A little bit about myself and my background story.
I’m an art student from Taiwan, gonna graduate next year soon, but I really have a very critical economical issues ever since I moved to Taiwan around 9 to 10 years ago. It was never any of my intentions or my will to move here, I was basically forced to move here because my dad were used to be a drug dealer who’s been wanted by the police back then at Indonesia, he was very abusive and problematic especially towards my mom, he often took my mom’s money without her permission,she worked 3 jobs and all of the money just like that GONE, because my dad always took them and from my judgement, he used the money to buy drugs, it was not a safe place for us back then, the last 2 weeks before we moved here, it was the last time when my mom finally decided she had enough of these abuse, after my dad left again at night right after the huge fight happened between them, my mom immediately took me to ran away from home and had to sleep over at different places of my mom’s few friend’s house because my dad literally tracked us down not wanting us to leave. It was a tough 2 weeks until finally my aunt from Taiwan sent us the plane ticket and we left first thing on the morning.
School Bullying and the Start of My Mental Health Problem.
I was raised not only with 1 languages but 3, Indonesian, English, and Chinese. When I first came to Taiwan, even though I can understand almost most of the conversation in Chinese, but I wasn’t as fluent as I am now back then, when I first came here, I was already two weeks late from the learning the basic Chinese, but luckily I was able keep up with the lessons and my speaking skill still decent, I struggle a lot because I had to adapt with new environment while facing bullying problem for about a year, I’m very introverted person, rarely ever talk, the only thing I had that time is my passion for drawing.
School fees were still affordable at that time because school gave us low income financial help, it wasn’t actually allowed because we don’t have Taiwan Residents ID. When you don’t have Taiwan Residents ID, you had to pay full for the school fees which is very expensive, me and my mom barely could pay for the fees, I was lucky I could even still studying at college right now.
Now back to when to the day I first studied at High school. I was finally able to study art here, at that time I didn’t even know mental health was a thing because my family strongly against people with mental health and they accused those people is just “crazy”. I knew I had problems but I never told anyone because I was too embarrassed about it, I’ve always been suicidal since I was 11, I thought it was normal to have that kind of thoughts until I was tired of it, my art teacher noticed it and told me to go to seek a professional help, I went to my first therapist session at 16, I didn’t tell anyone about it other than my teacher, apparently I suffer from MDD and needed to constantly seeing my therapist. I spent almost all of my savings to treat my mental health, when I graduated from high school, I barely had any money left but I still need to continue studying at college in order to stay at Taiwan.
Financial problem and Dark Times.
Since my drawing is decent, I started to open for commissions when I graduated from high school to get some money, It doesn’t worked out well since I’m small artist and I don’t have much followers, but I still do what I do, my mental health problem has gotten a lot better but not for long, I’m 22 now, still on med and often had to go back to my therapist, it’s getting more and more expensive and I could barely even pay for my treatment and my college tuition, my mom were still in huge debt because her work here right now is not enough to support all of our needs, we are in total debt of around 80.000 NTD (which is around 2700 USD), school tuition for the next semester is coming up soon which we had to pay around 50.000 NTD, we don’t have that kind of money to pay it all, I’m graduating next year but I’m afraid if we can’t pay it, I’m not being able to graduate next year or worst, huge possibility to be send back to Indonesia which isn’t very safe right now, and we don’t have place to live there. I’m in very much in need right now and I’m terrified to look on to the future, I had never enjoy my own life in peace, non-stop bills kept coming it and we worked almost all of our time out but never get to clear our debt and we almost ran out of money.
Asking for help.
Please, help us to pay for our debt or at least pay for my college tuition for next semester. Now I myself as an artist, I actually also offered you to visit my store website, I sell one of my newest art there that can be printed out as a shirt, hoodie, tapestry, etc, I don’t want to just asking for money, if I can somehow pay back for your support, buying my merch would probably be the best way to get something back from supporting me. But if you were also very genuinely wanted me to pay for my debt or my school tuition without wanting something back, it is very appreciated and I thank you from the deepest part of my heart.
Thank you for your time to read, I’ll leave my website store link below where you can buy my art design and support me there.