

All i want is to be able to raise $30k for her and end her trouble. I would be very thankful from heart if you help her.

Bitcoin Wallet:

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Lost Everything, Please help save us

Dear everyone who is reading this. Please help me. I am in a situation where I have to ask anyone out there for help and that is how desperate I am.

Here’s my story, a year of hardship

A year ago my mother was admitted to the hospital due to a severe asthma attack followed by a cardiac arrest. This was an unexpected medical emergency. It was so bad that she has to end up In hospital for over two months going on three. She wasn’t a citizen or resident in Australia, so her bills were in huge amount. This where our bills started stacking up, and we cannot keep up.

I had to put my life on hold on paused to perform as a caregiver for her in which all my bills were overdue and went to debt collections. I need help for both our bills to be paid.

This was the hardest decision I have to make in my whole entire life was Choosing my life or my mothers. It took me nights and days to think of what’s the right thing to do, and it came down to choosing her. No one will ever know or understand the struggle was real at the time and up to now and how it was like for us. However, the only thing I know is to choose what’s most important and that’s life. Being a caregiver and not earning any money was hard but I did it because of love, care and respect.

Today my mother is getting better and that is a massive achievement Therefore I am now looking for job but still no luck. The debt collectors are after me now to make payments asap, or it will go to illegal activity in the next few weeks if I don’t pay something and I don’t want this to happen. This is why I am writing this and seeking help. The little change you give it will help change and save us.

My mother’s bills is between $300,000 – $250,000 all for her medical bills at two hospitals.

My bills is between $30,000 – $20,000 for bank, phone, medical bills at hospital and money owes to government.

PayPal.Me/konehw

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A proper sendoff for those who deserved it but were deprived of it

This is request made with a heavy heart, all through out my parents’ lives it seemed as though life dealt them non-stop hardship. One example is: In the eighties, my mother had gotten into a car accident where a truck driver had tailgated her vehicle so badly that it launched her into a paddock and broke multiple of her ribs, my father at the time was a Pig farmer was dealing with a community attempting to shoot up his feed silos and mutilate stock, fast forward to 2006, my father is diagnosed with cancer and is dealing with the fact that he was had by a dodgy mortgage on his farm and my mother suffering from a stroke which left severe damage to her day to day functions. Three years later, my mother had major organ which had left her brain starved of oxygen and unknowingly lead to her developing dementia in later years. In 2011, my father had passed away and his death was not a quick or painless one, he suffered and that will forever be on my conscious, due to cold and borderline emotionless family members the funeral was a mere three days post his passing, we battled on for 5 more years and soon it came to my mother’s turn, she had been in nursing home for about ten months but she had passed away, a nursing home where they had been abusing and neglecting the residents, due to their negligence, she met her end drowning in her own bodily fluids and the same treatment had happened with her funeral, so here I am, I ask $20 000 to be able to fund a proper service for my late parents on my terms and with the people who truly cared about them and secondly take them back to their homeland of Germany to which they migrated from in 1960. Hopefully, you, the reader can empathise with my cause and help out, even if it’s slightly, every little bit will help in the long run towards the ultimate goal. I sincerely thank you for your time in reading this and hope that you find my cause worthy to help out as these are people who most definitely deserve a last bit of solace.

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Terrorist Attack Destroying Life

Hello, My name is Joe and I am from New Zealand, I have a lovely wife and 3 young children that are my world.

I have been spending the last 4-5 months  setting up my dream and getting prepared to start running my own business.

However Due to the very sad terrorist attack event that happened here in New Zealand a few weeks ago it has nearly destroyed my dream and all my hard work overnight, by an act of a single person that had nothing to do with me has almost completely squashed my dream and thrown my family into financial hardship.

My story:   At the end of last year(2018) I was made redundant from my job after 15 years of service (and 2 weeks after my youngest child was born! and a few weeks away from christmas), this took its toll on me as I am a very dedicated person and put a lot of effort into my job, I gave up a lot of my family time for them and was pushed out of the company in a nasty way.. after a legal battle I did get a small (I mean small) redundancy payout , so after a small break over Christmas with my family it was time to get another job. And after extensive searching and applying for work, I got no callbacks and due to the amount of people applying Im not surprised.

So after extensive discussion with my wife, We made the decision to use my redundancy to setup to run my own business in the field of my passion.. Gunsmithing., I am a machinist by trade but have had a passion and been an enthusiast for firearms my whole life, I have been training for years in gunsmithing techniques and have always wanted to be my own boss, So we thought what better time than now to start!, Gunsmithing is very much a dying trade in New Zealand and believed there is a gap in the market for this service and would love to do my part in keeping the trade alive in New Zealand.

So for the first 3 months of 2019 I began in preparing for my new startup, I began by registering the business, beginning to network with possible clients, visiting gun clubs and taking pre-orders, I was negotiating a maintenance contract with a local gun club. I Rented a workshop facility and used redundancy money to buy equipment and setup a gunsmithing workshop…

Everything was looking great!,I was taking on small jobs and I had work booked to start in at the end of March, I opened a facebook page (look it up, Rifleman Gunsmithing Services) to start advertising on and also began building a website. This was all working out well and was looking very promising.

And Then it Happened..   The Terrorist attack in Christchurch..  It changed everything.

Ever since the attack, The New Zealand Government had instantly started changing laws in this country around firearms. I am not here to debate whether the law changes are right or wrong, I am an enthusiast and that is all, I am not a political advocate in the slightest. However they have had an immediate effect on myself…

ALL of my planned work I had was cancelled virtually the next day,  either out of fear or the government law changes, people were either too scared or too unsure in the law changes to get anything done (these are legitimate law abiding citizens).. This was devastating to me, ever since I have been trying everything I can to get the work in, with no luck whatsoever. Everyone is waiting to see what is going to happen with the laws here before they will do anything, gun clubs have closed until further notice. For Me, I cannot wait.

I have invested what I had into this and now, the bills just keep piling up with no sign of work coming in.. We (my family) have been living on credit cards until now and they are all now maxed out.. Rent is coming due along with an overdue power bill and car payments.

To be honest..Im Scared, very scared. I come from a poor upbringing but Ive never been so scared for my family before now, How am I going to feed my kids?, will I get evicted? will the power get turned off today?  this is all haunting my thoughts constantly. And to top it off some people have even treated me like im the terrorist for being a simple Gunsmith.

I have always been a very hard worker and provider for my family, all of this has been taking a huge mental toll on me.

I am trying everything I can to get work in and at the same time applying for work everywhere.. I have turned to our government to ask for help, but because of the terrorist attack I also have a 2month wait before they will even talk to me.

This was always my dream and it was all looking so good, and now.. I don’t know what to do! This is why I have turned to this website. Ive looked and tried all I can And this is my last resort.. (I am a very proud person and find this extremely hard to write,  please forgive me if my story writing is terrible, It has taken hours for me to write this an I know ill be missing details – that’s why Im a gunsmith not a writer!)

I am asking for any financial help that can be provided.

I am maxed out $6000 in credit cards with 1500 owing in bills and more to come, so even if I do get work or a job now I will still have to wait weeks to be paid and meanwhile getting more and more in debt.

