If you’re reading this then Ive caught your attention and that my friend is no accident.
My only intention is to free myself from the consequences of neglect. The dilapidation of opportunity is far to great to remedy alone when the effects of mistreatment have their roots far back into childhood.
Every relationship with another becomes an exploitation when a young woman is left on her own and choice is removed from the equation. How does one lose their ability to chose you ask?
That happens when every new introduction immediately becomes an opportunity to free oneself from the abusive and unhealthy situation they presently find themselves in.
When the adults who bring you into this world fail you, the system fails you, and what you are left with is just plain neglect and mistreatment, then choice is gone you must try to get away and any seemingly decent person is a lead. This means going against beliefs, accepting otherwise unacceptable details, situations, characteristics if it means even a somewhat better life or opportunity to one better.
A system set up to fail. Everyone knows you can take advantage of the weak, the needy, those that are thirsty for generosity are easily fooled easily manipulated.
Life for me wasnt always this way. I had a fiance he loved me very much. An army ranger. Post traumatic stress disorder from iraq and military paracord. I found him memorial weekend. Engaged not married, military took responsibilty gave him a service related injury cause of suicide but despite that preventing an otherwise planned and certain marriage it means nothing our relationship our 1 year old daughter. The military says i deserve nothing we didnt have that legal certificate. We would have had he not killed himself or had the money when we went to the court house prior to his death but nope. I am denied given nothing. Want to see my picture? Ill tell you that you can find it in David finkel editor and chief of the washington posts book Thank you for your service. They made it into a movie that came out recently in the past few years i know. I haven’t seen it. Anyway in the book you’ll find my photograph. Ill tell you now that my fiances name was neil. Ill let you do some research if you wish to know more. So i cut down the one man i loved at the time i had a daughter she has just turned a year old the week prior to this tragedy. Great huh and i was told i couldn’t even get a death certificate because we had no legal relationship. To this day movies books whatever ive received no help. Up until 3 years ago i was homeless from that date. Almost ten years. My daughter was kidnapped and taken by his family for years into another state! Because my lack of support and nothing to get there to their jurisdiction i could do nothing! I was never served except in the newspaper in a state i never lived and was not ever notified of why mary wouldn’t return my calls and claimed to have a restraining order on me as i found out later this didn’t exist and she lied to the court said i abandoned couldn’t find me of course she could i was trying to contact her the whole time reason with her. I was mistreated and used young and had no support or money easy target and the iowa court oh boy they loved it cause a case with my daughter brought money to which they skimped for court fees and the prosecutor used to pay personal fees for representing my mother in law illegally. Money money money! I have my daughter back now!
Years and thousands of dollars later. Heres the thing i just want a fair chance at life right now i have found myself vulnerable to the wolves and living in a house thats unhealthy and abusive again. Ive got no way out i’m already with my folks. I found myself pregnant the father on drugs isnt around not supportive i kept it alive first right thing! Now i just want to raise my children right in a home with safe and healthy things. I cannot do that were i am i fear i never will be able to. Most recently i had a medical test come back with abnormally high wbc count and its looking to be more toward a cancerous thing haven’t ruled all out some tests are hard due to the pregnancy! Im just looking for a base a home an opportunity a miracle to remove the negative abusive and unhealthy stuff without your help theres no chance its just not possible i have no one! So please i beg you please help me to a place where i can be the person i was meant to be before all the mistreatments and unjust challenges that have left me decrepit i fear i don’t have much time left sometimes. Its life im going to leave this world only ever knowing how devalued and unfair my life has been and i accept it i do everyday i push thru i sit i am patient but the defeat is becoming unbearable. It really is and soon ill be left to the nothingness they always wanted for me for good! Please don’t let me die like that. Don’t let them take away everything and prevent even my seed from happiness before I leave this life sounds ridiculous but I really am begging you to be our miracle. What that would mean to me is beyond something that could be said or put down into words. It would never ever be forgotten, the greatest gift of my whole life to know that not all people are bad and someone even if just one cared enough to save my life! Please let that be you. Thanks for your time and attention. Even if nothing at least we’ve crossed paths. Goodbye