Thank you for taking the time for reading my message. Never would I have imagined myself writing a message like this. I simply do not want to wind around it, but I am currently at the brink of dispair due to my incredibly high student debt.
Having grown up with a single mother who did not only have to provide for both my older sister and I, but who also had to deal with all debt my father left her with, paying for the 5 university degrees my sister and I pursued in total obviously has not been easy. I recently graduated and received my MSc degree, and I immediately started working to relief her from some of the financial stress, but currently the financial burden has only moved from her to me, and I feel very much affected by it in my daily life.
In the country where I reside (in Europe), salaries are very low, and having to work my … off for about €8 an hour, simply will not change this situation. I tell myself to stay calm and give myself time, but I do feel my mental health is slowly but surely spiraling down, knowing I have a debt of over €50,000 that’s waiting to be paid off sooner or later. I am trying everything to live my life in the most humble way possible, from searching for the cheapest products at the supermarket to saying no to friends’ invitations, just because my debt is constantly at the back of my mind. “If I can save €0.50 by buying the cheaper toilet paper or bread, why not?” I often ask myself.
But I currently feel this situation is getting out of hand and I am starting to sacrifice my own health for it. I avoid certain products at the supermarket because I cannot justify myself buying a piece of fish or certain vegetables. I avoid some social situations in order to make sure I do not have to spend €4 on a drink. I completely understand these are problems many people are currently dealing with, and if you ask me what would distinguish me from them, I would honestly tell you that I don’t know. Probably it is a mental weakness that I inherited from the events that happened in my earlier life and a great fear of repeating some of the mistakes people close of me have made.
Even though I do feel ashamed to post this, every little amount would help. I promise I will not disappoint and keep working hard as I have done to give my part to society, whenever I will be in the position to do so.