Hello to whoever comes across this. I thank you for taking the time to read this, it really does mean a lot. I have never been in the position where I’ve had to ask for money like this before, but my financial situation amongst many other struggles in my life is causing me indescribable stress and anxiety.
Firstly, I am a student, about to go into my final year of study and I’m really starting to struggle with paying the rent for the house I’m having to live in. I’ve already lost out, as I was made to pay the rent throughout the months I wasn’t there in lockdown, despite not even using anything there due to not living there. If they’d have been more lenient, I may not be in this position now for when I actually do live there and have to pay. I am severely depressed and have been for over 18 months and have nearly ended my life on 3 occasions because things have got so difficult. The pandemic had a huge effect on this, as I was isolated and alone with my thoughts.
My rent has now gone up and my maintenance loan won’t cover the cost of it at all and I have no idea what to do. I’ve lot count of the amount of jobs I’ve applied to – I’ve been applying since I was 16 to jobs and never got anything and I really do worry about how I’ll ever get a job now because everyone wants people who have experience. I have worked so, so hard on my university course. I worked so hard the year just gone that I got incredibly burnout, which caused my depression and anxiety to worsen and lead to me nearly ending things the 2nd time in just one year. Luckily, I have managed to find a job within my university, however this won’t start until October which is when the term starts and I am in need of money to pay for my rent for September and the start of October, due to my loan not coming in until near the end of October. In order to pay for the 2 months, I’ll be needing at least £944 and I will not be able to afford this on my own.
My parents aren’t able to help out as much as they used to because my father is about to finish work and my mother no longer works due to ill health. I can’t bare to ask them – they don’t have this kind of money to keep paying for rent that keeps going up and have even told me this. I would have got a job last year and I was applying, but during that time and recently, the pandemic has made it incredibly difficult to get a job, especially as a young person with no experience, only my course and extra curricular activities I’ve done. I am incredibly hard working and will do whatever it takes in life to get somewhere, I have always fought. However, on this occasion I have to ask for help because my family and I cannot afford this and the stress is unbelievable. I feel like I can’t live anymore, and this financial stress has added to that.
I was fortunate enough to get free counselling with my university, but only for 6 sessions, where I then went on to get help from a charity for a free 12 sessions. However, I am now required to pay for therapy because the charity can’t keep allowing free ones like that, understandably. This has meant I’ve had to terminate therapy for the meantime, and wait until a time I can earn enough to be able to pay for this therapy which was really helping me and would even go as far as to say, keeping me alive. I genuinely believe if I were able to get through the next 2 months with some extra help, from then on when my job starts, I’ll be able to get back on my feet and be able to pay for the rent better and possibly even therapy again.
I really do thank anyone who has took the time to read this and to anyone who decides to donate. You have no idea how much this really means to me and how much pressure this will take off.
Thank you. My Paypal is: https://paypal.me/ARW368?locale.x=en_GB