Hello, I’m a 42yr old single mom of 3. 1, 13yr old son in middle school, who has been difficult as he’s dealing w his dad becoming a absent father, 19yr old daughter who I’m also helping pay for college and wish I can buy her a car, but I can’t right now. And my youngest daughter who is 11 that is my sugar and spice and everything nice. I work hard to take care of my kids and it seems like I can never catch a break! Their father was once upon a time a great dad. However, within the last 4yrs he’s been struggling with addiction and suddenly forgot there’s not just his life he needs to worry about and that he still has 3kids that not only need him emotionally and physically but over the last 10months financially as well. I’ve tried to help him as much as I can, but I have 3other young humans that didn’t ask to be here that I need to put all my focus on. I live in California and the cost of living has just become so high that it’s almost impossible to not live paycheck to paycheck. I’ve had to take out loans and pull what little money I had in my 401k just to get by and pay my $3250 rent since last Sept. that’s when there dad stopped trying all together in helping me in any way. I’m tryin to do my best but I feel like I’m burying myself more and more in debt by having to take out small loans that have the highest interest because I have no other choice but to. My mom passed away in 2016 and dad passed away 2yrs ago, they were once my saving grace in times like this, but since they’ve both passed I truly have no one else I can turn to in emergency situations like I feel like this is now. Im not one to beg or ask for anything because I’ve had to be such a strong woman for so long now, I feel like I’m failing when I can’t provide. However, I have to put my pride and ego aside now because realistically, I’m at the end of my rope. I stress everyday, every month on how I’m going to pay my car payment (that gets me to work), how I’m going to buy groceries that are now so highly priced & how I’m going to be able to pay the rent I need to keep a roof over their heads. I rob Peter to pay Paul every month, it’s exhausting and overwhelming and so stressful that now I have anxiety just leaving my house because I just wanna hide from the world cause I feel safest at home. But I have to work, I have to push and I have to keep pushing in faith. I’ve tried looking for help they the community but there isn’t very many resources out there for people who aren’t at poverty level paying jobs. I have a good stable job and I would consider myself well paid, however even with a good paying job I feel like I’m barely capable of paying my bills because I have no money left 2days after I pay all my bills. I know it’s a long shot but it wouldn’t help to try and if trying is asking for whatever I can get, I’m gonna do just that. I don’t want to struggle, I just need a boost to get ahead so I don’t have to worry month to month anymore. So whatever anyone can do, whatever amount, it would be helping me more then you all know and I couldn’t be any more thankful and humbled by people who can either relate or understand how serious my struggle truly has been! Thank you again and God Bless. I promise that once I’m in the right financial stability, I will pay it forward as you all are doing for me now…