I’m very tired. I’m 21 years old. I have a child. Have untreatable illness in both of my legs, this is no way for me to ask for money for a surgery; it’s not guaranteed to work and may just put me at risk of it spreading. It’s manageable at least. But I just want money to do what I want and need to. Whether it be meals, haircuts, childcare, extra for misc. Maybe jumpstart a full career.
I’ve both graduated highschool and tried to go to college. I ran out of money and have no family to help with my child. I can’t afford the care that I need for disability or to even file for it. I just want to live life. I myself have been homeless a number of times trying to break the record of my family’s drug history.
I eventually did end up losing my apartment and hud from the old state I lived in. Which led me to move myself and my son cross-country to live with a friend I met online. Risky right? Not even half of it
I’ve offered to become a mail order bride to even get any sort of money to stay afloat. To become anything anyone wanted; just to survive. I don’t have a very glorified reason to ask for money. No more than the men and women on the side of the road.
But I’ve been through so many jobs and with my legs and health slowly faltering with each time I push to live. I depend on too many people. I’ve done any and all side jobs: my art, my voice, my body, my life. This is a last resort. Till I push too hard I fall apart completely.
At this point this is just a plea. A silent plea. For anyone of anything to just give me the break that I sob for every night. Just so I can get up and bare with legs that one day will be unrecognizable, that I ever needed I could have a wheelchair and accessibility around places and even in my own home. So that my son will grow and never have to look back at his deteriorating mother. I’m only 21. My son himself is the only one. I don’t expect anything from this. I hardly doubt this will do any good at all. But it’s a shot less dangerous than previous attempts I’ve had.
What could I do with the money in a way that’s no saying “fix my life.” But also “fix my life”
Finish college for my degree and career, money for maintenance treatments, money for child care, groceries, a car, clothes.