Hi everyone. I am Suze, I’m 31 and mother to a beautiful 5yr old girl and 5 month old boy. I’ll do my best to explain our story and I hope that some of you will maybe recognise our difficulty at this time.
I separated from my partner when my son was just 7weeks old. There had been a lot of emotional and verbal abuse, mainly centred around me not bringing in enough money. I was working full time in domicilary care throughout my pregnancy, working 40hrs (up to 60+ if you include the travel time) plus 2 sleep ins per week. I then found out our money issues were in fact due to his coke addiction; which stupidly, I knew nothing about; and had to ask him to leave.
unfortunately I am now living in a house I can not afford, and due to bedroom tax and the rules about not assisting people who make themselves voluntarily homeless, the help I receive only covers the average rent of a 2 bedroom and I can not hand my notice in to get help from the council.
i was also left in quite a bit of Débt. I managed to pay the rent arrears myself, but at the sacrifice of having no presents for the children at Christmas. My son didn’t get one gift for his first ever Christmas. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself that. I have got bailiffs knocking so most days I either leave the house, or stay in my room with the baby and refuse to answer the door.
Now I am 2 months behind with my personal loan and 2 months behind in rent. Because I started my maternity early due to sciatica, my maternity is being reduced by half, in 3 months it will stop completely. I desperately want to get back to work, but I simply cannot put any money away for child care whilst I’m struggling to get out of this whole.
we do not have food in the house, last week my daughter had to make the 2 90 minute round walks to and from school because I didn’t have £10 to put in the car. Our rent is due in 5 days and I have nothing to give her. I’m seriously considering escorting as my last means. I hate the idea, I hate to think what my children would think. But my pride is now non existent, the fact I can not get us out of this situation without help is a very hard pill to swallow. Please, if anyone can help us out in anyway, it would honestly change our lives.
Thank you so much for your time reading this. Please know. This is a last resort; I will not be laying down and relying on others… I will get out of this with the help of strangers but I will ensure we stay out of this situation On my own. I just need a bit of help to get me on my way to provide the best life I can for my kids x