I was an abused child, sexually abused by my older brother for over 7 years of my childhood. I told a friend at 16 who told my parents and they first didn’t believe me but then learned my sister was a victim as well and they reacted with anger that I told someone. I was forbidden to tell anyone else and forced to live with my abuser until I was old enough to move out. I became angry and self destructive, had no confidence or self worth and unconsciously drew abusers into my life. My current husband is an emotionally and verbally abusive alcoholic. I separated from him into my own place but was unable to completely break ties because of the psychological effect he had on me. I then got deathly sick, suicidal, started hyperventilating and having panic attacks, and then my job of 14 years went out of business. I hit rock bottom and realized I couldn’t leave my kids with him so I began trying to heal and studying the brain and have now managed to pull away from him. Now that I’m no longer falling for his manipulation, he’s resorted to financial abuse since that’s the only way left to hurt me. There is no standing order for support because we’ve just been separated and he just cut me off with only a half day notice. I have 2 children ages 9 and 11 who have also been victims of his abuse, I also had to take on all the family pets, 4 cats and a dog. I have been looking for work for 6 months and other than cleaning houses, I’ve been unable to find anything comparable in my area. If I could relocate to another state I could get a very good job but I am trapped. I have no money for a lawyer or to move. I just need an angel to please help me through this dark time. I’d be happy to pay you back when I get settled. Thank you for reading my story and bless you.