I don’t normally do this however this year has been very challenging as I have been on high blood pressure meds and my weight has been increasing due to the stress.
I am truly depressed and feel empty having to look forward to my paycheck and pay my bills and other obligations when all I get to see is $80 to $90 rightafter my main utilities and telecommunications companies are paid. In addition, my stress and blood pressure has been very unpredictable due to my Schizophrenic Sister taking off for a period of 3 to 6 days and she would just find refuge in a warm place and stay there for days until the Scarborough Police would locate her and bring her home. Since our Mother passed away with cancer 5 years ago, I have been looking after her however difficult and worse it has become.
Currently my Younger Daughter has a learning disability and has severe excema. She has a pending root canal that requires treatment. I also still owe $2,000 for my CERB payment which who knows when I’ll be able to pay. Me &my kids all require reading and night prescribed glasses, When my Mom passed away, she said she wanted me to look after the whole family including my Schizophrenic half-Sister. However, i had no idea that it would involve watching their every little move, worry about where she is sleeping out there, and also worry about paying her many credit card debts which my Mom had when she was still alive and caring for Bernie. I work part-time as a Health Receptionist earning $25/hr and my weekly net pay falls below the amount of where I want it to be as I never find myself with so much leftover. Its always hand to mouth and the Survival Games. Also due to the inflation, this is making people such as myself stagnant with negatively and feel feelings of unworthiness.
My Father is in Windsor and is 85 yrs old and isn’t as educated as i’d prefer him to be as he unfortunately has favoratism towards both of his previous kids who are both older than me and from a previous marriage. My Father blames and judges me for my anxiety, weight gain, stress and shows his favoratism towards his other Grandkids from both of his kids from a previous relationship before my Moms’. He had basically shut me and my girls out of his life for nearly one decade and his two kids who are aged 56 and 52 are very happy as they are the only ones who are on his will and i am sick just thinking about this as they have brainwashed him completely especially now that he’s already 85 and almost has dementia.
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Happy new year! Please think about me before you go to sleep tonight and hug your precious ones.