Gosh, I don’t know where to begin………..
I was a single mother at 29 years old. My daughter’s father was never really in her life much. As a single mom, I held down 2 jobs and lived with my best friend. I did not want to become another statistic. For a number of years, I survived on the pure desire to give my daughter the best life I could give her. I ended up getting my own apartment and eventually my own single level 3 bedroom/2 full bathroom house. I was so proud of myself.
About 5 years ago, I fell in love and completely took for granted everything I put into place to maintain keeping my house, my car – my security. I lost my car (I did get another car – I actually bought 2), and eventually would lose my house.
About 3 years ago, my life truly took a downward spiral of heartbreak. My father died. Two days later, my step brother had died. During the passing of my dad and stepbrother, I was 6 1/2 months pregnant and newly engaged. Needless to say, Thanksgiving and Christmas are hard holidays to celebrate.
My wedding was set for 1/7/2017. This date became the date that I delivered my baby girl (32 weeks of pregnancy). She was stillborn. My fiance, at that time, and I were lost. My oldest daughter was lost. Life as I truly knew it was gone but the glimmer of light/hope I had was that following weekend, when I got married. How quickly that changed. In early February, my grandmother passed away. She passed a few days within my birthday. Several months later (June 2017), I am diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer after having my first mammogram in almost 15 years. How much can one person go through! Everyone called me strong. “You are so strong! I don’t see how you get up each morning.” I’d tell myself , I still have a daughter to take care of. She has ALWAYS been my motivation. I went through chemotherapy (lost my hair, nails and sense of taste), radiation (burned and darkened skin) and surgery (lumpectomy) for 1 year. September 2018, I had my last chemotherapy. In December 2018, I had my first mammogram – no signs of cancer. Thank you GOD! I only missed 4 months of work and that was due to my daily radiation treatments (35 in all) and recovery time from surgery. My reward for beating cancer was my husband leaving me over Thanksgiving weekend. How could this strong woman lose one of her biggest supporters?!
Here I stand defeated and lost once again. The face I display to everyone is not the face I I display on the inside. I just need a new beginning for my daughter and me. I want to be debt free, so when February 2020 comes, I am ready to live on my own once again. I want to take care of my soon to be 16 year old as she will be getting ready for college in a few years. I am no where near prepared for that financial obligation. My bank account sits on less than $50 after every paycheck. I’ve filed bankruptcy and while it helped, it didn’t take care of my federal taxes and school loans. Those 2 debts alone are almost $60-$65k. My retirement plan is under $9k and I’ve been contributing to this plan off and on for 15 years.
I’m so depressed. I need to find my sense of security again. I need to be able to show my daughter that despite all of the things WE have gone through, WE can survive and overcome anything. With this help, I can build on my foundation once again.
To help me start over, I’d be so grateful if you donated to me: https://www.paypal.me/nicknack24