I strongly believe that I can still make my dream happen and do not want to give up on it, If that attack did not happen I would not be asking for money now.

Please, anybody. can you help me keep my family and home together during these hard times? I promise no donation will go to waste, I am and will keep trying to do everything I can to get work or get a job as soon as I possibly can,

I cannot setup a paypal.me link from New Zealand as it is not available here yet (you can check for yourself), so I have found my only option was to create an invoice.

The link address to this invoice is

https://www.paypal.com/invoice/p/#LTHLB5MBCDNUKGQV

The minimum payment is set at 1 dollar for any donations of any size.

Thank you in advance.

I will do everything I can to get out of this situation, and I also promise to pay it forward.. If anyone can help me now, I will help people on here myself in the future.

All my best to everyone.

 

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Single Dad separated from Daughter

Hi my name is Scott and I’m reaching out for financial help so I can see my daughter more often and get out of some terrible debt to be there for her.

After going through a divorce a couple of years ago and loosing everything, getting into some bad debt in the process, I met my Daughter’s mother and things were starting to get back on track, my Daughter was born in September 2017 but shortly after I lost my job and had to move across the country for work. My Daughter’s mother and I separated not long after this as she wouldn’t move away from her family and the relationship had never been the best either so it was a perfect excuse for her to end things.

For quite some time I was unable to visit my Daughter as I just couldn’t afford it. It costs me up to $2000 a visit as her mother refuses to have any contact with me, so I get no help from her. The cost of flights, accommodation, car hire takes a toll. I have managed to visit a few times but the problem is the over hanging debt I have left from the divorce is taking it out of me I have an ok paying job but with cost of child support rent and the credit card debt it is killing me and affecting my relationship with my Daughter. She is only a baby and I want to give her the best life possible a be there in her life. If I could just get rid of some of the credit card debt I could do this. I have been just keeping up with payments but never get in front. I have debits to the amount of $60,000 with I just can’t get down. I had tried to get help through the banks but no one will help me.

Any kind of donation would be not for me but would be changing the life of a little gorgeous girl, she needs her Dad in her life that’s all I’m trying desperately to do.

Thanks for your time it’s very much appreciated.

 

paypal.me/ScottTeeling

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Financial Assistance for Medical needs.

22nd March 2019

I have had ongoing health issues and have not been able to work for 5 years. I live in a regional area and have to travel back and forth to the nearest city which is 500kms away in Western Australia to a larger hospital for medical reasons to see Specialists that I am currently under for medical conditions and needing treatment.

Due to not being able to work and having to travel often for medical reasons this has put me in great debt in excess of $40,000.Not all treatments are covered as in having to have biopsies and minor cancer surgeries that are costly. More biopsies may be needed which means more financial cost with money I don’t have.

As I have severe obstructive sleep apnea who I am under a Sleep and respiratory Specialist for.  I need to be able to buy a CPAP machine and equipment to help me sleep and to get the oxygen through so I can sleep as currently I wake up 36 times an hour as I stop breathing and without it I have a high chance of having a heart attack or stroke.

I am also under a Neurologist for nerve pain and Migraine treatment in which I also have to travel back and forth to the hospital in Perth for.

I am not able to drive to Perth as my vehicle needs a lot of mechanical work done it, which would be around the minimum of $1500. I am also not able to drive on my own being long distance due to my medical issues. I also need my vehicle repaired so I can get to my hospital visit in my own town and for medical tests and local doctor visits.

I have had to borrow money off a few people which I am not able to pay back in my current situation at this time which makes things even harder.

I also need to find $1000 in the next week to get cancer cells cut out.

Any financial assistance would be of great help and greatly appreciated.

Thankyou , for your time.

My Paypal link is as follows;

paypal.me/MJWA

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SINGLE MUM RENT HELP FACE EVICTION

my name is tori I am a single mum is Melbourne australia. My 3 year old and I live in our own home with our dog , and have recently been isolated from family due to family violence and in crisis need of assistance for rent.

homeless shelters would not take us with our dog and I don’t want my son to experience that lifestyle.

im trying to gain a career through doing a bachelor degree full time.

Domestic violence victim and mental health issues in past that were overcome through sheer will power.

Need $1650 for rent. Anything will help !

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I need to hire some staff

Hi,
I want your money because I have a business that is growing slowly, and I want to speed it up so I need to hire a sales person. The business has been going 21months and we are seeing small month on month growth, but its slow work so I need money to hire more sales people to get things moving faster. I don’t know you, but I promise to pay forward whatever I receive here when things start to move a bit faster for me. I will realistically spend all of any money I receive here on creating a job so if your keen on helping a stranger grow their business, I’m the man to donate to.
The annual salary and fair wage for a sales person where I am is about $75k -$80, so I’m really looking for enough in the bank to give the guarantee of 6months work so about 40k. This will give the new employee a chance to learn what they are doing and start delivering some results.
I’m normally a man of very few words and would normally stop with just the above paragraphs but there is a requirement here to write 400 words so I will tell you a bit about why your money will help we move forward. I will guess if you are here giving away money you at some point earned it so you will know how the early days of business can be quite hard, I’ve given up a well-paid job to build a business, its hard unglamorous work but it does genuinely feel as though you are an explorer bolding going into a land you have never been before, into a place where there is no safety and you have no one to fall back on for cover. So exciting, daunting, scary and exhilarating all at the same time. Probably more often its daunting and scary but when you get some small wins it can be exciting and exhilarating. I guess the reason I really need some money is I need someone to join my expedition team to help carry the load.
If you do decide to invest in me, just know you will be taking a huge weight off my shoulders. You will be making things that little bit easier for me, so hopefully you will get out the debit or credit card and donate to what I think is a good cause.
Thanks Dan

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24 year old single mum of two, trying to get back on top after domestic violence.

Hello, my name is Shahan and I am a single mother of two beautiful young children aged 4 and 1.

 

We sre survivors of family/domestic violence. It makes me cry even having to write some of the past problems on here, but I will do what it takes to be able to help me and my two children to start fresh and have the life we deserve.

I was in the abusive relationship for 5 years on and off. He controlled my every move and then once leaving him, I was still submissive to him. It got that bad that my son started to wee the bed again and I couldn’t sleep as he would stalk me every night.

We had to leave my home for safety more than 3 times and right now I am trying to find a new home which no one seems to want a single mother to live in their home.

Ive never had problems with struggling with bills and food, but since the domestics, I have been and I am ashamed I let them all rack up the way they have. I cry nearly everyday because I just want my babies to have the best life possible and doing it on my own with no help can be hard, but I would t change it for anything in the whole world.

I love my children so so much. I would just like to be able to live a little more stress free and be able to focus on their happiness and my own 100% instead of worrying about money for just one day!

I promise I am trying my hardest and most days I see the positives, I know money is a big issue with a lot of people. I know if I won millions I would share it around to those in need.

I still give money to the homeless if I have a spare dollar, knowing I probably need that for bread the next day. But too make others smile, is a blessing too.

Thank you in advance to anyone who helps me and my babies, even $5 will add up somewhere.

