I’m in the brink of depression and mental breakdown due to me having these study loan debts. This pandemic does not help either, since I’m having huge problems in trying to find a job and especially travelling to the city to find a job. I’m unemployed and suffering from trauma due to my previous experiences during my studies in my former university. I was a dropout for good due to people being prejudiced towards me and backstabbers taking sides against me. They had watched my downfall since being engineers and software engineers and all they were being arrogant and satisfied with their lives on what they have achieved and since that day I cannot move on from that past, ten years ago. I switched courses reluctantly and I took secondary English teaching with my mother as benefactor. Now, with the pandemic happened and my graduation was on December last year I’m still having problems in changing my life since the past still haunts me today. I still dreamt of wanting to become a good game developer and software engineer so that I could redeem myself better and solve this life struggle of mine.
I also find it hard to take teaching as a job as I still felt the trauma from my first university experience that affected my thinking performance. Not only I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, I also noticed that I suffered from OCD that significantly halted my progress and pace throughout every single day. I cannot think straight since all I do is remembering the episodes in my mind that until now I find it to be a nuisance to me and everyone around me. With the study loans from the English course that piled up, even my mother right now nagged me for not seeing me work and help her with the struggles that also comes during this tough times.
What I hope is that there is someone out there that could help me escape from this problem of mine, if not therapeutically, at least financially so that I could have a bright start and recovery to assist me in moving on to my next phase in life.
I hope someone could donate to me at most $60000, that would cover my study loan cost as well as some upstart so that I can hopefully return to studying computer science/IT courses so that I could become a good programmer. Also this also help me in advance to buy a decent motorcycle to go to work and travelling, if not some cost to buy study books/equipments such as a good PC for me to learn programming.
At least if not the full amount, I hope at least I could get in a short term some decent amount of $2000 to start learning programming right away and straight away help me to buy a motorcycle and get a licence to go to sweatwork outside. In the long run, I hope my dream will be fulfilled and redeem myself back in front of my family and friends as well as myself.
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