SENDING OUT AN SOS!!!!!!
hi there, thanks for opening this. I’m not sure how to approach this asking for help thing the right way so please bare with me. I can be the most prideful person, so this experience is humbling me in more ways than I even know.
So i will start from beginning. I came out here to California, while leaving my son with my mom to keep him grounded in the school year and his sports and all. It was originally supposed to be a 2-3 month transition but has now been 7 months. I came out here and since I have been here I have had my wallet stolen that contained nearly $900, all forms of Identification and since I am not from Cali, I have been on the craziest ride ever trying to get everything I need together at once in order to get my new drivers license. Also, the place that I was living at when I moved out here, turned out to be a completely unsafe situation and the landlord was harboring romantic feelings towards me which I quickly rejected and he was not too happy with this obviously. After being harassed by him for long enough, I grabbed what I could grab and left. This was about 4 weeks ago, and I have been hotel hoping around trying to formulate a new game plan here. I am torn between getting plane ticket and just returning home with tail between my legs.. or , do I put myself back on the map so to speak and dust my shoulders off try again. …I don’t know which is the right choice. But I do know that hotels every day are very expensive and I can’t afford it. I don’t make enough money for the cost and it’s killing me, the stress of every day trying to hurry and find a way to make sure I have a shelter for the day. I am humbled beyond measure right now…;I miss my little boy so badly and I am feeling like a failure … I have let him down and he misses me terribly. I just want to hold him and then I know everything will be ok. Please please please, help me get get back on my feet and seethrough hat I came here to do. To be stable and secure and safe not only for myself but also for my son and that ensuring his safe arrival here with his mom.