I appreciate every beautiful thing in life.

 

Shahan.

paypal.me/shahanjh

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I need help to go to university

I am 18 years old, and it has always been my dream to become a vet. I am currently living in Newcastle, Australia with my parents and 2 siblings.

The Veterinary Science course is not offered at my local university, so I would also have to travel to another city and find accommodation there so I can study. I have been saving up since I was 15, and currently work 2 jobs but I do not make enough to pay for even one year of tuition, let alone the cost of food/shelter, and my parents cannot help because we need money to send my little brother and sister to school. I used to have 3 jobs, however a business I was working for went bankrupt and I was simply let go without any warning.

A lot of people ridicule my goals (“If she can’t pay to go to university then she should just give up” or ” Poor people don’t go to university because they’re dumb”) and I am under a lot of pressure to give up on my dream and start working a trade, but I know that I would absolutely hate living like that. My major passion has always been animal welfare and conservation, and my marks are more than good enough to be accepted in to the course, the only thing holding me back is my financial situation.

I know I am driven enough to achieve my goals, and I am capable of studying hard to become a vet. Any sort of donations or prayers would mean the absolute world to me. I need your help, please donate and share with your friends.

Many thanks,

A. Gracie

paypal.me/agracehar

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Need urgent financial assistance for grandmother’s accident

I should first introduce myself. My English name is Darren. I am from Australia and I am currently in a very tight spot right now. I will explain the current situation of my grandmother and what my current intended plan is.

 

My grandmother slipped and fell last week, which resulted in her spraining and damaging both of her legs. As she is 86 years old, this is very dangerous and, if anything, almost fatal. Me and family rushed to the hospital and found out that she has to undergo an operation to fix the broken ligaments that she incurred during her fall. The operation cost $55,000 AUD equivalent. Me and my parents and some siblings have gathered and only have $36,000 AUD, leaving a $19,000 AUD remaining. My parents are not close to my uncle’s and aunts and as such, they are not willing to help. We have a very fragmented family but to me, as long as I have my brother, sister and my parents, I couldn’t have ask for more.

 

I have tried asking for loans however due to the fact that I am still a student, I cannot get that much money out as I do not have a job yet. My brother and sister are still studying and they too have no jobs. My parents are trying their best to earn and find help but it has taken a toll on both their mental and physical strength. Personally, it is hard for me to see them like this.

 

The doctors advised us that the faster the operation take place, the better the results as with each day passes, her legs becomes more swollen. I have no choice but to turn to the internet for assistance. If there is a good person somewhere, then I hope my issue can be helped.

 

I need $19,000 AUD remaining so I can treat my grandmother and get her to the operation procedure as quick as possible. Thank you for taking your time in reading and I hope I can receive assistance as soon as possible. Oh and once my grandmother have successfully completed her operation, I will also send a picture of her to the people that helped me as a thanks.

 

Here is my PayPal address: https://paypal.me/liphyeo

 

Thank you once again, and I hope a kind soul can help me in my tough times.

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I need to get to my partner

Hello, my names Frannie, I’ve been dating my partner online for four and a half years this june and we are desperate to meet in person, I myself am not working due to my anxiety and depression and am becoming swamped by debts, whilst trying to save to be with him. He has been trying to save up too but as he has full time care of his son, it has been hard with school fees and insurance. I am beginning to question the sanity of our relationship, and if there is any hope, the job I used to have was earning about $12NZD after tax and my rent alone is $250, a one way trip to his state is at the cheapest I’ve found $978, which isn’t including my passport as I don’t have one yet. Paying my rent is all I can do currently and I’m struggling with that, I have called my old boss about trying to get some shifts back, and I’m happy to look for another job if they won’t take me. I just need to get to him, since my father passed I’ve felt so alone and Caleb has always been there for me, even in hospital, and through losing my job. I would like to be there for him, he recently hurt his knee and with working and raising his son I’m worried about him, I want to take care of him. If anyone could find it in their hearts to help me, help us, I would be forever grateful, even just to get something paid so I could start saving would mean the world. One day we hope to have kids of our own, give his son a brother. Thank you all so much for reading and considering this, I hope you all have a great day.

Frannie, http://PayPal.me/Frankiixx

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My Mum has melanoma & needs $17000 per infusion to save her life

Cheryl has been denied life saving melanoma treatment. She has me and my younger brother Ben (9) who needs her. She is a single parent family. Cheryl was on the melanoma drug but a doctor took her off it, saying it wasn’t working. But an MRI later showed it had been working. Now Pharmac won’t fund the drug for her as she had previously been on it. She was supposed to have a year’s treatment!! She only had a few. This is stupid!!! Wrong!! Not fair!! So now Cheryl has to find $17,000 per infusion to save her life. This page has been setup for awhile now. We haven’t raised anywhere near enough. Please this Christmas find it in your hearts to give a little.

Cheryl is one of the strongest people I know, she loves her family and friends and has always been a giving, loving person. She’s also had a major fight on her hands. Almost ten years ago while pregnant with her youngest son she found out she had melanoma. She fought it and won against all the odds and Ben was her wee miracle. Not long after Cheryl celebrated five years in remission she found out that the cancer had returned. She has been battling doctors to get the treatment she needs. But Cheryl has too much to live for and refuses to stop fighting. Now that her treatment options have all been exhausted she needs the expensive Keytruda which blocks a protective mechanism on cancer cells, and allows the immune system to destroy those cancer cells. It targets the programmed cell death 1 (PD-1) receptor. It’s not funded for Cheryl. She’s always been a hard worker, devoting her life to caring for others, having cancer hasn’t held her back, she kept on working throughout all of her treatment, but now she is in too much pain, the melanoma bleeds everyday and is making it difficult for her to walk.

So we her friends and family want to help her and we need to raise as much money as we can in a very, very short space of time. Time is very precious to Cheryl.

Cheryl is a single Mum to me and my younger brother Ben. Ben is only nine years old and he really needs his Mum in his life. There is no other option for Cheryl, this is why she has been winning the fight for so long. She is a battler and refuses to give up. We refuse to let her down. So everyone please give a little to Cheryl.

Use of Funds:
Funds will be used for Cheryl’s very expensive melanoma treatment and for her to use as she needs, with her associated costs and living expenses. She may also want to use the funds to create some memories with her family.

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Hello friends, any help appreciated

Hello!

My name is Anastasia Bushby, I’m from Melbourne, Victoria, Australia and I’m 18.

I lived with my Dad, Mum, 4-year-old sister and my dog Orlando. But recently, I have been kicked out. you see, my parents are the smartest or nicest people in the world, they are what most people would call “Junkies”.

They kicked me out about a week ago for “not paying rent” because my parents are the only god damn parents in the world who makes their child pay rent…

I haven’t been able to work for a bit over 9 months due to a work-related injury where I broke my knee in half, it was broken in 4 different places and I still can’t walk properly and the idiots i was working for ((McDonald’s)) denied the whole thing, meaning I don’t even get covered for my injury. when I’m 21, I’m going to need a knee reconstruction but they can’t do it at the moment due to me still growing which is a massive pain because i would like to get back to work.

for the past week, I’ve been living with my best friends, but her mum is saying I can’t stay much longer. I’ve gone into Centrelink ((A government-funded organisation who basically gives out money like disability payments)) and they have said they can organise something

the catch is, it will be over 2 months before I can get anywhere, so here I am now, begging random strangers on the internet for money. I feel dodgy doing it but it’s the only thing that I can currently think of.

