My name is C, I am from Canada, born and raised in southern Ontario. I met the love of my life when I was 15, I am 32 now. We had an almost decade long relationship before he left me. We had a six year old at the time and I was pregnant with our second child. Unsuspectingly I came home from work on my 29th birthday to find that he left me. All of his things were gone, his man cave was completely empty and my house was quiet, because my dog was not there to greet me like she normally was. I come to find out he had moved into an apartment across town with another woman. The children are a few years older now, as am I. I love my children more than anything in this world, and as their mother I am trying as hard as I can to give them everything they could ever want, everything I could not or did not have growing up, but I am going to be honest…I am lost. I feel completely defeated and I honestly just googled, “how to ask people for money” and this website came up and so here I am and I feel ashamed and embarrassed but I think most of all I feel angry because I was forced into this position by the father of my children unsuspectingly, completely blind sided and I have been drowning for the last 3 years. I need help, I do have a full time job and government support for the children, but no help from their father, and currently I am on medical leave for chronic pain so my medical benefits is only a small fraction of what my full time income would normally be. I also would like to say, I in no way am expecting anything out of this, I think because of how low and lost I am feeling I think writing out this paragraph is more to try and make me feel better if anything. I don’t know where my life is going, I am not sure what the future of my family is going to look like but I just so badly want to be financially stable, I am drowning in bills and debt and I am emotional all the time because life is such a struggle right now. There are people far worse off that I and I realize that, I just wish their was a solution to poverty, inflation is ridiculous, and people are losing their lives because they don’t know what else to do, there is no escape I suppose. I have to admit I do feel trapped in financial ruin right now and it is absolutely childish of me to say, especially because there is absolutely no way I am the only one feeling this exact way, and going through this exact thing, but it may sound childish to say I just wish I could snap my fingers and solve all of my money problems. I am trying to keep it together for my children, every day is a struggle, I am trying to hold on, but I am scared, I don’t know when or if I will be able to return to work, I don’t remember the last time I didn’t worry about if I will be able to keep the roof over my children’s heads. I go without eating sometimes so my children can, because sometimes I try to have a longer stretch between grocery store visits. I don’t want to ask for help, but I will just say I need help. I don’t know what will come of this, but if you read this.. thank you. I hope you are safe and warm, surrounded by the people you love most in this world.
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