Did I ever think that this is where I would end up writing a bunch of random strangers in hopes that one of them with a heart of gold will see this read this and actually help someone who’s never had the help before I’m sure every single sad story is like another I hate to be on this site beg people for money I’ve always been too prideful even when I was homeless at the age of 14 my mother didn’t want to be a mom anymore my father’s been dead since I was three now things have changed I can’t continue to do this out on the streets and live day to day the day I turned twelve Is The Day My Life ended a family member decides to something ungodly to me and my mother decided to blame me therefore if I lived in a world of Shame all because of abuse from my mother and other family members I picked up the pattern kept it going for a while in and out of abusive relationships shelters were my home no family to even think about acting for help probably won’t change anything in my life and it probably won’t gain me any type of financial help I’m probably just airing this all out for some strangers to read and then pass along to the next heartbreak story..

Honestly I’m not really sure what I’m doing being on this platform being vulnerable and open feeling more than a hundred percent pathetic but I have no other choice my daughter is 8 and these last couple of years with her I’ve done somewhat decent she’s never had to sleep outside like I have never had to go without anything but now I’m getting to a point where I don’t have any resources available anymore I messed up again trying to save the world and helping people especially when I’m in no Financial stable place to do so have lost a lot more than I should have and it is killing my soul what really pain my existence you know I kind of failed my daughter I refuse to let anything try and affect her I went through things I will never ever want her to go through or feel like I did I know kids do as they see not as they’re told I don’t want her to see me fail I don’t want her to fail she is our future with the rest of our kids I know I’m not the best person I know I’m not probably the best fit mother I give her all the love I have in the world I give to her everything my mother never gave me and I go to church I pray talk to God I was getting assistance from the government they only give you so much resources that you’re barely making it struggling still I just need a good amount of cash to get a car even my own house maybe get back on track and stay there tell my daughter that you can do it never let her know how I did it so she won’t think that I’m a failure either I have to maintain image that I did it and actually succeeded so she will see that and she’ll be more determined to succeed and be more proud of me anything will help please