There are so many things that I need, such as a house, food, furniture, money for medication, and a new phone, and that’s only the icing on the cake, I need

so yeah, that’s me, if you could donate to a good cause that would be nice, but I also do realise how dodgy it looks for me to be asking for money on the internet but you gotta do what you gotta do

if you want to contact me you can on my socials below
Instagram @anabushby
Snapchat @annnieanss
kik @anabushby

anything, literally anything; I am extremely grateful for, and feel more then welcome to message or add me on anything above ^^ I’m more then happy to answer any questions you may have or if you just want to chat.

Paypal – www.paypal.me/anabushby

Thank you and kind regards
Anastasia

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Drowning In Debt – No Way Out. Please Help!

Honestly, I just need help.

As a 22 year old this is very overwhelming and I cannot see a way out for me.

2018 was an extremely rough year.

To start the year off my parents (after 30 years of marriage) divorced. It was very hard to see our once happy family unit all separated and hostile but it was even more hard to be heavily involved in their fights and divorce. My father ended up drinking far too much alcohol and then abusing my brother and I for things that my mother had done because she wasn’t around to tell off. It all became to much and my brother ended up moving away and ceasing contact with us. I ended up attending counselling as the abuse and the change became to much to handle on my own.

The fear of my parents hurting one another and the stress and sadness of the whole situation caused sleep deprivation which made me constantly anxious and sick. I ended up having a lot of time off of work as well as mental breakdowns at work due to this until I ended up losing my job.

Both the stress of my family drama and the fact that I had lost my job due to my inability to deal with the situation caused a lot of strain on my relationship. I would referee my parents fights, argue with them and then go home in a terrible mood and fight with my fiance of 8 years. In the end this became to much on him that he ended up leaving. I then had no source of income to pay my bills, rent or University fees. I went over the limit on all of my credit cards in the hopes that I could continue my education and keep my home but I have now reached the end of the road.

I have now lost my car, ceased my education and am facing losing my home if I can’t catch up on my overdue rent.

My goals are to pay up the debt that I owe, re-commence my education, find employment to support myself and create a life for myself free of negativity. I hope that one day soon I will be in a position to help others in my situation. I look forward to the day that I can pay it forward.

I would like to thank you in advance for the kind donations. There are no words to describe my appreciation. Thank you!

paypal.me/emilvrose

 

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New Baby – Lost Job

At the end of October 2018 we got some really exciting news – we are having a baby. This is our miracle baby, what most people call the rainbow baby after many miscarriages and reproductive trouble.

Fast forward to yesterday 31/1/2019 – everything had been going so well, we were saving and buying things for the new baby and basically managing our money pretty well. Then a blow to the employment side of everything, this company who has decided without evidence to reduce hours from 80+ per fortnight to under 16 hours due to circumstances undisclosed by the employer. there is no unfair dismissal case due to the fact they have been smart enough not to fully dismiss.

We now face the prospects of not being able to pay rent and bills next week, not to mention the upcoming specialist appointments for our 10 year old son who is facing liver failure. Add to this the ongoing costs of preparing for a new baby and providing basic necessities for a family we are struggling.

When I say we, I mean myself and my partner (boyfriend) we don’t currently live together due to financial burdens, we were saving and planning on becoming a family closer to the birth of the baby, However now it looks like we are not going to be able to be together financially or physically. My baby will come home to a fatherless house, and my boyfriend will have to leave his baby because we simply can not afford to be together unless one of us is working. I am trying to obtain employment but who wants to employ a pregnant lady, and after the baby is born it is not humane or practical for me to return to work within days of birth.

 

We don’t need much, just enough to get through the next few months so we can stay on our feet and not fall into a financial cesspool. We are not lazy bludgers, every day we apply for every job we can find that suits our skills and qualifications. So far our efforts have resulted in 1 interview and many many rejections.

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Years of abuse had enough

im 55 years old , I have 1 son at home about to go to University in sept.

i have lived  with my husband for 10 years married for 6 , of course like any relationship it started wonderful , then as time went on , trying to work hard look after my son and husband I realised nothing was good enough for him constant criticism the look the anger when dinner wasn’t ready the silent treatment for sometimes weeks at a time acting like I don’t even exist, the abuse calling me names when I try to get him to talk telling me to f….. off no one wants you . The trapped feeling taking and hiding the car keys when he’s in one of his moods the vile gestures . Always being aware that he could go off in one of his moods . Anxiety stress nerves.

not knowing if I’ll be able to get to work living in a rural environment, no public transport the humility I feel when I have to say to my employer I’m sick because I can’t get to work . Only having enough money for food control is what he’s about ,struggling whether I can buy this or that or put fuel in the car hoping the tank will get me to work and manage till pay day . The control over the car the money never being able to save .

he has three houses rented out I clean them at end of tenancy and contact repair people when and if they are needed . Painted cleaned up the gardens  checked the properties every 6 months .

Then when I want to leave he won’t let me live in one of the properties, won’t let me give notice won’t let me have car keys won’t let me have any money  I desperate need to get out yet I have no money to pay for a deposit or rent to get into a place to escape him and then divorce him and get the share I deserve my son deserves we are unhappy tense and the atmosphere in the house is instantly turned cold when he walks in the door , no happiness laughter joy . Just criticism, and disappointed looks yet he says he loves me . No he needs me as a cook cleaner and everything else . I’m sad lonely and want to feel free and sing and leave stuff about invite friends over jump about dance oh how wonderful that would feel . Help me escape and get s place of my own to start over with my son and me living not existing .

Thank you

I hope to one day start a charity myself for women like me who just need that little financial help to escape .

 

Thank you you for your time  xxxxxx

 

 

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4, almost 5 months since redundancy and still unable to find any kind of work!

Hello everyone, thanks so much for taking the time to hear my case.

I’m 24 and live around 15 minutes from the Brisbane CBD. I’ve been working full time for the past 4 years and I’ve been in the job market for 8 years. However, in my last role I was employed full time for just over 6 months before being made redundant.

In the past I had not had any issues finding employment, but now I am really struggling. I’ve had my resume looked over and I customise my cover letter for just about every role I apply for.

When I realised after a month of not getting any interviews I started branching out to jobs that were further away, casual, full time, part time, contract, whatever I could find. I’m sending out upwards of 150 job applications out every week. Nearly all of these jobs I am strongly qualified for.

Since my redundancy, I have had two interviews – TWO!

I had to extend my financial hardship on my car loan for another 3 months which lets up in May and they will not extend again. I have $4 to my name and roughly $200 of bills every month (not including rent) that need to be paid – mostly pet, car and family insurances.

