I am a student and single mother as well as caretaker for my grandparents. Growing up, I’ve been faced with many hardships that they have helped me get through, and continue to help by opening their home to my son and I, and I want to repay them in any way I can by making sure they are happy and well cared for as they grow older.
Unfortunately, I’ve made mistakes and racked up a lot of student loan debt, as well as credit card debt along the way. I am about $11,000 in debt. My current student loans are being affected by past which has me worried that I will not be able to continue towards my degree. With putting my focus on my studies, caring for my grandparents as well as a school aged child, all without having a vehicle of my own, I’ve been overwhelmed to say the least.
I recently moved into a different state, luckily I had enough saved to manage for a while, but had a few emergency expenses that really drained me. I am currently in between jobs, my previous employer was kind enough to keep me on board from home until further notice, but that isn’t enough to make ends meet. It’s been tough to find a job that works in between doctor appointments and sports practices, as well as getting my son to and from school on time (bus service is not offered where we live). I am diligently looking until I find something.
I do not feel comfortable reaching out like this, I feel like a burden enough knowing that I shouldn’t need help and that I should be able to have my life together by now. However, I wish I could go to sleep at night without knots in my stomach, without eating less and less each day due to anxiety. I wish I could gain back my energy and be the mother my son deserves, one who isn’t worn down and constantly living worrying about debt and if I’ll have enough to make it through the week. I understand these things are a gamble, but I also believe in human kindness and wanting to build each other up.
Thank you for taking the time to read my request.