Allow me to tell you my story.
I’m a hard-working, God loving, single mother of three amazing teenagers. 19, 16 & 14 years of age. My 19-year-old being a college student, and two still in high school.
It breaks my heart how much I can’t do for my own children when they’re such good, loving people. I make decent money, but it’s just not enough. It’s never enough. They deserve the best of everything a single mommy can provide. Their father does what he can and is very involved in their lives, but I don’t ask him for anything. We are a team when it comes to our children, we just have our own lives and it’s been this way for years. Nonetheless, I work hard for mine and always will.
My children have watched me work hard all their lives. At one point, I even worked two jobs for two years. I’ve never been one to ask for help, but I’m hanging on by a very thin thread now.
I lived off my savings for a whole year when the pandemic arose and changed our nations lives. As I found myself running out of money, I gave my last dollar towards the last rent that I would pay in Texas. I made the decision to give my children a new beginning. After careful consideration and lots of tears, I moved us back to my hometown with no money in my pockets and with only the faith of a mustard seed. Literally.
I have family here in my home town and wanted my children to be closer with the little family that I do have. I expressed how important family is and how this is a good opportunity to strengthen our family bond.. but, the family I once looked up to, told me before moving back home that I can never come to them if I needed help. :-(
A slap to my face if I ever felt one. They broke my heart even before I could arrive and start a life here. As badly as it hurt, I never in my life needed their help before so I took my broken heart and still moved back home with my teenagers. I did this for my kids. I had to bring them back to life after what this pandemic did to our society. Their depression was getting deeper. They deserve this opportunity for a brighter future and the chance to enjoy life.
With that said, I managed to get a decent paying job and into my own place within the first year. I do pay an arm and leg for taxes and top medical that’s deducted out of my checks. However, after 3 years here I still can’t afford to pay for anything but rent, food and gas. I pay so much money for medical insurance but I can’t even use it.
My children and I need our annual checkups. We need eye exams, and to visit the dentist. I can’t even afford to use the insurance I have because I can’t afford our copays. It’s awful.
Life is so hard… but I work harder just to stay afloat.. I miss out on everything because I’m always working. I’m always working but still can’t afford to take my kids on a vacation. I can’t even take them to have any kind of fun on my days off. I’m paycheck to paycheck with barely anything left to feed us. I feel like I’m truly failing them. I pay so much for this top dollar insurance but never have enough to even take them to get them their eye exams or their teeth cleaned. So why pay do I pay so much for us to have this insurance if i cant use it?? It’s stressful.
I’m so stressed here that its affecting my own health. The stress has made me put on so much weight in the last 3 years that it’s truly insane what it’s done to me! I feel ugly and worthless. But, I was so happy and healthy before.. I just don’t understand why this is happening to me??
I have no friends and no significant other. I don’t call my family for anything but they’ve shown me that I don’t matter to them. I’m completely heart broken all the time and I cry every single day, now.
I go to work crying. I come home crying. I’m losing my optimistic spirit and my youth all at once. I’m just so drained because I’m only getting older.
I’m in need of a mommy scholarship or something… anything. I need help. I should be enjoying my life with my children… not showing them how badly it’s taking its toll on me. I should be able to keep up with the things that they need. Not showing them how hard it is to survive as a single parent.. or how difficult it is to buy us a home. This isn’t life.
I’m struggling with everything. I don’t even drink or do drugs. I’m a good, hard working mother. I’m a good person with no one in my corner. I just don’t get it?? What do I do?? I just want to enjoy life with my kids and be happy again. I want to be able to provide for them and make happy memories with my children before working is all they have to describe me.
I don’t like wording it that way… but it’s precisely how I feel. I’m wasting away because I work so hard and still can’t afford to pay for anything we need to keep us healthy. I feel like it’s slowly killing me.
Please help me….please. Anyone? I don’t know what else to do? Will someone please help me??
Thank you to everybody who took the time to read my plea for financial assistance. I will work two jobs again because my childrenare worth it… but my kids need me at home, too. Anything helps.
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