I owe my partner about $2000 in rent. Centrelink won’t give me a dime, and that’s fine. I tried asking for a healthcare card so I could at least continue to study and afford my medication and they laughed me out the door.

I have never felt more desperate in my entire life, and I feel dirty even putting myself out on the internet to others to ask for help, but even a little goes a long way.

I have constant mental breakdowns and cry over the fact that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to dig myself out of this financial hole :(

 

My paypal is PayPal.Me/olithela

Please don’t be offput by me not including my real name in my paypal link, it is my online alias. You can find me on twitch and youtube (which I’ve been doing to make myself feel at least a bit productive) if you would like to confirm I am a real person, but I am not here to plug that. I need legitimate help and I appreciate any and all support I may be able to get more than you may ever know or understand.

 

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Lost and depressed

Hello everyone, my name is Melanie. I’m 34 and have a 12 year old son and 2 dogs and a cat. I’m in a real tough time right now and I need some help to get back on my feet. Last October I lost my job. I was replaced by the owners daughter. 3 weeks after losing my job my partner walked out on me and I was 1 week into my work placement for my course. So in 3 weeks I lost my job and income and the relationship and his income. My son was also being bullied at school and having school refusal. I was so stressed out I had a nervous breakdown. I had to put my practical placement on hold for a month to get to a point of not having panic attacks. In November I returned to my placement and managed to get through it however I really struggled. I now have assessments due to finish the course but I’m suffering major depression and anxiety still as I feel so lost and afraid because I don’t have enough money to pay all my bills and debts. I’m trying to pay for all the bills, food, fuel, animals and my sons needs on welfare. My car needs fixing. I have no money to do anything. I can’t even put fuel in my car. I am trying to find a job but I also need to finish this course and I’m at the tail end of it however I’m just so depressed and anxious about bills. Sometimes it gets so much I just cry and want to not be alive anymore. If anyone can please help me so I can pay my bills for the next month so I can get my final assignments completed so then I can use this new qualification to find a better job. I have no energy due to my major depression and I’m losing weight. I just need a little help to help push me over the finish line. I am extremely grateful for anything that anyone can provide. I feel such shame right now even writing this. I can’t believe I even am doing this right now but it’s my last resort and I have nowhere to turn. From the bottom of my heart and soul, please help me and thank you for taking the time for reading my post. Thank you from the bottom of my heart if you donate to me.

My link is: PayPal.me/hopeforafuture

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Trying to sort my life out…

Hello to anyone reading this.

Im sure it had been said many times over but writing this is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do and I truely feel like I have hit rock bottom.

I recently went through a long term relationship melt down and was left high and dry with debts I wasn’t financially able to deal with solo. I have spent the past few months slowly making things work and getting myself into a Better position and for the most part this has worked until recently.

I have pushed and stretched all of my bills and rent to a point in which they refuse to give me any more time to get things in order and unfortunately due to this I am unable to get a loan to consolidate it all. In all honesty i have worked it all out to be in roughly two months time I would be up to date and back on my feet. But sadly they do not want to give me that two months. My reality is threatening to evict me and my phone will be shut off which I need for my job. If this happens I do not know when or how I would be able to get back on my feet.

I do not expect anything for nothing and would be more than happy to pay anyone’s kindness back. But please if you can assist in any way I would greatly appreciate it.

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/my/profile

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Lack of income.

My name is Thomas Knight-Wagener, I live with my grandparents, I am 27 years of age and am a qualified fitter/machinist (dead trade). Trained in Australia in mechanical engineering, I excelled and completed extra study to ensure my employment once I had completed my apprenticeship, I have a “Cert. IV mechanical engineering tradesperson” one level above the Cert. III, I am regarded as a “technician” not a tradesperson… Having trained in computer aided design, pneumatic, hydraulic and all other basic fundamentals of the fitting and machining job aspects; such as manual lathe work, gear cutting, grinding, machining and even have training in fabrication and can execute on my designs. None of it helped me secure employment, coming from a broken home in the ghetto of Western Australia, Kwinana. Not even when I came back to my home country of New Zealand and completed extra education in the field of engineering. Although a booming industrial district, the entire region was and probably still is riddled with crime and not so appealing members of society. My mother was one such being, she still is now, I live next door to her on her parent’s property in a little place (hardly a home at 23m squared floor area)  I designed myself. She had 2 houses and rented out 1 to a meth junky, the other one she destroyed by herself with her boyfriend, an ex-bikie from the “Coffin Cheaters”, all the while I am looking after my younger brother and even younger half-brother. Putting up with her abuse and being around junkies constantly, I got to smoking pot and still smoke, if I can; as it helps. Luckily I had tried some white powder one day after finding it underneath the clothesline by making a little brass pipe out of fittings… however, upon inhalation and the resulting effects I was put off by it, never tried anything like that again, except acid 3 times now. During these dark days I grew into the watcher and carer, it has left me in a state where I am still looked at as the “Father” and find myself, even to this day, 12 years later, doing things for my Brothers and Mother because I am the only one who is left who has the time and energy to help them as both Fathers are useless in this regard, my one on meth and the other working abroad driving in the Australian mines on a fly in fly out roster, to which he comes home and drinks most of the time in his nice place, not knowing whether he should build another place at his family beach or build another house out the back of his place. I don’t even own one house.

I have $5 per week income due to debt I got one time when I actually had a job and required a car to do said work. I get by doing favors around the property such as maintaining the lawns and gardens on the 3 acre property and various other peasant duties, plus my girlfriend is always accepting donations from the towns-people from their various shops as I am not in the higher echelon of society and cannot complete such tasks without police intervention.

My girlfriend and I are the ones caught in between; we seem to have almost everything we need: a car, a place to stay, something to cook with, food on our table.. oh wait we don’t have a table, and our kitchen consists of a second-hand electric fry pan, a toaster, a jug, a rice cooker, a microwave and a $35 mini-oven. Total kitchen cost of around $100. My car is little and so is my life when I can’t do anything beyond playing computer games. I have plans to build a place on land my girlfriend is to inherit one day, coz as you know: I sure as hell ain’t gonna inherit anything, that’s for sure! Work is scarce these days and my training and education has led me into employment which no longer exists. Wondering how on earth I am going to complete University study in the future baffles me, I can’t even rack up the funds to pay for the course! I am very passionate about Mechatronic Engineering and robotics and hope to pursue the career, one day… Just not gonna get there the way things are going. (Being real)

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. If you choose to donate to my cause I want you to know where it is going: my university education, materials for my new place and a little tiny bit of it I would like to dedicate to the well-being of all of us here on the hill in Far North, New Zealand, my grandparents, my girlfriend and even my Mother… the low down, drug addled victim of the world… All I can do is love her as she has tried so hard in her life. No… I am not a starving, homeless wretch on my last legs, with only one shot left, but I am still someone who feels cheated in life and can’t stand to see everyone around me move forward and up while my girlfriend and I stagnate, leech off and bleed-out, in no particular order, forever more.

