I think we all can agree that the aftermath of 2020 has been nothing short of painful and catastrophic. It all began when I got the virus and spiraled from there. I do not know how it got to this point and so fast. It’s been absolutely devastating.
To begin, I am a single mother of 7 kids. I say single because unfortunately the person I had planned to spend my life with is consumed by an addiction and has become a complete stranger to me. My kids ages range from 19 all the way down to 5. To say it’s been struggle to get to where we finally were, would be an understatement. However, I worked relentlessly hard to rebuild my life and to secure my family and basically live safely in our own little bubble. That is until 2020 came along and burst my bubble. First, I caught the virus and battled it for 11 weeks with a fever of 101 or greater. We made my end of life plans as I genuinely did not feel like I was going to recover. Once I did get better, my mom and my grandma fell ill from the virus and tragically they both passed away within a week of each other. My stepdad lost his mom and exactly a week later, my mom. My moms funeral was also on my grandmothers birthday. It was not an easy month. 2 weeks later, I was served with my first eviction. For nonpayment of rent. Keep in mind we were under quarantine for 4 and a half months with no pay. I honestly don’t know how we survived at all. It was also my birthday that day. Also was the same day that my partner, completely totaled my vehicle. Engine in the dash. Still had some of my mothers things in there from her funeral but was unable to get them out due to it being registered to his grandma and she had unexpectedly passed away in May of 2020. Opened the title, but the following day everything literally shut down for 4 months. No one would have mercy and let me retrieve my moms things or transfer the title. Finally someone at the dmv took care of it for me but it took 6 weeks. During this, I was fighting for my home and my family to not lose it all together after all of these extreme events. Added in said partners addiction beginning because his inability to cope with his grandmothers passing. She was his…… everything. Managed to hold off court to December and after she tried lying and fabricating just about everything, the assistance place I called for help in august when I got the notice, finally called me and they thankfully stepped in and caught us up on rent and some utilities. Best part, my landlord LIED on the federal form so that she could get more money. Selfish and absolutely disgusting taking from those who so desperately need it. I fought it. They don’t care They just paid her to keep a roof over our heads. Thankfully. Landlord switched up her game and served me with papers to do an inspection and changed the date last min. Despite the fact that I had a not so friendly dog at the time and he had nowhere to go that day, the next week, yes but not the new inspection. They inspected and said they would come back 20 min to an hour. Never showed. Not my fault. WRONG. They lied in court, I have proof of all of their lies and regardless, the eviction was granted. Rendering my family of 9 completely homeless. Due to nobody having room for so many people, unfortunately we had to disperse. I have been slowly dying ever since that dreadful day. 3 of my children are out of state, 1 is at my dads and 3 are with me stuck in a home where I am hated and blamed for my partners inability to be not this monster that his addiction has brought out and for all of the ways that he completely screws everybody over. He has become awful. He is awful to me. In front Of my kids and sometimes gets physical even. It’s heartbreaking to watch this once amazing human being, become nothing more than an abusive, pathetic and disgusting drug addict. I really have needed my partner through all of this. But there I was, a lone man in trenches taking on grenades. Still am. I cannot live like this anymore. I’m dying having all of my kids apart. It’s killing all of them too. We’re broken. On top of all of that, I asked my partner to follow up with my 2 storage units with all of my belongings and he failed to do so, resulting in me losing absolutely everything I own. I was so completely shattered. As well as losing many of my animals. My landlord slaughtered all 6 of my pet pigs, poisoned what cats I couldn’t get out in time, through out all of my pond fish and turtles and I’ve had to disperse my dogs as well. My old neighbor that was keeping 2 of my dogs for me till I found a home, adopted out 1 and put down the other. Both without my knowledge. She didn’t even give me the opportunity to find somewhere else or the option. It still hurts. Additionally, my partner totaled my other vehicle that I had bought with some of the money my mother had left me and it is now gone as well and I never got the chance to clean it out. My life is in complete shambles. This is a small part of everything. The biggest parts anyway. I am so pathetically desperate to get out of this unstable and potentially dangerous environment. With the housing market and economy in general so insane. I literally have no possible way of achieving that. I just want to be with my kids. I’d give anything to be able to reunite my family and strengthen and rebuild together. As we always have. I cannot breathe without my children. Each passing day, gets harder and harder. It has all traumatized me to the point where I can’t go anywhere without breaking completely down because of all the memories. Everywhere. My house is STILL vacant by the way too. Ask for nothing. I need to be able to provide a home that I can afford. If that’s even possible. I need my kids. They need me. They are my life. I can live with all of the loss we endured. Maybe not quite my mom. Or her dad. Who died 2 days after her 1 year death anniversary. Being away from my kids? I cannot accept or live apart from them much longer. Please? I have searched anywhere and everywhere you could think of for something affordable. And resources for help. And nothing. Not one single thing was fruitful. I am missing moments I never wanted to miss. I shouldn’t be missing. Because greedy, awful people told a lie and got away with it. With no feeling whatsoever as they made my family of 9 broken and homeless. If anyone can find it in their heart to to help me work towards a home for me and all of my kids to be together again. Or guide me to the resources I need to be able to obtain a home, I would be forever grateful. If not, I completely understand. It’s alot. Thank you for taking the time to hear my story. Thank you for being the kind of person looking at these sites with hopes of helping people 💜 definitely need more people like you in the world. Thank. You.