I’ve never been one to ask for help, but anyone will crack under the most desperate of times. Recently I’ve had a tough time dealing with things. Last year I took a gap year in between my sophomore and junior year in college to attempt to pay for a car so I could have reliable transportation when I transfer schools. By the time school starts I’ll have the car loan down to at least 40% of what it was. During that year I lost my mother unexpectedly. It was always a dream of hers that I go to college to get a good job, get married, and be happy.I think about her everyday and it only hurts more the more I write about it. This year as I’m closing up on my gap year, I enrolled in college. I already have 61 hours completed of my 124 hour B.A. Great, enrollment was easy. I’m excited for my classes and I’m excited for the new people i’m going to meet. On to filing my FAFSA. The first two years I filed, I was awarded the max Pell grant they could give me. During those two years I was living with my dad, because my parents had separated when I was five. I avoided the price of campus housing, because it was more than tuition and fees. This year I filed and will not receive any financial help other than a loan offer that may not even cover costs of school. Although loans can help me through school, I grew up watching my dad drown in his and my mothers financial aid that to this day is only gone because my mother died. I watched my parents struggle with money throughout my life. I am terrified of being in debt. I am terrified of having to settle or not continue because of a financial reason. Current estimates of my last two years will around $14,000. Which may not seem like a lot to some people, but that is far from small when it comes to my families financial situation. I’m not asking for much, but what I am asking for will go towards my tuition, fees, books, classes, and whatever else my college needs me to pay for.