I am in no way ungrateful for what I receive, but I am so cut; for what I deserve has been occult. I live in a half house, with a half life, half the time I care for others and feel like I don’t dedicate enough time to myself, but I play computer games hard out when the missus doesn’t wanna watch a movie and get whinged at by my girlfriend as if she wants me to simply sit and wait… I just wanna have a bit of extra money to put away for the future and have $30 a week to splash… splash the cash :/ quite hopeful, but that is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth… actually I left the juicy details out, you don’t wanna know.

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Afghan war veteran, trying to deal with the aftermath of my ex-wife taking everything from me.

To anyone out there that has taken the time to read this and is in a position to help. I don’t really have much hope that this this actually works but I am tired of suffering due to my own pride, its time i asked someone, anyone, for some help.

I am a former Australian Soldier who served for 7 years and competed 2 tours of Afghanistan. After I got out I met a girl, she was cool, I was pretty fucked up from my last tour and i needed someone so maybe thats why i decided to marry her.

It started not long after, we starting arguing. Before she was so open to my opinion and having a discussion about whatever it was we were talking about.

Suddenly no matter what it was, no matter how small, it had to be her way. Now i am not some weak willed man that can be trodden over. I wasn’t prepared to get walked on so we would have these massive arguments. some lasting for days. she would just get more and more extreme and yell louder and louder, ignoring and not acknowledging my points or logic of my side.

I was tired, I only got out of the army a year or so before. I started to agree with her just because why fight about it its only something small, maybe the insurance or colour of the new couch, because i knew what would happen 3 days of fighting stress unhappiness. once you start agreeing i had less and less willpower, i know it was weak but unless you have been through this emotional abuse you wont know what i mean. its domestic violence but to us. no one takes it seriously because we dont have any bruises or broken bones. eventually she convinced me to make her a partner in my small business i had set up with the money i saved from Afghanistan.

To cut an even longer story shorter, you can guess what happened. ran up debt on the business transferred  all the money to international accounts and left the country.i need to pay off some of the most outstanding bill pay bond and the first months rent for a place. anyway any little bit would help. i am mid 30’s and have to start again from less then zero.

I hope I will be able to pay it forward at some point in the future.

thank you,

Rob.

https://www.paypal.me/tofster

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Help me to find a meaning to my life

Hi everyone

first of all, I would like to thank all you kind people for taking time out and reading this. To be honest, I feel very ashamed as I type this but now i don’t have any other way and i feel very hopeless. I am an international student here in Australia and as we all know, it is so hard to survive here being an international student. I had to pay my own bills and then had to collect for my tuition fee as well which is so expensive. I know I signed up for this but life became so much harder than I thought. As I couldn’t fully fund my fee, I asked the help of my parents as well asked loans to some of the people I knew here. They offered me help.Now I have completed my degree but the problem is i still have heaps of money to pay back to people around $8000. I have job which does not pay me enough and i tried looking for jobs but i did not had any luck.  Because of the money issue and no social and emotional support I was nearly depressed to the point I thought of killing myself. But I couldn’t do it because of the thought of my parents. I cant even go back with the huge loans that I have nor can I survive. Therefore, i just wanted to know if there are kind people who will help me in this situation with whatever amount they can donate me ( trust me, even if its just a $, that would be so much helpful). I am not expecting that I will be getting donations to pay all my loan but even if its just 20% of my loan, that would be so much helpful. I don’t wanna give up and I want to be normal like before and no more depressed. I want to stand up again and be free with the loans and then start a new life. I have always been giving and kind and I plan to help people in any way I can. I am sorry as I cant explain everything so clearly but all I can say is, your help would mean so much to me.You would save my life. I feel so hopeless and feel like a failure and this isnt me :( please help

PayPal.Me/hope550

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Soon to be homeless

I am soon to be homeless as I have recently lost my job and my daughter had moved out to be with her partner. I have had no income for over a month with countless efforts to gain employment again. I am 3 weeks behind in my rent which is $535 a week. I have advertised for a housemate to help with the rent and will hopefully have someone move in within the next few weeks. I have rarely been able to eat as I have no food. I have asked family and friends for help just to be told they are financially unable to help me. I have never struggled so much, felt so Depressed and hopeless.  My bills are growing each day putting me further into debt. I have been considering doing things that I could have never imagined just to survive.  I don’t know what I will do once I am evicted,  my land agent has said I will be evicted if I do not pay my rent arrears and I will still be responsible and required to pay rent even after being evicted until someone else has taken over my lease.  I am struggling more than imaginable.  Please help me to get my life back on track so I can live my life again. I have not stopped applying for employment and will not stop until I am working again. I have never asked for help before,  so please know this is one of the hardest things I have had to do. Please if yo can help me in any way,  I would be forever grateful.  I need $5000 to pay my rent arrears, the next fortnights rent, my utilities bills and some food.

Any donation will be a help.

paypal.me/meli1981

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Save My Livelihood and My Family

Hi Everyone, My name is Jon and i don’t know where else to turn. Ill start from the beginning. I own a small fencing business and have done for about 4 years and i was making a steady living to support my family until i picked up some big jobs from a builder. After i completed the jobs the builder went bankrupt  and left me out of pocket for $17 000 that has sent me to the wall. Because of this i can not pay my material supplier and can not afford to pay for materials to do any other jobs. Thanks to this builder it is a daily struggle just to put food on the table and care for my family and they are the most important thing in my life. I cant understand how someone can do this and leave a person destitute.

I know this person is sitting back laughing in his nice home with his family with not a care in the world about what he has done and the peoples lives he has destroyed.I hate having to ask for help but i don’t know what else to do as i have been turned away from other avenues of finance and help .

I just need enough money to buy materials and complete a few jobs to get back on my feet,look after my family and start to rebuild my business and my life.If you could find it in your heart to help me out i would be eternally great full.Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Kind Regards

Jon

https://paypal.me/jonopl

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Save my boy from child abuse

Ok, this is really complex situation to explain in an essay type format, so I’ll try to keep it as simple as possible.

However if you’re genuinely interested, i am OK with answering questions and going into more detail. But for now i’ll just keep it as plain and simple as i can.

I grew up an only child to a single parent, who sexually, emotionally and physically abused me from the age of 3.

I left home at 17 I’ve spent the last 15 years soul searching, going to therapy, watching healthy family’s and taking note of what a healthy family looks like and learning how to take responsibility for my own emotions, and of course researching about trauma and abuse, learning how it screws with a person and what they have to do to be healthy, loving, caring influences on the lives of those i chose to have around me. And of course, learning how to put up boundaries with my abusive mother, who has never ceased trying to ruin my life no matter how far away from her i move.

I am proud to say i established a life that was free/safe from her, and built healthy relationships with people.

I now have a 2 year old son, whom i share custody of with his mother. My absolute number one goal in life has always been to be a good father, as I grew up without a one.

This boy has changed my life for the better and in return i will rearrange my life to work around the best outcome for him, because he not only needs it, he deserves it.

I’ve recently been made aware that my mother has formed a relationship with my sons mother and is now planning on moving across the country to the town i reside, purely for the purpose of “caring” for my son.

She’s written an affidavit against me, and convinced my sons mother to live with her, as she has lots of money.

