I’m not sure where to start from or how to say this but I’m going through a very difficult time at the moment. I have two children and I currently live with my daughter’s dad but we’re not together due to him always talking down to me and yelling and screaming at me in front of my children, I have asked him to leave on several occasions but he has refused to leave. He’s still in my flat and he’s refused to pay any bills and contribute towards the kids because I don’t want to be with him.
About a week ago we got into a really big argument and the police were called because I asked him to pick up the kids from school and he refused and started an argument with me, he was yelling and he kept coming up in my face as if he wanted to hit me so that same night I put the chain on my door so he couldn’t get in the flat, when he got home that night he tried opening the door and realised that the door was chained so he called my mom and she came to my house kicking my door saying she’s going to kick my door off if I don’t open it meanwhile my kids were so scared and started crying.
My mother always takes his side no matter what he does to me, she just doesn’t care about me which sometimes makes me wonder if she’s even my real mom, I have never disrespected her in my entire life but she hates me and I don’t understand why and it’s just so painful because she’s the only parent I have because my dad passed away a few years ago and I feel like I have no one so I keep everything bottled up inside and right now I’m so depressed, I have so many bill’s that he’s not helping me with and I just can’t live like this anymore.
Sometimes if feel like giving up on life because I don’t know how much more I can take but when I look at my children I see a reason to live and a reason to keep fighting because I don’t want my kids to ever feel this way and that’s why I’m seeking help in any way possible.
I never knew about depression until now and its real because I’m going through it now.
I have so much dept and I am pleading with anyone out there who could help, please help me and my children to live a better life, my children need me so please help us through this difficult time. Thank you!