I’m not sure if this is still a thing, but I’m all out of options and I have really no where to turn. I am 23 years old and I’m raising my 6 year old daughter by myself. My dad passed away in 2016, and himself was born in 1946. My mother had issues after birthing four children in her 40s and is no longer stable enough to hardly maintain herself. I feel super lost and scared. I don’t have a safety net, I don’t have a family, And the world is as cruel as I have ever experienced it to be. I work in construction and have since I turned 18. I knew that I needed to do what I could to make the money needed to sustain life one way or another. I got my ged when I was pregnant and have wanted to go back to school, but super hard to do while raising a kid and trying to make it by without a village. I’m stuck, because I moved to a new state a while back and I’m culture shocked. My options and ability to solve issues greatly diminished. Though the cost of living was cheaper the availability of things disappeared. And it made it hard, everything from childcare to side jobs and additional hours changed. Montana is very different, and I had very little issue sorting things out, but I also knew the area and what it had to offer. I feel like all my options here have been dead ends. I work in HVAC currently. I’ve done roofing, excavation, small remodeling, all sorts of things. But here finding side work as such in addition to installs has been so difficult on top of securing child care. I’m trying to get out of a bad situation but I have no where to go, no way to go anywhere and the solution lies within what I can afford, which is next to nothing right now. I currently make 16$ an hour and with inflation through the roof, the low poverty cut off and inability to receive government help I’m stumped. I literally don’t know what to do because I have no where safe for my kid to be that I can leave her so I can provide more for her and I. I need my own place, and my own car so bad, and I have no idea how to make that happen. I fear that things will continue to escalate and my brain is fried. I need peace and so does she. I feel so bad because though I tried so hard to make the right moves given the circumstances I feel like I find major flaw with so many of them after it’s all said and done. Currently my credit is shot, and I can’t even get a loan right now as I still have 2000 of my preexisting loan left to pay off, which I pay 64$ every week. I get paid on fridays and it’s auto draws but it goes up so fast because of my interest rate and I don’t think I can make enough money fast enough to pay it off and qualify for another. I hope that maybe this can soften some of the blows I’ve been taking and help me to get closer to having my own place and my own car. I’m trying so hard, I’m just so alone and scared to hurt my daughter by failing her or not being able to provide the things I need to be able to. Any and all help would be so appreciated. I need some kindness right now. I need a hug more then anything.
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