The bottom line here is, i know for absolute certain, that if she is allowed to be alone with my beautiful boy, she will not only hold him responsible for her emotions, she will also punish him for thing he didn’t do and doesn’t understand, she will humiliate him, sexually abuse him, and break his beautiful strong spirit over and over again.

Now i have made reports to child protection, and the police. But I don’t have the money to compete with this monster in court and she knows it.

I don’t know what to do, how to do it, who to turn to,, i would do anything to protect my boy from harm, but in this circumstance the only way to do that is with money that i don’t have.

Please, this money isn’t for me, it’s for my boy, he needs his dad to protect him now, and i need help doing that.

 

I’d just like to also say that for safety reasons i haven’t entered a photo of myself or my son publicly because of safety reasons,, however if you show an interest in helping me, i’m happy to arrange something, and also happy to answer any questions and give any other details you might be curious about, this includes details of the abuse i suffered as a child. I’m not embarrassed to share my story for the sake of my sons safety.

I’ve never asked anyone for money and I doubt that i ever will again,  so I’m asking for $50,000. This is to not only pay for legal costs, which will roughly cost around $35,000, I’ve added the extra 15k to protect myself from what ever else that abusive woman is going to through at me, because i know she continue to try to find ways to get to him and hurt me, if i don’t do this properly and cover all angles, which includes getting professional help for my sons mother, who has rather severe mental health issues, then she will just find another way to get wriggle in a ruin the lives of me, by son, and his mother.

Please, help me protect my beautiful boy.

PayPal.Me/jem02372

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Desperately need funds to help pay for our Visa!

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So you are probably wondering “what on earth do two girls in Oz need a crowd funding page for?” so here’s a bit of back story. My name is Becca, I am originally from England, but after going travelling I settled in Australia with my girlfriend, Belle. We live in Melbourne.

It’s been a big year for both of us. We met on a trip in New Zealand, miles away from my home in Luton. The trip latest three weeks, and in those three weeks, we fell for one another. After a while, we took the huge decision to come out to both of our families. We are each other’s first girlfriends so to speak, and now we have finally settled and are able to be ourselves for the first time in our lives.

We have been here a while and I have had a working visa, however our plan is to return back to the UK for 3 months to see my family and friends. But to be able to safely return back to Australia without any refusal, we need to apply for the partner visa at the  beginning of February which is a fair few months earlier than we thought, so our savings will be cut short…

The best way to guarantee to get this visa approved is to go via a lawyer. Lawyer = money. Money unfortunately that we just don’t have. For everything, the cost is around $13,000 AUD give or take a few dollars. However, to be able to kickstart this process and start the application we need money to be able to pay the Lawyer (80% of their fees) and when the application is ready and raring to be sent off on the 1st February, we need the pay the rest of the Legal fees and the visa in full – which is why we have resorted to crowdfunding.

We aren’t expecting to get the whole total by any stretch, but every little helps. We don’t have a lot of savings, due to travelling, and our families are unable to help us with the full amount. Even if you donated just £5/$10, it would help us immensely. If you would like to know more, please feel free to contact one of us. Thanks!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hope

I am a 51 year old father with 3 children I have worked for the last 35 years I was injured in a work place accident 3/3/2018 then was sacked.  I am recovering still 10 years before the injury my wife started having delusions I took her to her father because we went through the same thing with her sister. They refused to help and only made her believe that her delusions were real. She had a dream that something bad happened when I took her to the dentist to repair her teeth she asked my not to leave her but I had to because our three babies were in the waiting room our 6 year old daughter and our 4 year old twin boys. That’s when she said the bug was implanted in her gum which she blamed me for and ever since then the delusions have gotten worse. We had a $860,000 dollar mortgage at the time consisting of 4 properties. I was made redundant after 17 years of working. I tried to sell the investment properties but she was paranoid and refused I was unemployed for 18 months and the redundancy was used. I finally got her to sell 1 of the properties which payed the loan down to $325,000 she agreed to sell one of the other properties and signed the contracts but then refused to complete the sale. Now the buyers are taking us to court. In the mean time the other property was being rented the tenants wrecked the places and left. The insurance company refused to pay because the real estate  agent did not change the tenant contract in to my name when I brought the property.

Now today I am $325,000 dollars in debt I am injured and cannot work the bank  refuses to help me the property is damaged I cant get people to rent it so its just sitting there and the buyers of the other property block of land are taking me to court. My wife has not left the house in 5 years her parents will not talk to her  she refuses to see a doctor or a pastor. We are slowly sinking. Can anybody help. I am putting a call out in the mighty name of the Holy Son of God Jesus paypal.me/HopeinJesusChrist

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$500 for a new computer?

i know that i literally just posted about me being homeless and having no job, but thing is im only ever using my laptop (that of which is slowly falling apart in my hands since this time last year) to talk to my fiance, my professionals and whatnot.

this money is just a kick start into what i need when i need to use it.
for a few years ive dreamed of having a real computer, not an overpriced, yoga laptop from lenovo that cant even run programs smoothly.
this is one payment out of 5 that ill need. but i set it to that fraction because i dont want to seem like im greedy or ungrateful or possibly even just being an asshole.

i assure you, i do use my money well. i only just got my bank card so i can quickly deposit or withdraw cash for whatever i need in my time of urgency.
my girlfriend, whom i don’t live with because of family feuds basically, is helping me get through this herself, and offered to let me stay at a motel for the night as ive been sleeping on a floor without much keeping me warm for the past few days.
so wish me luck with all that and i hope that at least a few bucks comes my way in some time. id love to beable to get food on my own without bothering my friends parents for any of it as i came abruptly at 10pm in the rain.

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No Home and No Job

hi, my names samuel and i was recently kicked out of home.
this occurred over a conversation about computers with my mother, asking her if i could talk to her about what i can do to get parts for a new one.
so what happened is she complained that i dont have a job/anything, but the reason why i never had a job is that my mother never registered me a birth certificate, and that obviously caused alot of walls to be erected before me.

i have no photo ID, nothing.
all i have is school and bank documents but they dont work for trying to apply even for a photo ID.
anyway, i have been away from home for 3 days now. im crashing with a friends family and again, because i have no ID, i cant really earn money. not centerlink or any allowances that are government or family funded.
the only money i have on me now is less than a few dollars, my mother is keeping me from selling what i own (im 17) even though under an law of property issue, she cannot claim or control anything of mine unless there was a condition for that.

so now im stuck here, on the other side of town that i had to walk to, in rain and fear.

even now im seeing professionals to help me get a job but even they cant do much unless i have proper ID and stuff.. so i was hoping someone here would be able to help in this desperate situation, as i dont have much guidance besides having to walk all the way back just to argue over it or risk my mother or stepfather breaking my stuff out of habit as they have done so before.

my name is Samuel Ford, and im a 17 year old, early school leaver, non-employed, desperate guy that needs help in getting what i need.

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Living with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Hi my name is Bec, I’m 36 and separated from my partner of 16 years just over a year ago. We have 3 children together and the separation has been extremely difficult on all three of them. It is a constant worry. My son, 14 and daughters, 12 and 8 all show signs of anxiety, depression and have become quite withdrawn and even getting my son to go to school has become a huge problem. My former partner does not believe I am entitled to anything. I chose to end the relationship so therefore i walked away, with constant guilt about breaking up our family. There’s so much to my story but where to begin especially when I struggle coming to terms with it all.

I met my ex when i was 18. My older brother had just became a soldier and my ex was his corporal at the time. My ex was 31 at the time.  16 years as a military wife certainly can take a toll. My brother was on the second rotation to Afghanistan , had his 21st birthday whilst deployed there, 4 years later he had taken his own life.

We had a pretty tough upbringing, my mum raised myself, brother and younger sister on her own, but nothing could have prepared me for losing my brother. It really destroyed our family. You can google Geff Gregg and see what hell it was.

I had seen numerous Psychiatrists, psychologists, counsellor, you name it, I was always treated for grief related symptoms. I put my family through absolute hell, could not control my mental state at all.

I was extremely close with my brother.

I have so much guilt. My ex partner was a good provider spent 25 years in special forces, so we had to move around a lot and lots of time apart when he was on deployment. He worked hard. But somehow it all fell apart. Now we both struggle physically n mentally. He is still fighting after 5 years for benefits from the Army. We can’t afford lawyers to sort out our separation and in all honesty I would never want to strip him of everything he worked so hard for. But I feel as though I left him in financial ruin with the mortgage and an unfinished house and lifestyle that we were both too broken to complete. There wasn’t just one suicide or tragedy that we dealt with. I needed to break away to save myself.

I am living at my mums but barely keeping on top of things. I desperately need my own house for me and the kids , so I can get them back some sense of normality and routine etc. I still have not been able to get any of our things from my old house so it just doesn’t feel like home. And when the kids are with their dad it must be hard for them because everything is still as I left it , so I hate to think what that must be like for them. Same house but no mum.

my mum and dad are not in a financial” situation to help much, and although i appreciate everything mum has not been able to afford to fix certain things in the house, no over, no heating or cooling and bathroom is out of limits. It’s hard and depressing. But I am really trying to be happy. And in control emotionally for the sake of my kids.

I’m unable to receive full benefits for the kids due to my percentage of the property yet, there’s nothing that can be done at this stage as I know my ex is in no position to buy me out etc and i would not want to cause any grief or get lawyers involved n cause more financial difficulty. But I’m at my wits end. I’m always out of money for food, petrol etc, always have to ask him for money even though i know he is in the same boat. I can’t afford for my kids to do swimming, or any after school activities or sports or instruments. I’ve had to use my sons savings. That hurts so much.

My dad just had surgery due to blocked arteries and my mum has chronic fatigue which devastates me. My parents divorced when i was 3 years old and got back together when i was a teenager. They had 2 more sons, my younger brothers now 19 and 21, Have been through a lot due to the tragic loss of Geff and the effects it had on us all as a whole. My brothers were 7 and 8 at the time. My first two children were very young, my daughter was 5 months old when my brother passed so knowing what I was like back then gives me so much guilt knowing I couldnt have been much of a mother.

I am desperate to give my kids a chance in life, I need to get us sorted, get our things, have our own place to start again. My ex partner and I have shared time with the kids but even still they seem to be with me more. I struggle so much when they go to their dads. I’ve been a mother since I was 21 and always been with them.

I have since been diagnosed with complex post traumatic stress disorder as well as borderline personality disorder. I’m very upset and angry with the system as these conditions should have been diagnosed in my early 20’s as I had all the symptoms. It is a very serious disability which explains a lot about my suicide attempts over the years, the anger, the depression, my emotional outbursts. All which if was picked up sooner could have been treated n maybe life would be different now. Who knows.

I just know it has taken a huge toll on my loved ones and myself and most of all my children having seen a lot of fighting etc as my ex also suffered with post traumatic stress disorder and was a soldier.

I’ve never asked for much. My ex and I were the ones that people could depend on for a place to stay, money, food anything. Now it’s us who need help.

I don’t know what to expect but I’m desperate. I’m not sure if this will even be heard

 

 

 

 

 

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Feeling lost

I have felt guilty for many years now.

Ever since I was little, I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety. I was bullied pretty badly in high school and dropped out because I just couldn’t cope anymore. I still feel damaged by those years even now, more than ten years later.

For a long time, I feel like I’ve just drifted. I’ve struggled to hold down ‘real’ jobs and done a lot of volunteering. I’ve been trying my hand at freelancing but have only been awarded a couple of jobs. There’s so many people out there doing the same thing, it’s hard to compete. Sometimes, when I don’t even get a response applying for some jobs.. it really hurts. It makes me wonder what I’m doing wrong.

I already feel inferior in a lot of ways. Struggling to find work just makes me feel a million times worse, and when I’m discouraged, I wonder what the point of even trying is. But considering I still live with my parents and am often unable to contribute much in the way of money (for food, bills and whatnot)… it makes me feel terrible. At best I feel useless, at worst I feel like a failure of a human being.

I know that right now, if I tried to get a more ‘normal’ job, I wouldn’t be able to deal with it because of my depression and anxiety. And that just makes me feel even more guilty and ashamed.

I have my own car but haven’t driven it in over a year now because I don’t have the money for any kind of upkeep with it anymore and it needs repairs. I live in a rural area and don’t really go anywhere now (the only friends I have moved away). I really feel like I’ve lost what little independence I had before since now if I wanted to go anywhere, I would need to have one of my parents drive me.

I have been deluding myself when it comes to my dental health. For years I’ve told myself “it’s not that bad” while it continues to get worse. It’s nothing that visible to anyone but a closer look and you’ll start to see several problems. You probably won’t seen the impacted wisdom teeth but you’ll notice I’ve ground my teeth down quite a bit (from my friend anxiety, of course), and my jaw has become malaligned. I have crowded mouth, with teeth pushing to the front, to the point where they’ve eaten through the gum. I also have what I’m pretty sure are a few cavities.

This all makes things pretty uncomfortable. Occasionally, I’ll look into how much these things will cost to repair and I just totally shut down because it’s so much, and some of it could even require surgery (like for my jaw). I wait for the day my teeth will just start falling out and want to cry thinking about it. But I just don’t know how to help myself. I’m scared to go to the dentist but mostly for the judgement. I just can’t believe I’ve let it get this bad. But I don’t have any money for it anyway. It seems like no matter how hard I try, trying to land jobs, it won’t work for me. And honestly, at this point, they would need to be high paying jobs to fix all the damage.

I was suicidal as a teenager. I no longer feel like I would actually go through with it but when I find myself overwhelmed by things, I sometimes think how much easier it would be just to leave it all behind. I think about my parents having to deal with me for any longer, of them finding out about how bad my dental problems are, of them never seeing me achieve anything.. Believe it or not I’m generally a positive person. But sometimes all of this gets to be a bit much and I just want to give up on myself.

I am in love with various art forms, like digital art, photography and video editing. I would love to make a living from one or all of them but it takes time to build up a portfolio and an audience. Any help you could give me while I work on this would be so gladly appreciated, you have no idea. Thank you so much for even considering it.

 

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